So it's been quite a long time since I've posted an entry here...

The time has come for me to move on. I have entered an entirely new chapter of my life and visit this site only on extremely rare occasions. It has been amazing, provided me with incredible opportunities, and introduced me to my best friend and to my husband. I do not regret a single moment of being here.

Vet school is amazing and hard and wonderful and exhausting. If you would like the link to my blog that is just about my life in vet school to keep in touch, let me know. I also wish there was a way to capture all of my old journal entries. I will be incredibly sad to lose that record of so many years of my life.

I will soon be asking Sean to archive me. My time as a Suicide Girl has come to an end. And although that makes me sad in some ways, I feel so privileged to have been a part of it since (almost) the beginning (my first set went up in May 2002!), and I am happy to be moving forward in such a positive direction in my life. I am blissfully happily married, stable and secure, and I'm going to be a doctor in less than four years

So you all know that I was accepted to The Ohio State. I also got accepted to Michigan State, woo. But the best email of my life came on March 23rd.

I GOT ACCEPTED INTO UC DAVIS SCHOOL OF VETERINARY MEDICINE!!

What??! I know, crazy. I can't believe they actually want *me*. I keep waiting for it to be a mistake, to get an apologetic phone call. But I've already accepted the offer of admission, so they can't take it back! YAY! I can't wait! Let's play with some numbers...

-- 22: the number of shifts I have left at my less-than-spectacular job
-- 4: the number of months until I move to Davis
-- 5: the number of months until I start classes as a veterinary student (I can count that on one hand! So soon!!)
-- 4.5: the number of years until I'm a doctor


As the time for me to begin this next chapter in my life draws near, I will at some point asked to be archived. As of right now I'm sticking around, enjoying my groups and friend's blogs. But I feel like I've moved on, and this chapter in my life needs to come to an end as another begins. I am not the young, irresponsible, directionless, damaged girl I was when I shot my first photoset. I have grown up and matured, and now my future is clear. But I'll forever be grateful to this little website. I've traveled all over, met the most amazing people, have made life-long friendships, and met the love of my life -- who is now my husband. All because of a porn site. Crazy, huh?

I'm not leaving yet though. I'm sure I'll be all emotional and leave some huge retrospective blog about it all when the time comes. If I can even bring myself to really do it, heh.

The Ohio State University College of Veterinary Medicine got approximately 1000 applications this year. They interviewed 450 people, 250 of which were out-of-state (including me). There are 40 out-of-state spots, that's it.

I interviewed on Friday, and we were told that all decisions would be made by the end of the month. But that the top and bottom 20% could be notified sooner. I got a call this morning... offering me a seat in the class of 2013!!!! I screamed and jumped up and down and cried. A lot. This is amazing, I kinda didn't think I had a chance in hell!! I'm still holding out for UC Davis, but either way I will be starting veterinary school this September.

I'm going to be a doctor in four years. Holy fucking shit.

It's hard to explain the feelings that I felt when I saw that Barack Obama had 284 electoral votes. A huge smile came to my face and tears stung my eyes. To put it mildly, I was thrilled. And to have him win by such a large margin, and only an hour after results started to be reported was truly amazing. For that, I am proud to be an American for the first time in quite awhile.

Unfortunately, that elation dissolved when I heard that Prop 8 was passing by over 10%. The gap closed as the votes continued to be counted, but those who voted No were not able to completely overcome it, and in the end, Prop 8 passed. This is hard for me to discuss calmly, because it infuriates me. I honestly cannot understand it. For all of the other Props, I can understand why someone would chose differently than I did, or I can see how if someone didn't do their research, it would seem a certain way was the right way to vote. Even if that was different than how I voted. But not with Prop 8. I can see no logical reason that anyone would choose to vote Yes on Prop 8.

You cannot make it about church and religion, period. First of all, there's this phrase that might be familiar: separation of church and state. What ever happened to that? I know that many of those who voted yes did so because their bible said that homosexuality is wrong. But your bible has no place in our government, it gives you no right to deny people rights. If that were the case, my marriage should not be legal either. My husband and I are atheists, and our ceremony was nonreligious. So how can the people basing this on religion deny homosexuals but not atheists? Oh right, because were heterosexuals. What? It makes no sense. At least stay consistent in your bigotry.

I hate this talk that they have a civil union, and that should be enough. That is completely ridiculous. It's altogether different! If someone had told me that my husband and I couldn't get married, but that we could have a civil union, I would've thrown a fit. It. Is. Not. The. Same. Being married feels different to me. I know that some people say nothing changes, but for me it did. Marriage to me was obviously not about god. It was about standing in front of my friends and family and professing my unyielding and never ending love for this man. It was about making a commitment to be there for him always, it is the ultimate proclamation of love, trust, and togetherness. To deny two people in love the RIGHT to do that is completely wrong and, I'm sorry, fucking prejudice.

So what other reasons do people give for voting Yes on Prop 8? Oh yes, tradition. Seriously? To protect marriage. From what, exactly? If you want to protect marriage, ban divorce!! Divorce is the dissolution and destruction of marriage... if you really want to protect what marriage means, isn't that more logical than banning gay marriage? Marriage is about love and commitment. Two men or two women can absolutely do that, but divorce complete undoes that. Besides, how does the marital status of the two guys living on your block POSSIBLY affect you in your every day life? It doesn't. How does them being married affect your marriage? It doesn't! Yes, marriage has traditionally been between a man and a woman, but only because it's been illegal for homosexuals! Besides, if we, as a society, never made any changes and continued in ways just because it's how it's always been done, we never would have made any progress in the past and we wouldn't make any in the future. Traditionally, black people rode a different bus and drank from a different water fountain. Traditionally, women weren't allowed to vote or own land. Do these same people think that those "traditions" should have been protected and saved? Hey, traditionally our president has been white. Right?

This made me cry.

I'm stupid. Someone pointed out that they wanted to comment on my blog (the one on Blogger.com, not here, obviously), but couldn't because I had it set that you had to sign up an account with Blogger first. Fixed.

All of my vet school applications are submitted and completely out of my hands. I have officially applied.

And now... I wait.

So I've been stupid busy with vet school applications. All I have left is three 250 word essays and some final touches on random pieces, like job descriptions and such. They will all be submitted and will be completely out of my hands by Tuesday night. What a huge relief that will be!!

I also got a new job that is super amazing, but I'm working 9pm-7am three nights a week. It's kind of destroying me, heh. I'm completely useless on the weekends. It's hard for me to sleep more than 5 hours in the middle of the day. And the job is very physically and mentally tiring.

So... things to look forward to that will make me forget it all and totally happy:
1.

DEXTER TONIGHT! Woo! I'm so glad it's back

2.

I'm going October 1st, YAY!! My amazing husband bought me tickets for this for my birthday in August. And the seats are great!!