was anyone here sent away to a WWASP program
.....particularly Spring Creek Lodge

ahh. so i am applying as a transfer to csu and ucs and although i know i have come a very long way in the past few years for returning to school and so on i realize i am trying to sabatoge myself! i am really trying to stop the cycle but it is very difficult. i suppose the fact that i realize my behavior is half the battle.

Anywayyyys......

I have been working like crazy and other than being able to work that party where i got to dress up i dont think i have time to be festive this year. it makes me a little sad.

are there any other history majors out in SG land?

ok
1. i am seriously regretting theamount of taquila i consumed last night.
2 Wonkas factory violates major health codes im sure of it.
3. i get to dress like a zombie for work tonight kinda excited (perhaps will post pictures later)
4. am cuurently OBSESSED with Damien Rice.
5. want to curl into a ball and die just for like a week or two.
6. Jersey Shore is making me say " T SHIRT TIMMMME" all the time
7. For anyone who has seen ETID's dvd (one of many) why has the world not produced chicken wings with bones made of slim jims so after you eat the chicken meat you then have the slim jim as a tastey suprise?

thank you for your time and enjoy your wonderful saturday.

its not so much that you spent the night. its not so much that you leave so early. its in the middle of the night when your arm is wrapped tight around me that my eyes are wde open and i am wishing i could be anywhere else.

i am so confused as to what i want right now. but who isnt.

to be with the old or to start a new. i was never good with forks in the road and most people in my life know that i jump much too quickly. i am trying to change that and i have been doing quite well for the time being but i am getting the itch.

here are some photo updates since i realize the pictures from over two years ago do me no justice.


and look at this knarly bruise on my ass.

Thank you to all of those who commented on my last blog and im sorry if i didnt get back to you all i will eventually.

In the mean time i will let you all know looking at naked girls online while in your school library can get you a lot of interesting looks as people walk by, and in some cases it can provoke some men to walk by multiple times, not that sash and her boobs have anything to do with that. that being said i think you should all go look at her set Buffalo all im asking is to look, and appreciate her beauty and her individualism.

And here is me at school procrastinating...


Im working on my arm and hopefully it will be done soon!! until then i wont bore you with its half ass ness.

bye for now
- Ringo

In october i was diagnosed with melignant melanoma. It was on my left calf and it was a growth and not one of me pre existing moles. I am only 21 years old and i think it is extreamly importanat to get the word out. Although i grew up in a beach city and baked in baby oil all day when i was a young teen i was no worse than my friends. In fact i have never been sunburnt a day in my life (we at least the obvious lobster looking kind). I am italian and have olive skin so i would just get darker. I have many friends who would have to literally 'burn off' their pale skin to get their tan, we called this shedding. Anyways my point is i think it is important to share that skin cancer is a very real thing and extreamly dangerous. You should get checked at least once a year and make sure the Dermatologist checks your scalp and uner your feet. Its never being paranoid to check on somthing that looks weird. I didnt have health insurance and my growth had been there for 8 months. It was a small bump almost wart looking, but it was skin colored. Many people think for it tobe cancer it has to be oozing and black/pink/red. Because i waited so long the grown became a stage 4 melanoma and most doctors agree stage 5 is terminal. They had to go into my lymph nodes to make sure the cancer had not spread there and suprisingly all they found was tattoo ink. Yes thats right they opened my lymph near my groin, na dmy surgon had to remove 4 black lymps he though was cancer to find that they were covered in ink. For a surgon who had already been giving me shit for my tattoos (lovingly) you can imagine my suprise when the first thing i saw/ heard when i woke up from surgery was, "You see this is why you dont get tattoos." But there is a happy ending. All of the cancer is out and i am doing really great!!

Pictures. The scar is about 5 inches long and mis shapes my calf now.

But thankfully i have amazing friends! And never have been better!!

And in case you didnt know... i really like to dance...

i have found that my mind has perminatly taken to a new level.

it feels good to know that your mind is growing but to know that you will perminently look at things in a specific view that is so positive and meaningful is something i cannot put into words.

I love my house and i love my bed and i love that at night when i sleep with the window wide open all i can see is the sky the stars palm trees and the ocean. people pay millions of dollars for a view like mine and i have it for such a low cost. I love that i am greatful and acknowledge what an amazing situation i am in.

i love that i have never had to be 'in love'. i love that i have never been that girl who always needs a boy.
i love that i have learned from my mistakes and have moved forward.

i love that i share my life with people instead of trying to front another exsistence, or feel shame for what i have gone through.

i am sooo excited to start school. I cant even explaine how anxious i am to get my degree and start changing so many things that demand having a degree for credability.




i saw this on post secret and it stood out to me a lot. I think its because i would like to think that someone sent this for me to see.



i saw bruce springsteen in april and i love him. and i love what he has done for me through his lyrics. i would also like to clearify that "Born in the USA" is not a patriotic song. Please go and read the lyrics and if you have any sense you will see that it is just the opposite of patriatism. In fact Buce Springsteen is in general a very strong voice for the people wanting truth from government and others in power. He also asks for donations at every show for the local food bank in whatever are he is in. Just some bruce funfo. ha.



And tonight i saw strung out. I love them. and if i could i would get at least 7 of their songs tattooed on my body because i feel the messages are so important. But i think i will find another way to the get the word out. There comming out with a new album so im excited.

Well alright that is enough for me now. I lost my camera so i do not have any photo updates but i can find an old one i like for you to have something to look at.
OH WAIT...
i just remembered i went to vegas so you can look at some of those.

oh how i love huntington beach. To wake up in my home and be so close to the beach i can smell the salt and feel the sun beaming on my face and have that be my wake up call is pure perfection. I am glad i have realized where i truely want to be. i run on the beach daily and lay out as often as i can. I feel like every day is vacation and am greatful to realize how amazing and comfortable my current situation is. Much better than anyother living ive had in the past seven years at least.



It makes me so happy to see my friends succeed and become mature adults. My friend is becoming an amazing phoogropher. ^^

'The Story Of B' is what i am currently reading. In the time i have been reading this novel i have read several other books. Although i do read very quickly , 'The Story of B' is so mind altering i have to take it in very small doses. I can not explain how important i feel it s for people to read this book so i will leave it as a strong suggestion.



My birthday was on the 5th of April. I could not have asked for a better one. Over 100 of my friends showed up at my house and to my suprise not only was everything in its place and nothing broken the next morning, they all pitched in and cleaned before they left, at 7 the next morning.



I dare not put all of my pictures up. But those ones seem fair.

I also recently took a short vacation to a good friends ranch in San Louis Obispo.




We spent our time four wheeling and eating... and eating.... and eating. Of course we drank an obscene amount as well.

Lets see what else. Oh i got a new tattoo but have yet to take a picture and dont feel like it now so ill save it for another time.

Here are some parting shots .

If it feels this good gettin used
you just keep on usin me
until you use me up


talking about the way you use me
but it all depends on what you do
it aint to bad the way your using me
cause i sure am using you to do the things you do

i sit and watch the news and to be honest it has been a while. Who would want to watch this bull shit. Every minute of it is negative and when it isnt its filled with useless information about celebrities and shit that even zombies would bore of.

And when the fuck did everything get so god damn personal. You don't respond the way someone expected you to to a text and suddenly you have a problem with them or are assumed to be a bitch. Fuck get some security in your life and stop thinking that everyone has nothing else in their life to focus on but pleasing you you self centered fuck. i want some god damn privacy and just because i don't want you to know where i am and don't respond to your text i don't think that is rude i think i understand that people really shouldn't know where you are all of the time. I mean its disturbing how available we all are, sure to a great degree i hide myself ( clearly none of you know my every move ) but in general i think Americans need to just create some god dam standards about how open they should be on the borderline stalking issue. Of course i have to assume that there are many people, probably a higher percentage that my category, that don't mind being tracked 24/7. A false sense of security? Do you really think that it is healthy that most of Americans cannot leave the house without their cell phones? And the fact that we use the excuse of feeling 'safe' that we have one is a downright lie. I am positive that is not the reason you are downloading all of your special applications for your new high tech walkie talkie. Don't get me wrong i am including myself in this whole bullshit subject but honestly i feel like we should follow a few courtesy rules while using the cell phone:
1. If you are in a public place and are going to be talking about that blowjob you gave some guy last night and about how huge his dick is and how wet your vagina got ( i am using a real example from a woman who was shouting this in target yesterday) you should have your phone taken away and loose all phone privileges. 2. if you are walking in a public place ( i.e. mall, restaurant, house, etc...) and you run into someone because you were looking down at your phone you should as well have your phone taken away and loose all privileges forever.

If you couldn't tell i am a little board and love to spew about stupid things.

It was my 21st birthday yesterday and i could not have asked for anything better. it was so amazing from what i remember. i will have pictures later. i have amazing friends in my life and i am so fortunate.



it smells very strongly of cow shit on your drive to San Fran i advice you cover your face.

I am so happy i love living across the street from the beach and having summer start on your birthday. I am almost completely satisfied with my tan.