Reo's March 23, 2011 blog

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MARCH 23, 2011 @ 02:46 PM

I haven't written in almost a year. I was on idle mode. Still am i guess. I have a boyfriend now. He kinda doesn't know about this SG thing. Damn i wish i could tell him. Damn i wish i could be myself. Once in a while. I'm happy, most of the time. But i pretend a lot. I pretend so much that sometimes i'm not sure what i actually think or feel. I smile and nod. I am very good at nodding now. I didn't change, but i hide stuff. I went to one of my favorite ''nights'' last week end. It's probably why i'm feeling nostalgic. How much would you sacrifice in order to keep peace (and the whole ''thing'' thing) together?

entese

Germany

February 2011

MAR 23, 2011 02:49 PM

this is a difficult situation for sure bit i think if he dont know about here and someone else tell him would be more bad that if you somehow try to explain him about you and SG......

Reo

SUICIDEGIRL

Quebec, Canada

MAR 23, 2011 02:52 PM

I'm not worried about that. At all... He's not gonna know. Unless i tell him, he's not gonna know.

Aarron_M

Colorado Springs, CO

January 2011

MAR 23, 2011 03:30 PM

You aren't being true to yourself. I spent 8 years in a marriage trying to "be" what I thought the other person wanted. It won't work. It will build so much resentment and dishonesty...it will all fall apart. You can't be someone else for the sake of keeping a relationship. If they were right for you, you'd have told them already and he would've accepted it and moved on. The only way to really know...is to tell him right now. God, I know exactly how you feel. I wish I could go back to 8 years ago and save myself from the heartache, pain and wasted time. Please...don't hide it. Let him decide if he can handle it or not. You will find someone who can love you for you.

HeartBaker

Fresno, CA

October 2007

MAR 23, 2011 03:33 PM

I say be yourself or you'll never be truly happy

Lee

SUICIDEGIRL

Quebec, Canada

MAR 23, 2011 03:52 PM

You shouldn't have to hide stuff in a relationship. If he can't accept you for who you are then you should find someone who wants to be with you for the real you.

Twolve66

Minneapolis, MN

May 2007

MAR 23, 2011 04:35 PM

Aarron M nailed it! That was my marriage too.

legman

Portland, OR

February 2006

MAR 23, 2011 06:19 PM

I'm not good at keeping peace!

hardticket

Kingston, ON

December 2005

MAR 23, 2011 06:49 PM

My three cents. i decided long ago after a very bad break up there was no compromise with who i was and the stuff i like to do. I was happier being alone or stuck with short relatioships for several years until i found the wonderful girl i have now.

Reo

SUICIDEGIRL

Quebec, Canada

MAR 23, 2011 07:07 PM

Mmm, it's a bit more complicated than that (relationships are always complicated lol !) i'm not unhappy. I'm not exactly lying either. Uuurrgghhhhh

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