ok..ive been trying to comment on everyones blogs..seeing as how i never do. and i figure everyone comments on mine..so ill try to do that too. sry for the ppl i didnt get to ..but ill get there. but im so tired right now. this week is so busy for me. omg..i gotta work tomorrow, tues, thurs, and saturday. wedsnday is the Dope and makeshift romeo concert at the machine shop. and friday mushroomhead will be playing there. im so excited aobut seeing them. its gonna be awesome. ive seen muchroomhead once, and ive been dying to see dope. i dance to them at work all the time and let me tell you what..i tear that shit up. lol. and makeshift romeo kicks ass. thats edsel dopes new band. its him and the guys from twisted method. they rock. Thursdays the bannanna 101.5 host at teasers. hopefully this will be a good thing. cuz the last couple thursdays they have been there sucked. lol. no offense to them. i got bad news..my friend and photographer is moving to oaklahoma soon. so i need another photographer. that sucks bad. plus i dont want her to move. i was hoping me and her could hang out this summer. but i guess not. ummm....i made 25 bucks saturday night. yeah..sucked. i was sick though. i started cramping so i took 4 tylenol extras. which didnt help the cramps. but i felt fine. so i sent catherines husband out for midol. lol. and he couldnt find any so he got me motrin. and i took 2 of those. i had forgotten i took the tylenols. so i had 2,400 mgs of medicine in me. i was sick as a dog. sat by al the whole night. cuz i was freezing from being sick and he had a sunburn. so he kept me warm. felt better when i got home and ate. but it totally fucking sucked. i hate how the guys in there are so hypocritical. oh yeah i want a rock n roll chick. hey call that dumb fucking fake ass blonde over here with the big boobs. wtf. man. bastards. im gonna start telling them to buy a dance or ill eat there fucking liver. lol. im about sick of being nice. maybe thats my problem. im to nice to those low life losers that come in there. ok not all of them are. some of them are freiends of mine and shit. but im not talking aobut them so yeah. I went over to jasons house today. we went crusing around owosso. fun fun. lol. it was good to see him though. lately ive only been seeing him once a week. our work schedules are so fucked up. he works 5am till 4pm and i work 6pm till 2am. so we can hang out on weekdays much cuz he has to go to sleep early. and even on the weekends when hes off...im working. and even if im off. he still goes to bed around like 11 and im up till 6 in the morning. like right now. lol.. he calls me on hsi way to work. and im getting ready to go to bed. tis ironic how that works. but i think its better we only see each other once a week cuz it makes our time together more ...precious. i guess is the word. he wants me to spend the night over at his house with him. and weve only been dating amonth. so i keep telling him no. cuz i want to take things slow and not fuck it up. hes a good guy. and hes the type of guy i need. hes got a good job, he doesnt do any drugs..he doesnt even drink. lol. the only thing that annoys me in the leas bit is hes really anal about shit. like clean i mean. his whole house. you will never ever find a speck of dirt anywhere. like when he lets the dog in from outside..he sets a towel down and wipes her feet off. he always cleaning. but i mean..i get live witht hat. its not a major problem. i guess something im just not used to. im a clean person..but not that clean. you gotta have a mess sometimes. lol. neways..sry for such a long long blog. but i guess more to comment on right. i love you all. and goodnight.

ok so im honestly sick of these so called men that come into our club. they come into Teasers the "rock n roll" show bar. and they want the girls that look like cheerleaders or the blondes. tell me what is so rock n roll about htat. and why are they all scared of me.? i cant be that intimidating. i worked my ass of last night trying to impress those guys and i only made like 50 bucks. My last time on stage the fricking place was packed. i danced to korn. and i made 3 dollars. only one of those dollars actually came from a customer. 2 of them came from other dancers tipping me. what the fuck. ppl want to just sit there and stare at me while im getting naked on stage for 6 mins and they dont want to tip. bunch of fucking cheap ass muthafuckers. It pisses me off. you come to a rock n roll showbar. expect to be getting dances from girls like me. we are rock n roll. god im mad.

so me and aubrey went to meijers for floor mats for my car and we came back with 3 fish and 3 hermit crabs. awesome. today we got 5 more fish and another fish tank. i love fish. lol. but one of the angel fish died like 6 hrs after we got it. so were gonna take it back and get another one. bastards. sold me a bad fish. umm...i paid off some of my loan payment and i paid my car insurance...so thats good. but yeah..thats it for now. and guess what...I love Kaos....and if you dont have her on your friends list on here..you need to add her..cuz she fucking rocks and shes hot.

Im bored. someone should leave me a really long message about anything. maybe some jokes. something humorous. thats waht i think.

im honestly starting to get really upset that my set isnt going up. i mean wtf. i know i should be patient and shit. but i can only do that for son long. you know. arent there any limbos with car themes or something? we need that like 2 more..so my set can go up. lol. seriously if it doesnt go up in like a month..im sending in a replacement set. neways...yesterday work sucked. i made 32 dollars. so not cool. i found that all the girls there besides me and aubrey are dirty. they give head and shit in the vip. no wonder i dont make shit. i cant compete with that. and the manager knows and she doesnt do shit. i feel like im at deja vu again. as ironic as that just sounded. umm..tonight me and aubrey are going to visit our boys...then we have a get trashed sleep over at our old managers house. which im very excited for. June 30th my friends band downseed is playing at the machine shop for battle of the bands. nonpoint will also be there. so if you want a good show...be there. but for now im done.

So today me and Aubrey went to the tattoo shop. i had to get another bead put into my nipple ring. jason accidentally ripped it out while we were umm...yeah. the other day. and after taht we went to jasons house so she could see chad. and i hung out with Jason. some of the best sex ive ever had in my life...i tell you what. it was fantastic. I have to work tomorrow. not to excited. but i have to make like tons of money. i still need to pay my loan payments which are two montsh behind. and my cell phone payment is 2 months behind. and my insurance just renewed. thats at least 150. damnit. i hate bills. but i guess for now i have nothing else to say.

so im working at teasers in flint now. my first week there, ive worked 3 days and havent made more than 100 bucks. you gotta be kidding me. its supposed to be a rock n roll showbar. and no one is attracted to me? bunch of fucking fake ass posers....pisses me off to all hell. bunch of taint punchers. lol. so this weekend im going back up north to my hometown and partying...lol. i need it. cant wait. my dog has a vet app. for his nails. there getting so long. they grow way to fast. but i guess thats it for now. yall have fun this weekend. yes i just said yall. fucking get over it. fucktards.

sry i havent been on in a while. sinced i moved i have limited access to a computer. Im at the tat shop right now. aubrey is getting my name tattoed on her. thats my best friend. last night our club shut down. i guess the owner wants to level it. hes not our boss, just the owner. our manager told us before work yesterday taht when they locked the doors last night it would be the last time. i cried so hard yesterday. its like..i just got fired from deja vu. which was my home for a year. and i finally get comfortable at this club. i love everyone there. and then the fucking owner decides to spring that on us. our boss told us in 4 months if he can get the property there will be a new building. thank god. he told me and aubrey were the first ones he calling when he re opens. so for now im gonna go to teasers in flint. i got no other choice. but the move went well. im going back up north this weekend for my bros graduation. and saturday im going to the club and getting drunk. hell yes. aubrey moved in with me and broke up with her abusive, controlling boyfriend. i got my lip pierced in the center. it hurt really bad. really really bad. but its alright now. donny is gonna put a smaller ring in it now that the swelling has gone down. well i hope all you girls are doing good. and guys. and ill talk toyou all soon. love you!

well...tomorrow im gonna pack some of my shit and move to flint. Yay. not really..im terrified. i really dont want to move out of this hick town. i love it. im a true redneck..and i feel out of place in the city. its to big for me. to many ppl. but if i dont want to spend 30 bucks in gas to drive to work..thats what i gotta do. Im kinda excited though...cuz i mean if i want cigarettes at 5 in the morning...theres a gas station at least a mile away. here i have to drive 13 miles to get to a 24 hr gas station. and dont even think about going out to eat after 11. lol. theres no 24 hr restuarants...i have to drive to bay city or saginaw for the closest one. ant thats about 45 mins from me. lol. but i still am gonna miss it. i like walking into the bar and knowing everyone. ya know. i feel safe. i never have to worry about anyone fucking with me here. im related to almost everyone in this town and ppl know better. but neways..thats my update. and tomorrow ill be moving and then going to work. i gotta work the whole weekend. even monday and tuesday. the sapphire club better be packed. yeah.

Tomorrow is Friday, and i have to work. You know, it kinda sucks being a stripper. i mean you have to work the weekends..cuz those are when your gonna make money. so when do we go out? lol. work has sucked lately. like seriously. i think like 2 weeks ago. i worked monday and tuesday and put together i made like 9 dollars. yeah..and its not just my club either. ive been talking to the girls at deja Vu that i used to work with and its slow there too. oh..i didnt tell you guys. Deja Vu fired me for to many tattoos. now tell me honestly..can you ever have enough? thats like firing someone for being to pretty. plz...assholes. but yeah...neways. im kinda excited about work. cuz i have absolutely no money on me. i rolled pennys today. lol. so..i have a cell phone payment and a car payment. i paid my speeding ticket yesterday. i hope it gets there soon. idont need a bench warrant. and those cops in shiawasse county dont fuck around. the only reason i got the ticket was cuz they had dancers there. like anyone who has a business in that town wants the club gone. and the cops hate us. they sit in parking lots across the street and wait for us to leave. ive been doing the speed limit there. lol. i took all the shit out of my back window too and took everything off my rearview mirror. the only thing they can get me for now is my cracked windshield. oh well. neways...i hope money is good this weekend. My friend Scarlett who i worked with at the Saginaw Vu is coming down to work with me. shes hot. i have a serious crush onher. and shes straight. way to ruin it. lol. neways...thats it for now. leave me some love ppl. wish me luck at work.