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leeds festival....train...bus...jack daniels....show....cigarettes....hotel...train....home...
i know this seems awfully trite but i cannot believe how quickly the days are going by at the moment...please tell me im not the only one that feels slightly nauseous...its as if the days are somehow moving or speeding past me and im left in the past, clutching stray fibers that i refuse to let go of but the fabric is unravelling ahead of me anyway....
i hate wearing my glasses...not only because they're not very cute, but they're very intrusive...i feel disassociated with the world when i wear them...the streets of soho dont seems quite right behind a layer of glass....
my bestest friend in the world pms - ing....
i hate wearing my glasses...not only because they're not very cute, but they're very intrusive...i feel disassociated with the world when i wear them...the streets of soho dont seems quite right behind a layer of glass....
my bestest friend in the world pms - ing....
ive been out looking for a job today. dont you feel so small when you go and hand your cv in somewhere.....maybe its just me...cause i dont have any actual skills.....
i never feel like a whole person cause i always miss a part of me that i left behind in one of the two countries i live in. so therefore its very hard to build any kind of home or foundation for starting a normal life, and i never feel quite complete.
but on the other hand i obviously avoid having a normal life by moving around all the time and not having to take resposibility for anything and i feel like i have an excuse.
i decided i would quit smoking today. and then i had one within 2 hours. my,my, thats some will power.
i never feel like a whole person cause i always miss a part of me that i left behind in one of the two countries i live in. so therefore its very hard to build any kind of home or foundation for starting a normal life, and i never feel quite complete.
but on the other hand i obviously avoid having a normal life by moving around all the time and not having to take resposibility for anything and i feel like i have an excuse.
i decided i would quit smoking today. and then i had one within 2 hours. my,my, thats some will power.
i just shot two more sets before i left orlando. im excited about how they'll turn out.
im now in london and very excited to be watching real news again. a cup of tea, a hob nob and bbc news 24....yay
although after going out last night, i remember how weak the drinks are here....
im now in london and very excited to be watching real news again. a cup of tea, a hob nob and bbc news 24....yay
although after going out last night, i remember how weak the drinks are here....
at the moment im contemplating my next course of action in regards to some sort of career......
i dont have the drive or passion to pursue anything in particular and this uncertainty is driving me crazy right now......especially with all this time on my hands...it makes it so much harder not to have some sort of goal that you know you want to acheive....
i am the type that just drifts into things...but the question is, how long can i drift before something detrimental happens....or i realise its too late to do something useful....?
i dont have the drive or passion to pursue anything in particular and this uncertainty is driving me crazy right now......especially with all this time on my hands...it makes it so much harder not to have some sort of goal that you know you want to acheive....
i am the type that just drifts into things...but the question is, how long can i drift before something detrimental happens....or i realise its too late to do something useful....?
im getting ready for the big move.......THE LAND OF DREAMS
or as the book im reading more eloquently puts it:
....the city of luxury and mystery, of preposterous hopes and exotic dreams....
it might not make everything better but its worth a damn try
or as the book im reading more eloquently puts it:
....the city of luxury and mystery, of preposterous hopes and exotic dreams....
it might not make everything better but its worth a damn try
thank you to all the aussies for your support and amazing comments - im so glad you guys enjoyed the show!! i enjoyed meeting all of you, i just wish we had more time there! the audience was awesome every night + we had sooo much fun doing the show over there!! 
if im not making any sense right now its because i hardly have any coordination between brain/hands etc...i am severly jet lagged, im not sure if i should be trying to sleep...i guess so since its 2 in the morning....the world is swooping around me....i suppose my soul hasnt quite caught up yet
this is the pic i took on the plane shortly before i was convinced we were too close to the water and we were going to plummet to the depths of the ocean.....which is why i shouldnt have a window seat...
thats all the energy in me right now...more later....
if im not making any sense right now its because i hardly have any coordination between brain/hands etc...i am severly jet lagged, im not sure if i should be trying to sleep...i guess so since its 2 in the morning....the world is swooping around me....i suppose my soul hasnt quite caught up yet
this is the pic i took on the plane shortly before i was convinced we were too close to the water and we were going to plummet to the depths of the ocean.....which is why i shouldnt have a window seat...
thats all the energy in me right now...more later....
i just had a grande soy mocha (which im not sure is entirely dairy free but im choosing to ignore that) and now my chest is tight and my palms are sweaty...and then i ate pb and jelly so im completely indulging in suger shock...
...soon i'll crash and hate the world though...or maybe i should keep consuming sugar till i keel over and vomit...
i cant even type properly, my body feels like it wants to move a thousand miles a minute... 
...soon i'll crash and hate the world though...or maybe i should keep consuming sugar till i keel over and vomit...
i cant even type properly, my body feels like it wants to move a thousand miles a minute...
i bought a minivan....its a burgandy aerostar, with a cute little nose.!! its so adorable, we named her betsy...
now all i have to do is learn how to drive..its not that hard right..??!
i start work tomorrow - its about time i did something...i need to save money to get the car in tip top shape so hopefully we can roadtrip it to california in the next coming months to see the gramps...
i also need to save up to move into an apartment...im thinking right next to wholefoods...but then id probably spend A FORTUNE everyday....
can not tell you what a relief it is to turn 21...only down side is im one year older...and i dont remember doing any spectacular last year....beter make this year count..!
now all i have to do is learn how to drive..its not that hard right..??!
i start work tomorrow - its about time i did something...i need to save money to get the car in tip top shape so hopefully we can roadtrip it to california in the next coming months to see the gramps...
i also need to save up to move into an apartment...im thinking right next to wholefoods...but then id probably spend A FORTUNE everyday....
can not tell you what a relief it is to turn 21...only down side is im one year older...and i dont remember doing any spectacular last year....beter make this year count..!
