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Sunday is shoot day!! Rockezi and I have something very sexy planned. You will not be disappointed 
Work is great, they're giving me all these extra art projects! Boyfriend and I are great, what's new? Playing house is so fun.
Busted my knee real bad 2 weeks ago skating and it still hurts. Yikes, I hope I didn't chip my Patella!! Hahaha.
We got a foster kitten
she's so great to have around. I just know I am going to cry when she gets adopted. Boyfriend terrorizes her all day every day so she's pretty desensitized. I am shaking my head as I type this.
Ugh isn't she so cute? I just want to squeeze her fucking paws off
Anyone ever seen Chinatown? TRIP! Don't watch it stoned, I did and it took me 3/4 of the movie to figure the plot out HA!
Weeellllllllll, I miss you guys and I hope you're extremely excited to see me and Rockezi bumping uglies soon. Yow!
Work is great, they're giving me all these extra art projects! Boyfriend and I are great, what's new? Playing house is so fun.
Busted my knee real bad 2 weeks ago skating and it still hurts. Yikes, I hope I didn't chip my Patella!! Hahaha.
We got a foster kitten
she's so great to have around. I just know I am going to cry when she gets adopted. Boyfriend terrorizes her all day every day so she's pretty desensitized. I am shaking my head as I type this.Ugh isn't she so cute? I just want to squeeze her fucking paws off
Anyone ever seen Chinatown? TRIP! Don't watch it stoned, I did and it took me 3/4 of the movie to figure the plot out HA!
Weeellllllllll, I miss you guys and I hope you're extremely excited to see me and Rockezi bumping uglies soon. Yow!
Boyfriend comes home from Sk8 Camp next weekend, yay! Soo ready for him to be home. I can't wait to fuck in our bed 
House/petsitting all week. Gotta make that scrilla! Now that boyfriend is going to be home, I doubt I'll be doing many of these overnight-sittings. I really hate it when the person doesn't leave payment for me on the counter. I mean seriously, I'm fucking feeding your dog all week and cleaning the cat's shitbox with no fiscal motivation? Who do you think you are?
Went to a house party in SF last night. That shit was off the hook! Of course the first question my boyfriend asks today, "Did you get hit on by, like, a million guys?" Unfortunately, yes. But I'd just show off my cute little ring and that was sufficient deterrent from skeezbags.
I signed up for school. Go me!! I have to take placement tests tomorrow, yikes. I have the math knowledge of a fifth-grader. No lie. Damnit, I just want to be a writer! I don't need to know the square root of A over B squared. Sheesh.
Working on a little something with the very sexy Ms. Rockezi. Watch out now!
House/petsitting all week. Gotta make that scrilla! Now that boyfriend is going to be home, I doubt I'll be doing many of these overnight-sittings. I really hate it when the person doesn't leave payment for me on the counter. I mean seriously, I'm fucking feeding your dog all week and cleaning the cat's shitbox with no fiscal motivation? Who do you think you are?
Went to a house party in SF last night. That shit was off the hook! Of course the first question my boyfriend asks today, "Did you get hit on by, like, a million guys?" Unfortunately, yes. But I'd just show off my cute little ring and that was sufficient deterrent from skeezbags.
I signed up for school. Go me!! I have to take placement tests tomorrow, yikes. I have the math knowledge of a fifth-grader. No lie. Damnit, I just want to be a writer! I don't need to know the square root of A over B squared. Sheesh.
Working on a little something with the very sexy Ms. Rockezi. Watch out now!
Look at this awesome fan art I just received!
Thanks to LoveChristina. How flattering
Gosh, I really want to get new tattoos. It's just so expensive. I just moved so I haven't found the right place yet- this also means I'll be paying full price. Sigh. Money's the worst. Any suggestions?
I think I'm going to have a mental breakdown.
My boyfriend has been hours across the state for 52 days now. He's my best friend, my lover, my personal comic, my support, my other half. I'm just really depressed and seeing happy couples everywhere I turn isn't helping. I hate being alone; I only have his friends to contact when I need company, and lately it seems like they're blowing me off left and right.
There are issues with these fucking printable DVDs Ricky needs and I have shipped to him TWICE already but they're the wrong kind. Those things aren't cheap. Between the cost of the DVDs themselves, plus shipping, I've burned a good $200 hole in my pocket. And of course I threw the receipts away.
I need to clean the apartment and do laundry and I'm freaking out and I have no weed. My boyfriend only gets to talk on the phone for like 15 minutes when he calls and I just need him. Strange how strong these emotions are but I think I am going to cry.
My boyfriend has been hours across the state for 52 days now. He's my best friend, my lover, my personal comic, my support, my other half. I'm just really depressed and seeing happy couples everywhere I turn isn't helping. I hate being alone; I only have his friends to contact when I need company, and lately it seems like they're blowing me off left and right.
There are issues with these fucking printable DVDs Ricky needs and I have shipped to him TWICE already but they're the wrong kind. Those things aren't cheap. Between the cost of the DVDs themselves, plus shipping, I've burned a good $200 hole in my pocket. And of course I threw the receipts away.
I need to clean the apartment and do laundry and I'm freaking out and I have no weed. My boyfriend only gets to talk on the phone for like 15 minutes when he calls and I just need him. Strange how strong these emotions are but I think I am going to cry.
I just got home from Skate Camp. It was such a wonderful vacation. We got to take my friend's van which made the drive so much more comfortable. We smoked so much herb on the way up, haha. We arrived at "Dino Eggs" (a little open area off the highway where people go and party at night; there are two huge boulders you drive through to get there that look like dinosaur eggs) around 11:30pm. I was so excited to see my boyfriend when we pulled in. It was pitch black and I just started running into the nothingness and mass of people about to piss myself, haha. We got hammered there and drove to a camp site where we set up our tent and passed out.
Saturday morning we drove to skate camp. They have 4 incredible, HUGE parks to skate. We roller-decked for a while, then drove to Stoney Creek. We had to trek through all these gnarly rocks along the creek until we reached an open area where the creek meets in two places and becomes a waterfall. The water was warm; the weather couldn't have been more perfect. We blazed a blunt and drank beers at a natural pool before heading further down to the waterslides. Yes, fucking WATERSLIDES! There is a huge mellow rock that the water rushes over and off of into a big pool. You climb to the top and slide all the way down the rock and launch about 12 feet off into the water. It was by far the coolest thing I have ever done in my life. That whole place is so beautiful.
We went back to camp a couple hours later and took a nap and showered, then went to Bear Mountain Pizza. Sooo good. All of us were pretty beat after that so we just drove back and went to bed. I am so lucky my boyfriend has his own cabin, I got to sleep with him every night we stayed there.
Sunday is when all of the kids arrive, so my friends and I took off to another camp site about 10 minutes away. We ate mushrooms and fried all day. I layed in the dirt and made miniature forest settings out of broken branches. We took little nature walks and watched the trees breathe and the clouds morph. Shrooming in the forest is my absolute favorite. Headed back to camp around 8:00pm and watched the campfire skits. Still frying. Took a hot shower. Still frying. Layed in boyfriend's bed while he edited. Still frying. Had amazing sex and finally just collapsed in tiredness.
Monday we skated our fucking brains out. Took a little canoe out on beautiful Sequoia Lake. Swam for a little, ate dinner, then shredded for another few hours. I am so, so, SO excited. I learned how to pump really well so I can smash down some really steep banks and over pyramids and back up banks and transitions. Pumped tranny on a mini ramp and vert ramp until my knees felt like they had been set on fire. Hung with my friends at our camp site for a few hours, then had to retire. I was falling asleep sitting upright on a cooler. Not safe.
Today I slept in so hard. Little video interns were in the cabin with us learning Final Cut Pro while I just snoozed away. Wanted to skate but I wore a dress and got all cute soo.. Left around 3:30pm. Just kissed and kissed on boyfriend. I miss him terribly. It felt so good being able to hold his hand and just look at him all weekend. 4 more weeks, just 4.
Drive back was low key. Sparked a blunt of Chronic which ripped us all in half for about 2 hours. Spent $30 on snacks, hahaha!! Finally, here I sit. Back at home in the bay. I'm so effing glad I decided to go all meth-addict on the apartment before I left Friday. Everything is spotless. So comfortable.
Lucky girl, I get to go back in 2 weeks (for 3 days). I'm bummed, I left my skate at camp!! Good thing my boyfriend has about 6 in our storage space. Just got next month's schedule for work. I don't have to work until 10:00pm on Thursdays anymore and I get off at 6 on fri, sat, and sun now. A leetle better I suppose. I am kind of fucking ticked though that 2 new people got hired and one has sat AND sun off, and the other has sat off. Ughhh. Patience is a virtue, time was not meant to hurt you. Breaaaathe.
Right back to the grind tomorrow. Le sigh.
Saturday morning we drove to skate camp. They have 4 incredible, HUGE parks to skate. We roller-decked for a while, then drove to Stoney Creek. We had to trek through all these gnarly rocks along the creek until we reached an open area where the creek meets in two places and becomes a waterfall. The water was warm; the weather couldn't have been more perfect. We blazed a blunt and drank beers at a natural pool before heading further down to the waterslides. Yes, fucking WATERSLIDES! There is a huge mellow rock that the water rushes over and off of into a big pool. You climb to the top and slide all the way down the rock and launch about 12 feet off into the water. It was by far the coolest thing I have ever done in my life. That whole place is so beautiful.
We went back to camp a couple hours later and took a nap and showered, then went to Bear Mountain Pizza. Sooo good. All of us were pretty beat after that so we just drove back and went to bed. I am so lucky my boyfriend has his own cabin, I got to sleep with him every night we stayed there.
Sunday is when all of the kids arrive, so my friends and I took off to another camp site about 10 minutes away. We ate mushrooms and fried all day. I layed in the dirt and made miniature forest settings out of broken branches. We took little nature walks and watched the trees breathe and the clouds morph. Shrooming in the forest is my absolute favorite. Headed back to camp around 8:00pm and watched the campfire skits. Still frying. Took a hot shower. Still frying. Layed in boyfriend's bed while he edited. Still frying. Had amazing sex and finally just collapsed in tiredness.
Monday we skated our fucking brains out. Took a little canoe out on beautiful Sequoia Lake. Swam for a little, ate dinner, then shredded for another few hours. I am so, so, SO excited. I learned how to pump really well so I can smash down some really steep banks and over pyramids and back up banks and transitions. Pumped tranny on a mini ramp and vert ramp until my knees felt like they had been set on fire. Hung with my friends at our camp site for a few hours, then had to retire. I was falling asleep sitting upright on a cooler. Not safe.
Today I slept in so hard. Little video interns were in the cabin with us learning Final Cut Pro while I just snoozed away. Wanted to skate but I wore a dress and got all cute soo.. Left around 3:30pm. Just kissed and kissed on boyfriend. I miss him terribly. It felt so good being able to hold his hand and just look at him all weekend. 4 more weeks, just 4.
Drive back was low key. Sparked a blunt of Chronic which ripped us all in half for about 2 hours. Spent $30 on snacks, hahaha!! Finally, here I sit. Back at home in the bay. I'm so effing glad I decided to go all meth-addict on the apartment before I left Friday. Everything is spotless. So comfortable.
Lucky girl, I get to go back in 2 weeks (for 3 days). I'm bummed, I left my skate at camp!! Good thing my boyfriend has about 6 in our storage space. Just got next month's schedule for work. I don't have to work until 10:00pm on Thursdays anymore and I get off at 6 on fri, sat, and sun now. A leetle better I suppose. I am kind of fucking ticked though that 2 new people got hired and one has sat AND sun off, and the other has sat off. Ughhh. Patience is a virtue, time was not meant to hurt you. Breaaaathe.
Right back to the grind tomorrow. Le sigh.
So who knows of a great place to shoot a set in the bay area? Any cool outdoors or abandoned areas? Any studios that would be willing to let me get naked for an hour or two? How about friends or family with really huge houses? I am itching to shoot soon but I don't know my way around here that well, still.
Any help is much appreciated!!
Any help is much appreciated!!
Work is like eh, whatever. I'm at that point where I just assume everyone is being fake. Isn't that what they call, "putting your guard up" or "building a wall"? Yeah, that's the idea 
Saw boyfriend last weekend. He brought me home two new raccoons. Now I have a cute little one for my car I wish he was back for good. Like, for the rest of the year. This separation has been really hard on me. I feel like I've just woken up in a bathtub full of ice, missing a vital organ.
Other than that, I've gotten some killer submissions for the magazine. Remember, no need to consult with me, just write/draw/photograph/bake/sew/etc. whatever you are interested in and e-mail it to me @ toclearmylungs@gmail.com. I'm also working on the logo.
I believe it is time to join forces with one of my lovely photographers and do a new settt. And I promise I'm still going to do Workout Sesh: 2, I've just been really busy
Saw boyfriend last weekend. He brought me home two new raccoons. Now I have a cute little one for my car
I wish he was back for good. Like, for the rest of the year. This separation has been really hard on me. I feel like I've just woken up in a bathtub full of ice, missing a vital organ.Other than that, I've gotten some killer submissions for the magazine. Remember, no need to consult with me, just write/draw/photograph/bake/sew/etc. whatever you are interested in and e-mail it to me @ toclearmylungs@gmail.com. I'm also working on the logo.
I believe it is time to join forces with one of my lovely photographers and do a new settt. And I promise I'm still going to do Workout Sesh: 2, I've just been really busy
Per usual I was taking a shower stoned when I got this bright idea that I would like all of you to participate in!
Lately, I've been confused as to what career path I want to head towards. I have so many different hobbies & interests that it makes it near impossible to find a career track that encompasses my true love, writing, as well as art & psychology. I have considered studying journalism (and still am) and since I was a little girl I always wanted to write for a magazine. With recent movements in free speech and individualism, I see now as the perfect time to put our brains together and compile a huge, gushing periodical full of articles pertaining to a endless amount of subjects, art, music, interviews & whatever else we can print on the pages!
This is an opportunity for all things creative to get some exposure. We will also be providing much deserved advertising space for local skate/surf/tattoo/retail/art gallery/book stores, etc. etc. etc.
Since this would be a free magazine, all articles/photos/art/interviews would be accepted on a VOLUNTEER basis. Once things get going we can start a donation fund for printing supplies (among other things) and do contests, raffles, appearance at skate demos or bars or festivals or really wherever the hell this may lead us. The point is, we are getting real people's opinions, stories, thoughts, and creative energies out there for the world to enjoy.
Anyone who is interested in participating is more than welcome to submit the following:
-Informational articles.
-Interviews with musical talents/models/actor or actresses/authors/artists/political figures/and anyone else of interest.
-Scanned illustrations/paintings/pastels/charcoal/photos/photoshop art/foil, beads, fabric, fashion, tattoo, cartoon, or any other artistic creative creations.
-Current events articles.
-Instructionals & How-To guides.
-Recipes!
-Documentaries or experimental articles/logs (i.e. no sex for 30 days, methods to quit smoking & how effective).
-Anonymous secrets or messages.
-Poems, lyrics, haiku.
-Short fictional writings. Mysteries would be awesome, romance, action, sci-fi, memoir or biographies also cool.
-Psychological, mental, or physical health articles.
-Self help articles.
-Economical, money-saving, gas-sparing,tips. Vegetarian/Vegan articles, all things environmental.
-Skateboarding/Snowboarding/Surfing photos, stories, articles, contest coverage, interviews, art, etc.
My mind is just exploding with ideas and I hope yours are too! You are pretty much welcome to submit absolutely everything under the sun that interests you. If you would like to participate, please send an e-mail to me: toclearmylungs@gmail.com
Please include your name (first & last), what name you would like to go by in the magazine, contact info (e-mail address/website/myspace if you'd like), your submission as an attached file, & any other info you would like to tell about yourself! Feel free to send in submissions as frequently as you'd like. If you can provide help in any way, please also e-mail me for details on what kind of stuff we need donated to get this thing running. Now, I'm not sure how long it will take to get the ball rolling but the more submissions/volunteering we get, the better.
I know you guys have got some amazing talents to showcase. Thank you for your time and consideration.
Lately, I've been confused as to what career path I want to head towards. I have so many different hobbies & interests that it makes it near impossible to find a career track that encompasses my true love, writing, as well as art & psychology. I have considered studying journalism (and still am) and since I was a little girl I always wanted to write for a magazine. With recent movements in free speech and individualism, I see now as the perfect time to put our brains together and compile a huge, gushing periodical full of articles pertaining to a endless amount of subjects, art, music, interviews & whatever else we can print on the pages!
This is an opportunity for all things creative to get some exposure. We will also be providing much deserved advertising space for local skate/surf/tattoo/retail/art gallery/book stores, etc. etc. etc.
Since this would be a free magazine, all articles/photos/art/interviews would be accepted on a VOLUNTEER basis. Once things get going we can start a donation fund for printing supplies (among other things) and do contests, raffles, appearance at skate demos or bars or festivals or really wherever the hell this may lead us. The point is, we are getting real people's opinions, stories, thoughts, and creative energies out there for the world to enjoy.
Anyone who is interested in participating is more than welcome to submit the following:
-Informational articles.
-Interviews with musical talents/models/actor or actresses/authors/artists/political figures/and anyone else of interest.
-Scanned illustrations/paintings/pastels/charcoal/photos/photoshop art/foil, beads, fabric, fashion, tattoo, cartoon, or any other artistic creative creations.
-Current events articles.
-Instructionals & How-To guides.
-Recipes!
-Documentaries or experimental articles/logs (i.e. no sex for 30 days, methods to quit smoking & how effective).
-Anonymous secrets or messages.
-Poems, lyrics, haiku.
-Short fictional writings. Mysteries would be awesome, romance, action, sci-fi, memoir or biographies also cool.
-Psychological, mental, or physical health articles.
-Self help articles.
-Economical, money-saving, gas-sparing,tips. Vegetarian/Vegan articles, all things environmental.
-Skateboarding/Snowboarding/Surfing photos, stories, articles, contest coverage, interviews, art, etc.
My mind is just exploding with ideas and I hope yours are too! You are pretty much welcome to submit absolutely everything under the sun that interests you. If you would like to participate, please send an e-mail to me: toclearmylungs@gmail.com
Please include your name (first & last), what name you would like to go by in the magazine, contact info (e-mail address/website/myspace if you'd like), your submission as an attached file, & any other info you would like to tell about yourself! Feel free to send in submissions as frequently as you'd like. If you can provide help in any way, please also e-mail me for details on what kind of stuff we need donated to get this thing running. Now, I'm not sure how long it will take to get the ball rolling but the more submissions/volunteering we get, the better.
I know you guys have got some amazing talents to showcase. Thank you for your time and consideration.
SEPTEMBER 2008