oh my how sad am i that my beloved nicolletta left in the wee hours this morning! i adore her and her adorable main squeeze fermin! they are the cutest. i had to work a lot while she was here but we still managed to shoot photos, drink, cook and laugh a lot. she is so beautiful, if you met her you wouldn't be able to stand it or look directly at her, like the sun. hopefully i will have some photos sooner then later. it was a blast and the three of us (joshy boy, roach and i) have vowed to visit uruguay! ah, it is so nice to meet amazing people. i feel so lucky!
now i have the whole weekend off!!! that never happens. tomorrow we are going to take bentley to the beach. i'm going to lay in the sun and take a nap and soak up some vitamin d. and sunday i might just sleep half the day. sleep in and walk the pup and lay on the back porch in the sun with the cat. then clean. must clean. we have more visitors next week. visitors from florida for my 25th (shudder) birthday! i don't know if i want to party or keep it quiet. maybe both. some other people have birthdays around mine and are partying hard so i don't want to be all "oh hai i have a birthday too" yeah. i'm weird. but there is a meteor shower on my birthday and since joshy boy got me a FUCKING TELESCOPE for my birthday (yeah hes that cute he gave it to me a week early)...(i came to the back porch blindfolded and it was set up on the roof) maybe we will drive to the beach or something and just watch stars fall. then party.
hmmmm what else? thats all i've got i think kittens. enjoy this beautiful friday bay area, and anyone else who is experiencing the awesomeness of spring!
<3

I'M DIVORCED ! ! !
it feels so good. i was skipping down the halls of the courthouse beaming! smiling from ear to ear. roach came with me and then the little peach treated me to lunch at golden lotus, which is my favourite restaurant in this galaxy. (get the spring rolls) then we hopped the 1R bus to berkeley where we were going to shop or something but ended up going to joshy's tattoo shop where he did an adorable madison anchor on roach. it's a diamond and so so so cute! after buying some cute socks and a few rounds of tequila shots at a bar down the street we went back to misfit island(our apartment) and i made a 'meat' sauce and some pasta for dinner. i got julio and billy to eat it and like it(they are ravenous carnivores). we drank some tequila and around 11 i was blacked out asleep on pillow mountain in my clothes. ah, some things never change.

i feel like i just escaped an evil orphanage to join a russian circus.
(i stole that from anis mojgani)

this week is bananas. correction, this month is bananas.
josh is working everyday to save money to go to the APA convention in las vegas. me=proud, but also missin' the papa. we don't have a day off together probably until my birthday, which by the way is quickly approaching(ahemapril22nd) but it's kinda good. i miss him, he misses me and we get along swimmingly when we have those few hours before sleep and before we head off to work. today is a beautiful example of an hour spent laughing and making pancakes.
nicolletta will be staying with me this week and on friday, also the day i go to the courthouse to finalize my divorce with roach in tow(thank god for best firends), i will be shooting a long overdue set with her! OMG can you feel the excitement? i simply cannot wait to meet her and her man. it's been awhile since we had some visitors and what a way to kick off misfit island's busy season!
ok i should get back to work but i just wanted to share the awesomeness.
p.s. i'm tired. i couldn't sleep at all last night...
p.p.s. i <3 her roachness

stupid josh and roach won't sit beside me when we play mortal kombat vs. dc universe. i get the rage and sometimes punch them. last night after a little whiskey i hit josh kinda hard in the chest hahahaha. his face was priceless and i DID feel bad. yes i'm a jerk and i didn't really know my own strength. i hate hate hate losing. i REALLY hate losing to f-ing roach who just mashes the controller. i understand this blog is silly, and you might find me less appealing to know how brutally competetive i am when it comes to the likes of video games(air hockey, candy fights, wrestling... ect.) i'm starting to think i just have no control when i get a)excited b)frustrated. example #2 ... last week someone starting phone stalking me. some friend of a guy i used to date. calling me 4 or 5 times a day and texting me waaaaaaay too much. i had expressed to him how i wasn't into kickin' it and i had a rad man and i hadn't even talked to him in over a year so i didn't get his new found obsession. ok , so night rolls around on .. hmm let's say tuesday. yeah it was tuesday and i was sitting in bed with lou and my phone rang AGAIN and instead of answering it or ignoring it i just threw the phone at the closet. now i didn't think it was that hard. phone throwing is common in my house. sometimes to scare icky, sometimes to avoid whoever is trying to call. but apparently it was hard enough to smash the stupid jerk phone into pieces. so, i'm phoneless and i learned a lesson. that i need to throw my phone at couches, pillows, beds and clothing piles. not walls.

look at the birdy! i think i'm getting sick. good thing my team of doctors are clearly on point.

just for a second can we marvel in my magical mohawk french braiding skills?

and as i type i realize that photo doesn't do the awesome justice since it kinda looks like its starting to fall out... oh well, next time i'll braid it headache tight.
i had a really good night last night. it was quiet and spent with roach, who helped me make dinner, and our male bizarros. i then proceeded to bake some dangerously potent cookie-brownies and got very faded and fell asleep laughing and woke up starving. not a bad wednesday night at all.

i've been slipping on the vegan thing here and there lately. mostly just in the past month. eating things with casein or some other dairy products. it kinda makes me feel like garbage. like i'm so bad with sticking to something i can't even control my diet. it's no secret i'm a sucker for the drink and we have been doing that a lot at casa de awesome lately. i'm finding more and more that it's not fun. there a few serious things going on in my life right now and where we will all start out having fun i will almost aways end up sad or angry over something. this april is giving me a few exceptional fresh starts. i will finally be divorced. and where that is bringing a lot of strange feelings and different difficult emotions and thoughts into my head, i cannot wait to be done with it. i feel bad because i think some of my recent actions and over reactions stem from this. i'm hoping once it's finally done i can breathe my sigh of relief and step into my new world of awesome.
in other april news, i will be turning 25 on the 22nd (earth day for the hippies...) my longtime friend and chosen extended family member, gnooshie, will be flying out from florida to help me celebrate. i'm not sure what we are going to do. i'm a fan of beaches and deserts and huge lookouts and i think thats the direction i'm gonna go. there is a meteor shower the night of the dreaded 25th so maybe something magical will happen.
april also brings other visitors. nicoletta and her man and, fingers crossed, miss.snow will be staying in my teeny tiny home for a few days. i'm over the moon excited to meet this lady and super stoked to see snow again. it has been years! besides the fact that i'm in debt and broke like a joke life is still pretty zazzy. hopefully i can pull some magic out of my ass and everyone i encounter enjoys themselves.
ok i'm done rambling. have a good monday sg.

btw... this is what awesome looks like



or day drunk, whatev.

it was hard to get out of bed today. i feel so f-ing lethargic now that i'm not working at the restaurant and i'm at a desk everyday. even tho i walk from bart to work it's still not enough. i need a bike. BADLY! i want to go on bike adventures and ride to bart instead of the stupid bus. i'm so bummed on the economy. my club is slow and so hours were cut which is a bummer but hopefully things will pick up. i have to pay for a new greencard since mine was jacked when i was robbed in the fall. bummer. i really have put it off for long enough. the stamp on my passport expires in april so i have to handle that quick. ugh. ok and my stomach hurts. i'm done complaining. aside from money worries everything is golden.

i think this picture means people like me, and i'm a jerk. or they are hungry... thats probably it.