hello my friends
i had an awful day at work , well not awful - i love my job . . . but i was sick all day & it was busy so i was just a little bummed. paul & mike came into work , nice to see people i like come & visit.
i mad a cool cd today , well its cool to me!
im going to toreenas house soon to drink wine & play um cards . . . ya that sounds good
im making eggs in the microwave right now as i wait to go to my lady's house
i was going to go to the hospital for how sick i am , but i figured id rather spend my saturday NOT in the emergancy room for 6 hours
oooo eggs are done , i heard the ding

Well, I never really understood religions,
Except it seems a good reason to kill.
Everybody's got their own conceptions,
And you know, they always will.
These days are needles under my skin.
Jesus shootin' heroin.
If there are priests at your party,
And you're playing cards that are numbered,
And you got no reason to think it,
Until your chances are uncovered.
Tell me that I got to believe in,
Jesus shootin' heroin.
The police in New York city,
Chased a boy, right through the park.
In a case of mistaken identities,
They put a bullet through his heart.
I met Mary, on the corner with the streetlights.
She asked me if I'd come up to her room.
I told her that I didn't have no money.
She said she had to leave pretty soon.
I decided that I would go in.
Jesus shootin' heroin.


i know it seems im obsessed with song lyrics
thats because i am
when i was in 12th grade i was suspended for using these lyrics in a religion essay

i was suspended for so many things in higschool
so i never regret dropping out
i know its kind of fucked me in the end , or maybe not
i had a hard time not questioning things , all my life really
my parents were always on my side

annnnyway i was woken up with a sweet phone call today . . . it was nice to hear someone i loves voice being the first thing i register in the morning

i have such fucked up mixed emotions about everything , im just so confused . . . & i know i should just chill out , & sometimes i do
but more often then not , i cant control how i feel

happy thanksgiving to all the amiercan suicide people
im sick today
has anyone ever died from a yeast infection?
if not im sure to be the first

so much drama in my little life , sometimes i just want to go where nobody can find me
new boyfriends ex girlfriends , little shit gets to me sometimes
i dont know how to react
his ex showed up crying because she missed him sooooooo much
so he let her in
but 3 hours later when i called
she was still there
he still loves her , he told me so . . . but he says he loves me too
i cant compete with someone who lives near him & is around all the time & has a 5 year or even more history with him
i run up $600 phone bills just to hear his voice
*sigh*
how am i suppose to feel
it seems to petty in the long run . . . but is it?
help me

these lyrics
the piano
makes my knees weak
always have

I am Colorblind
coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am taffy stuck and tongue tied
Stutter shook and uptight
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am fine
I am covered in skin
No one gets to come in
pull me out from inside
I am folded and unfolded and unfolding
I am
Colorblind
coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am fine

what lyrics are making you tick today

ugh 7 am
who knew id have to wake up so early to work at a skate shop
i couldnt get ahold of hippie last night so i slept all fucked up , i hate that
i can tell today is gonna be ok though , ever have that? when you wake up & you just know the day isnt going to suck too badly!?
im dreading my phone bill . . . looks like its going to be an imagination christmas this year -'i got a pogo stick' - 'i got a houla hoop'
ahhh good old rod & tod

im starting to fell like im wasting my days off by sleeping through them
its like 4:30 & im just getting up
i feel like a bum
i miss toreena . . . figures i find a kindred spirit & she lives just that much further away then is easy to get to
im gonna learn how to take the go train , that should be interesting

i cant stop sneezign & its driving me crazy
its only 8:30 pm & im about ready to pass out
im so happy i dont have to work tomorrow
i love emma's new set
knives,cigars & a hot naked lady - a dream come true
i miss anika soooo much
where or where has my likitty gone
she split

so its 12:50 am and i just gont home from work
midnight maddness takes a tol on the little ticker
i think im sick , which would suck
i keep listening to the same elliott smith song over & over on repeat
2:45 am - such a great song
i like music like that
that you could cry to , or just picture it as a song in the movie of your life

i had a sleepover with toreena last night
we drank beer & ate pretzels . . . & eachother
now i have to go to work with a big hickey on my neck which i think is sweet
im curious to see how my boss with react
rarely do i find people i click so well with
im a tired , but happy camper today