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it's hotchachacha out there folks. too hot for real clothes, that's for sure.
my hair isn't blue... i don't know why my hallway makes it that colour. phone cam fail.
i'm not going to complain about the heat. it's been a mild summer and i'm enjoying(even tho i'm sweating constantly)the heat. mmmmmmm sun. i heart you vitamin d, i heart you to the maximum.
you know what else i dig?
my view of roach every night...
makin' magical vegan food!
(vegan orange sesame "chicken" with pineapples and curried rice with rasins) FUCKING NOM!
and recently... mid day naps...
my hair isn't blue... i don't know why my hallway makes it that colour. phone cam fail.
i'm not going to complain about the heat. it's been a mild summer and i'm enjoying(even tho i'm sweating constantly)the heat. mmmmmmm sun. i heart you vitamin d, i heart you to the maximum.
you know what else i dig?
my view of roach every night...
makin' magical vegan food!
(vegan orange sesame "chicken" with pineapples and curried rice with rasins) FUCKING NOM!
and recently... mid day naps...
my summer theme of "party!party!party!" has been retired. it's been really fun but i need to get back on the wagon and figure some things out.
i'm excited to go to yoga tonight! i'm even dragging roach with me! gonna get some nomtastic grub in berkeley with her and sweat it up. then..... the cleaning of our apartment. we kinda threw a rager last night and from what i remember seeing this morning it's gonna take some effort. it was a hell of a way to end the insanity. i'm excited to focus more on work and my heart and mind. it's tricky for me. i have an addictive personality. i go too far, over the top, to the fucking moon sometimes. i won't tell you what idiotic thing i did last night but it's worthy of me sobering up for a long time, and baking cookies for someone. i don't remember much of last night. i did, however, wake up in my jeans and bra. good job!
on that note, "margarita sunday" has been altered this week to "muir beach sunday(dogs included)." which is very smart and hiking up the huge hill there is very rewarding. i'm into it.
if anyone has any suggestions as far as fun things to do sober it would be muchly appreciated. after partying all summer(my life) i feel like i've forgotten how to be normal.
also...
new jammies from billi at blackheart organics!!! we just designed another amazing pair yesterday/today... pretty stoked. check his work if you are a stretcher. he has some really stuff and i just can't say enough good things about him.
i'm excited to go to yoga tonight! i'm even dragging roach with me! gonna get some nomtastic grub in berkeley with her and sweat it up. then..... the cleaning of our apartment. we kinda threw a rager last night and from what i remember seeing this morning it's gonna take some effort. it was a hell of a way to end the insanity. i'm excited to focus more on work and my heart and mind. it's tricky for me. i have an addictive personality. i go too far, over the top, to the fucking moon sometimes. i won't tell you what idiotic thing i did last night but it's worthy of me sobering up for a long time, and baking cookies for someone. i don't remember much of last night. i did, however, wake up in my jeans and bra. good job!
on that note, "margarita sunday" has been altered this week to "muir beach sunday(dogs included)." which is very smart and hiking up the huge hill there is very rewarding. i'm into it.
if anyone has any suggestions as far as fun things to do sober it would be muchly appreciated. after partying all summer(my life) i feel like i've forgotten how to be normal.
also...
new jammies from billi at blackheart organics!!! we just designed another amazing pair yesterday/today... pretty stoked. check his work if you are a stretcher. he has some really stuff and i just can't say enough good things about him.
sunday is my favourite day of the week. it is almost always spend with my beloved friend gretchen at la estrellita in oakland. we sit outside and devour pitchers of margaritas and bask in the sunlight and talk all day. it really is one of my favourite things to do. i look forward to it weekly!
yum!
this weekend we decided to go to the flea market behind laney college before doing margaritas and oh my god was it awesome. while recovering from the show at merchant's the night before we wandered around for about an hour or so and i found some pretty jammin' things. i kinda want to add the flea market every week! see... i can commit to some things.
that, and i finally found sunglasses i like and am going to try not to lose or break.
i also found a wooden jewelry box with a peacock on it and had to get it. we love peacocks in our house... how can you say no?!
it was nice to hang out with all girls yesterday. roachy roach had an abortion of a saturday night and my friend leila is in the shit too so it was nice to band them together and get some much needed girl time.
to back track, saturday was awesome for awhile. adam_vincent came to hang in the beast and we went to merchant's for a show. it was suuuper fun for awhile. i ended up having to consol a friend in tears, drive my drunk friends car home and kick a dude outta my house. on the upside, i love hangin' with my friend adam and my friend logan was around and he is always a good time.
i can feel myself getting kinda sick again so after party time on tuesday i'm layin' low and resting.
today when i get off work i'm going to meet miss.roach for lunch and yoga and maybe a movie! yes! how better a way to foget a loser boy then to have your insane best friend plan out your days off!?
annnyway, here is the view from my margarita sunday.
cross your fingers i'm not getting sick again, because it sure feels like it! i need some tea and a nap. i'd stop the party!party!party! but it's summer and i already got ripped off for like 3 weeks of it being sick as fuck.
september i'll chill out and stay in more..... i promise.
yum!
this weekend we decided to go to the flea market behind laney college before doing margaritas and oh my god was it awesome. while recovering from the show at merchant's the night before we wandered around for about an hour or so and i found some pretty jammin' things. i kinda want to add the flea market every week! see... i can commit to some things.
that, and i finally found sunglasses i like and am going to try not to lose or break.
i also found a wooden jewelry box with a peacock on it and had to get it. we love peacocks in our house... how can you say no?!
it was nice to hang out with all girls yesterday. roachy roach had an abortion of a saturday night and my friend leila is in the shit too so it was nice to band them together and get some much needed girl time.
to back track, saturday was awesome for awhile. adam_vincent came to hang in the beast and we went to merchant's for a show. it was suuuper fun for awhile. i ended up having to consol a friend in tears, drive my drunk friends car home and kick a dude outta my house. on the upside, i love hangin' with my friend adam and my friend logan was around and he is always a good time.
i can feel myself getting kinda sick again so after party time on tuesday i'm layin' low and resting.
today when i get off work i'm going to meet miss.roach for lunch and yoga and maybe a movie! yes! how better a way to foget a loser boy then to have your insane best friend plan out your days off!?
annnyway, here is the view from my margarita sunday.
cross your fingers i'm not getting sick again, because it sure feels like it! i need some tea and a nap. i'd stop the party!party!party! but it's summer and i already got ripped off for like 3 weeks of it being sick as fuck.
september i'll chill out and stay in more..... i promise.
i started yoga at a new studio in berkeley... yoga to the people! can i just say that my experience there so far has been unbelieveably rewarding! i had yesterday off so i decided to go to the 12pm class and it made my whole day brighter and happier. after class i walked from shattuck square to roach's work, about an hour walk, in the sun. somehow she got out of work early so we went to the park behind her work to lay in the sun and enjoy the beautiful afternoon.
see exibit a)
it was hotchachacha (hot as fuck) outside! after being sooooo sick for so many fucking days/weeks i've resolved to spend whatever time i have off of work in the sun or at yoga. i'm feeling really good about it.
our giddy, sporatic date spawned me showing roach how to successfully use other parts of your body to walk.
see exibit b)
my favourite thing in the world is making that chick laugh 'til her honking laugh comes out and her eyes squint. she hasn't had the easiest go of things... you should go tell her how fucking amazing she is. because she is. she saved and changed my life! the least i can do is handstands and front walkovers in my sports bra in the park for her, right?!
see exibit a)
it was hotchachacha (hot as fuck) outside! after being sooooo sick for so many fucking days/weeks i've resolved to spend whatever time i have off of work in the sun or at yoga. i'm feeling really good about it.
our giddy, sporatic date spawned me showing roach how to successfully use other parts of your body to walk.
see exibit b)
my favourite thing in the world is making that chick laugh 'til her honking laugh comes out and her eyes squint. she hasn't had the easiest go of things... you should go tell her how fucking amazing she is. because she is. she saved and changed my life! the least i can do is handstands and front walkovers in my sports bra in the park for her, right?!
consoling bentley due to the lack of bacon in his life.
keeping it classy in oakland.
party! party! party! with my portland buddy justin. you may remember him from last septemeber/october blogs as he lived with roachy roach and i for a bit.
princess slutty shirt is too white for direct sunlight.
life has been ruling pretty hard lately. thank god. josh lost it on me so i have baleeted his leotarded ass from my life. so. over. it. god, that kid sucked the life out of me. i pinky swore my boss (who is cool as fuck) that i'd never hang out with him again. what an asshole. if i told you what happened, well... you'd want to break his other leg.
i also had another friend accuse me of being shitty and i reallllllly don't think i am but whatever. i am what i am and i think i'm pretty fucking nice, actually.
anyway.
i've been hanging out with pretty girls and cute boys and amazing friends! running wild in the streets, tipping barteneders with weed, having sleepovers and such. kinda, maybe, totally loving it. i've also decided to make some healthy choices for my body since i'm making healthy choices for my mind and heart. i've gone back to a strict vegan diet! i'm also going back to yoga starting tomorrow afternoon and am very, very excited about it!
other things i have to be excited about ...
-a possible nicolletta sighting and loving in september
-hanging out with an old friend who i haven't seen in over a year! hopefully a lot more.
-roach's love life
-free switchblade riot show tonight at soundwave
-saturday night one in the chamber show at merchants
-sunday funday hang out with adam_vincent!!!
-la trip with roach in september to meet and party with some awesome girls and shoot for sg
-future dates with mika
my mom always tells me to write a list of things i'm greatful for when i'm bummed out. on tuesday i couldn't shake the nima (blues/bad mood) and i called her and she reminded me of how easy the list is to make and what an influence it has on your attitude. i suggest you try it if you're bummed.
ok. so. update time.
i fell ill a little over a week ago. i was spending some time helping my friend with his busted leg in and around highland hospital in oakland quite a bit and managed to catch strep throat(not surprising) and H1N1(swine flu, very surprising)
i felt a little crappy last monday morning so i grabbed a jug of orange juice to nurse at work and felt increasingly ill allllllll day to the point where even my boss was like "you look sick as hell", right. even stranger is i was sick to my stomach throwing up at work and i rarely get sick like that. so when i got off work i took a nap on the bentley and didn't really realize how sick i was until roach got home and i couldn't swollow or breathe or really move. bummer. so our friend dan took me to the ER and it was f'n slammed! at this point i was in tears and pretty much bleeding from my mouth/throat/lungs. i waited a long time sleeping on roach and crying and not breathing until i saw the first nurse... who told me that my lungs weren't getting 100% of the oxygen they could be getting and my fever was 103 but she couldn't do anything for me so i'd have to wait like the rest of the cattle in the room... dying. at this point my neck and face were swelling and everytime i coughed i spit up blood and gnar... yeah, gnar is the word for it because it was fucking black almost like i've been smoking for 40 years.
anyhow. after about 7 hours, no joke, i was seen and given vicodin and some other crap and diagnosed with pretty rapidly growing strep and H1N1.
we took a cab home around 6am and i slept for about 3 days with a fever that wouldn't break and some really horrible back pain. it wasn't 'til thursday that my fever went under 100. i'd leave my room to try and get fresh air and this would happen.
the 4th and 5th days the rattling, choking coughing came and i was more miserable then when i was at least able to sleep. fits through the night and in the morning and everytime i moved. fuck. around day 6 i started getting up and taking bentley for tiny walks and putting my own dvds on.. yeah it was that bad. i still looked and appeared to be either taking the form of a zombie or a vampire. let's go with vampire because they are sexier... way sexier.
by day 7 i was up and dressed in normal people clothes and eating food that wasn't cereal or soup and laughing and really finally believeing i would one day feel normal again.
however, there was still much of this going on.
yesterday i came back to work and have been feeling alright. yesterday i even went out for lunch with my friend jake like a normal human! i'm super bummed i seem to have lost whatever awesome i gained from riding my bike everywere in a matter of weeks, but whatever, i'll get it back.
for those who found out i was a sickie via the internet grape vine, thanks for your well wishes. means a lot.
okeee, back to work for this little bee.
i fell ill a little over a week ago. i was spending some time helping my friend with his busted leg in and around highland hospital in oakland quite a bit and managed to catch strep throat(not surprising) and H1N1(swine flu, very surprising)
i felt a little crappy last monday morning so i grabbed a jug of orange juice to nurse at work and felt increasingly ill allllllll day to the point where even my boss was like "you look sick as hell", right. even stranger is i was sick to my stomach throwing up at work and i rarely get sick like that. so when i got off work i took a nap on the bentley and didn't really realize how sick i was until roach got home and i couldn't swollow or breathe or really move. bummer. so our friend dan took me to the ER and it was f'n slammed! at this point i was in tears and pretty much bleeding from my mouth/throat/lungs. i waited a long time sleeping on roach and crying and not breathing until i saw the first nurse... who told me that my lungs weren't getting 100% of the oxygen they could be getting and my fever was 103 but she couldn't do anything for me so i'd have to wait like the rest of the cattle in the room... dying. at this point my neck and face were swelling and everytime i coughed i spit up blood and gnar... yeah, gnar is the word for it because it was fucking black almost like i've been smoking for 40 years.
anyhow. after about 7 hours, no joke, i was seen and given vicodin and some other crap and diagnosed with pretty rapidly growing strep and H1N1.
we took a cab home around 6am and i slept for about 3 days with a fever that wouldn't break and some really horrible back pain. it wasn't 'til thursday that my fever went under 100. i'd leave my room to try and get fresh air and this would happen.
the 4th and 5th days the rattling, choking coughing came and i was more miserable then when i was at least able to sleep. fits through the night and in the morning and everytime i moved. fuck. around day 6 i started getting up and taking bentley for tiny walks and putting my own dvds on.. yeah it was that bad. i still looked and appeared to be either taking the form of a zombie or a vampire. let's go with vampire because they are sexier... way sexier.
by day 7 i was up and dressed in normal people clothes and eating food that wasn't cereal or soup and laughing and really finally believeing i would one day feel normal again.
however, there was still much of this going on.
yesterday i came back to work and have been feeling alright. yesterday i even went out for lunch with my friend jake like a normal human! i'm super bummed i seem to have lost whatever awesome i gained from riding my bike everywere in a matter of weeks, but whatever, i'll get it back.
for those who found out i was a sickie via the internet grape vine, thanks for your well wishes. means a lot.
okeee, back to work for this little bee.
"your friend is the person who knows all about you, and still likes you."
- elbert hubbard
i feel off today. like i need a nap or for it to just be tomorrow already. we used to call it being 'nima' when i was little. getting the blues and being crabby. i think i'm drinking too much coffee and crashing or something. hopefully sushi with my parents and julio will make me feel better. i have a zillion things to be happy about. so maybe i should take a second when i get off work to write all those things down on a scrap piece of paper and focus on them a bit. it is much too beautiful a life to feel this low. a lot has happened in the past couple months and i've tried really hard to be positive. i've got a lot going on in my head. not sure what i'm doing with some situations right now... i think i just need to step back, breathe and remember that i'm human and it's normal to be sad sometimes.
right?
i need to shoot a new set. asap.
right?
i need to shoot a new set. asap.
