f makeup. i'm over it.

some days i feel like i would look ok bald. then i wonder what else my judgement is severely skewed on.
it's monday morning and my boy is home from vegas and i'm pretty happy about that. so happy i made a vegetarian lasanga last night that didn't suck! it was my first one... go me! everything feels great lately. i feel like i'm gaining some clarity with the sobriety and a ton of happiness that is long overdue. stress is still a little high but i'm not sure if thats going away. ha.
i'm excited for prom. i got my dress, it's super short and coral and pretty. win! i'll be bringing julio as my date again this year, so that rules as well.
i slept 'til like 3pm yesterday. un/fortunatly my dog is like no other dog. he would never wake me up to take him for a walk, he just sleeps alongside me. i guess i needed it though, i've been a little tired lately. but tired from riding my bike a lot, not from partying. it's good i think, helps me sleep through the night.
speaking of parties i went to my friend heather's birthday party on saturday with my gang of, as my mother would call them, "selectivly outgoing people" (aka team socially awkward). i was sober, obviously, and we walked up to a house full of very drunk and very loud and obnoxious people. hudled in the kitchen only conversing with eachother i realized i'm kinda over the screaming and saying and doing of dumb things. i'm shy by nature and drinking a lot made it appear as though i'm not, giving the world the illusion that my boundries are easially broken or that i have none at all, that i'm ok with things i'm not. i do no want to play twister with a bunch of half naked drunk idiots, thanks. twister is an unappealing game. i don't like when people i don't know touch me, i don't like it when most of the people i do know touch me, i'm not as cuddly as you might expect. i have to really like you.
i'm rambling. work is slow.
eh.

:EDIT:
i don't want to come off snotty or holier then thou, thats not my intention. i love beer, i love wine, i most of all love tequila and have had lots of amazing times. this particular party had a lot of dummies. thats all.