i need to take a shower. or maybe a bubble bath. drink some tea and clean my house. i need today to regroup and kinda just be alone and eat a marinated cheese braid and crackers. ha. so yesterday roach and i went to pop's for the trike race and drinks. i made it through one drink before giving up. i was stoked to see some of my very favourite people. even more stoked to see tuffy in a leotard and cape. we left kinda early since roach had to work early this morning but when i got home i had that cute boy from work come over and watch movies with me a cuddle. yeah, cuddle. its like impossible for me to sleep with anyone lately. you want so much freedom and when you get it you don't know what to do with it. well i don't anyway. i wish i could let go of some things. i'm banking on time helping me through shit. ok shower time then i have to go downtown and take care of some stuff and i think my friend casper is coming to stay with me soon. he says he will be here tonight but who knows. my stomach hurts and all i really want to do is go back into my room and take a nap and wake up a little more chipper. maybe some yerba mate will help.

um and i miss these two like mad.