So... I'm guessing it's time for an update. It's almost been year! I apologize for not being very present in the community lately. Not that it's the first time, but it's been worst than usual I admit. The worst part is, you probably still won't see me around much afterwards. Not for a while at least. Too many things happening at once.

You know, I remember when I broke up with my boyfriend one and half years ago, I wanted to have a girl for a roommate. Turns out that a year later, I was very often living with 3 guys in my apartment. Currently just two, but still... that is a very good way to describe my situation with women. It's almost like they flee my presence. I really do want to have women around, but it just doesn't happen by itself. I have one girlfriend I see pretty regularly, but that's because I almost made it a duty to make it happen. I don't know, I just find I get along with men a lot faster. We have more common interests. Anyways, that's not really news, it's always been that way.

Things are doing pretty good with my boyfriend. It's been a year now, already. And everything is doing great, a lot better than it once was. I even got my ex-boyfriend to have interested conversations with him, and God knows that's something. He's starting nursing school this fall. I'm very glad for him, cause he seems very into it. And I'm very proud of him, cause that's definitely something useful for his society. I value that a lot. He much inspired me in the last few months, and now...

I'm considering changing career fields. Not that I want to abandon photography altogether, but I more and more feel that photography by itself is not what I'm looking for. I want to do something more meaningful. I don't think we need one more person who just shoots fashion once in a while, especially in Montreal. What do I bring to my people doing that? I want to have something to do with politics. I've been very interested in the related fields of politics for a few years now, I get involved as much on a national scale as with my direct surroundings, and it brings me a lot. What's more, is that I get inspired by those subjects as I've never been before by other photography themes (sorry ladies... ). I'm not sure exactly what to do with this, there are many directions I could take. Definitely not going to be a politician, cause not only do I not have the personality to be on the front line, but I also have a past, for instance this site, that could very well be played against me, and I know that it would happen sooner or later. Maybe something more like writing. I really like to share my ideas with people. Well, not just my ideas. I like to share, period. And that's why photography can't be everything to me. Cause sharing pictures is something I really like to do, but you can't pay rent doing that. Not the way I see it.

Sorry for the serious, only text post. This is usually considered boring. Well, hey, I'm trying to inform you, not entertain you. Do what you will with this.

How have you guys been? Tell me something new about you.

Bon! What's up with you people? I was tired of seeing the bruised calf on my blog. But in reality I don't have a lot to say. Yup! I guess things can get pretty boring when they go well. I've got a decent job, enough money to clear my debts, a good roommate, some cool friends and a nice, sane boyfriend. I can't complain, at least not about personnal stuff. I usually complain about what I read in the newspapers though. Can't stop that.

In other news, I see my old buddy siera_erradia is back! I'm glad to see some old members from time to time... reminds me of why I stuck around here at first. Welcome him back. It's an order.

It's been a whil since I've actually sat down to listen to a good movie. Anyone has something interesting to suggest?

Keep life rollin'.

Life's weird.

I got fired last month because I stood up for my principles. I found 2 other jobs after a week and a half. So I even had the chance to make a choice. I'm really lucky. Also, after working for about two weeks there, I realize I should've worked in that field earlier. I make more money, work better shifts, sleep better, feel healthier. I've never been so glad to get fired in my life.

But around me, things aren't so good. A lot of my close friends are depressed, don't have jobs or hate their jobs. I heard of a lot of deaths. A guy in my coop shot himself. He was my age and had 2 very young kids. My closest friend was hospitalized this weekend, and is in very bad shape.

My roommate is moving this week, and I'm having a new/old roommate moving in. I got like, 4 projects of photography to finish, and I just can't seem to finish any of them. For now, the move will be taking my time. But my friend's health really worries me, and right now, I'm spending most of the time I can with him. I'll try working on my pictures, I really will. But don't be surprised if you don't see me around that much... I've got a lot on my mind. It seems that my plans are again getting reported...

But, as I usually say, life doesn't give a fuck about your plans.

Thank you guys for all your nice comments on my set! I'm not done going around answering emails yet. For those who haven't had the chance to see or comment, here it is:

narcissism


I have a new roommate, and all is going well! I know 5 days is a little early to really estimate if everything is for the best, but I am enjoying the experience at the moment. I have known him since elementary school, and it had been a while since we actually sat and talked, so we have a lot of catching up to do... and we have a lot of fun together.

I am not completely done healing, I mean, after all those years with my ex, there are a lot of hidden layers in my mind to get over. Sometimes I get surprisedly hurt over some details. But I can say I'm pretty much done with the hardest part (or so it seems).

Also, I'm slowly getting to work again, as a photographer. I have a little more time to think about it, and I am inspired, and refreshed. And open for new ideas.

Just a small teaser...



See ya real soon, kids!

New cool hair = looking forward to showing you what I look like...

Hey guyyyys!

It's definitely been a while. Too much happening at the same time, and too little motivation to do anything.

I'm sure I'll be back eventually, when I have some more time on my hands. And I'm pretty sure that'll happen. I just needed to drop by for one thing today, and it is to lay something off my chest.

I am breaking up with my partner. I am slowly starting a single life. For those who know me a little, you realize it is a big deal. I've been with my boyfriend since before I even became an SG. We've been together for 7, almost 8 years. So it's kind of a shock and a big, big change. I mean, I haven't been single since I was 17 years old. It's a new step into adulthood I never took before: being by myself. It is something. I am slowly coping with it, accepting it and reconfigurating my life, but the hardest part has yet to come.

So that's really all I needed to say today, it's a big chunk to spit out. I'll be looking for a roommate. And I have decided that it'll have to be a girl. I think what I need right now is a nice friendship, and it's been too long since I had a serious one with a woman. I love guys, and I get along great with them. But I also realize we all need women on our lives. Don't you?

-xxx-

This is it, the big 25th! and please, stop telling me about that quarter of a century... don't care about that shit.
I'm going away in the country for a week, so fuck you all! Well, fuck you all for at least that week. Maybe also the next.

Didn't even bother with the visuals, just some nice, dirty little rythms:

Love those peculiar pieces you find when searching a genre... Still not bored of exploring through the pretty varied subgenre of dubstep. I really think you can find at least one song that'll be for you in there. Anyways.

I have to mention Pierre Falardeau's death. He was a great filmmaker, and a brilliant man.
J'ai redécouvert ses films un peu avant qu'il meure, je l'ai relu, écouté... il m'a redonné une flamme, une ardeur... Je lisais déjà beaucoup sur la politique, la société américaine, le contrôle des médias, des marchés, et m'emporte souvent sur le sujet. Ces idées arrivent dans un moment important pour moi, et sa mort fait redoubler ma ferveur. J'avais abandonné et m'était distancé des idées souverainistes après le secondaire, à cause d'un manque de compréhension et d'un découragement. Mais après tant de réflexion, de lecture, de discussions... je regagne tranquillement ma position. Vous m'avez bien comprise.

Son fils a fait un discours génial à ses funérailles. Je suis contente que des choses comme ça se voient encore aujour'hui.

Si on m'avait demandé, je n'aurais jamais pu deviner (ni admettre) en m'inscrivant sur ce site qu'un jour je m'afficherais en tant que souverainiste sur mon blog. Quand on dit qu'on ne sait pas où la vie nous mène...

Fuck st'osti de site anglophone qui sait pas afficher des accents comme du monde.

What unexpected turns did your life take? There MUST be at least one. Especially the older you get...

For all of you guys who feel numb, jaded, spaced out, unstable, uncertain or just plain stoned, just like I've been lately:


I linked this for the song mostly, but mind you, I like space too. Anyways, it can be nice with or without. Just pump up the volume, and absorb the sound.

Enjoy.