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how are you internet friends ?
i was fortunate to receive in the mail a book last saturday from one of you, who are you anonymous gift giver ? ? i'd like you to know that i was having a sort of cranky day, irate because my glasses had broken (which is especially troubling for me as i believe i am legally blind and legally poor and legally neurotic[orsomethingsimilar] and they could be made to be back together but then at random moments very often they would fall off of my face, which was funny and laughable but also annoying) and also i had just woken from a bad dream. this was one of those dreams that left a lasting impression and made me upset, you know sometimes you have a bad dream but then forget about it shortly after waking ? this one stuck with me and added to my moody disposition-then i was leaving my house to see my boyfriend(??) and decided to check the mail, and there was a package! addressed to me! and i wondered, and i opened, and it was the crochet stitch bible, which i've been wanting for a long time, gifted to me by an anonymous person. it made me feel better, and i thought you should know. it let me know that, in fact, the universe is not against me. not that i really thought it was, but the firm reminder that it is a fact that nothing is against me is always welcome and appreciated.
i'm still sifting through photos from june !! this is why you shouldn't let things pile up, because life happens and it's hard to get back to those things that you allow to accrue in such a way. i expect to spend hours on this blog. no, not this one. the one where i dump the last year of my life on all of you. well the yous that are reading this. I've missed everyone here so much, so many great and interesting people on this site. i hope you feel the emanation ♥
hmmm so there is no point in waiting to share my thoughts and feelings just because i'm still waiting to make that blog eh ? the big question, the big decision in my life right now, or i suppose the thing that is most on my mind is, my recent decision to move back to cincinnati. now putting it into words makes it seem like much less of a decision, less important. but to me, it's a big deal. it's my hometown, and my family has been pushing me to do that for a while now. and i never wanted to, but. . . . somehow, i recently had some sort of emotional upheaval that involved aforementioned boyfriend(??) and, in a state of emotional distress, decided that i desperately needed a change. please picture this p, crying in a very baby like way to her best friend over the phone, saying "i just can't bear the thought of living in this town another year!" pathetic right ? i fall victim to my strong emotions, a crab after all. i did say however, "let me think about it, this might just be those emotions taking over any ounce of sense i've got." but after further consideration, and talking with many friends, have decided that i'm kinda stuck in this cute lil town. I've graduated, what am i doing here ? ? i do love the area, but i think if i stay in this town, my lil crabby soul will be stolen away from me, and i'll be in no better of a place. i don't make much money, and there isn't much in the way of money making around here, and i have no car, and i have no money to get one, do you see the cycle ? I'm sure you do for you are intelligent and observant of patterns. and additionally, i believe firmly that i need a change to advance, and while cinci is not where i want to be in a permanent sort of way, my best friend needs a roommate. and being closer to my family would be good, at least while i try and figure out what to do next. another thing about myself that I'd like to work on changing is the part of myself that makes anywhere home. i'm glad that i am an optimistic sort of lemonade making woman, but i get so firmly rooted in anywhere that i stay for a moment, and that makes me less adaptable, which is something i should change. i view cincinnati as a sideways step, perhaps a diagonal one moving up ? think of how a crab travels towards a goal, never straight towards, often in a sideways sort of way. that is certainly what this is. well, it's what i believe it to be.
i feel as if i've just vomited all over you, hopefully you don't mind. : D
I've been looking at farmer's markets in cinci already, i get so excited about change sometimes.
also, recently i've found much interest in astrology. i believe that uranus had a great influence over ^that decision in the form of an aquarius. there are no regrets, only choices. I have so much faith that things will work the way they're supposed to, that i feel i can make any choice and it will be "right." this is perhaps arrogant but i'll never know otherwise. there's no point to wondering what could have or what should have for that's the past and is of no consequence now. feeling that thought is so liberating.
i may leave it at this. oh i want to show my new tattoo ! i've shown to a couple of you, i'll post pictures soon. hahaha yeah i promise.
♥
how are you internet friends ?
i was fortunate to receive in the mail a book last saturday from one of you, who are you anonymous gift giver ? ? i'd like you to know that i was having a sort of cranky day, irate because my glasses had broken (which is especially troubling for me as i believe i am legally blind and legally poor and legally neurotic[orsomethingsimilar] and they could be made to be back together but then at random moments very often they would fall off of my face, which was funny and laughable but also annoying) and also i had just woken from a bad dream. this was one of those dreams that left a lasting impression and made me upset, you know sometimes you have a bad dream but then forget about it shortly after waking ? this one stuck with me and added to my moody disposition-then i was leaving my house to see my boyfriend(??) and decided to check the mail, and there was a package! addressed to me! and i wondered, and i opened, and it was the crochet stitch bible, which i've been wanting for a long time, gifted to me by an anonymous person. it made me feel better, and i thought you should know. it let me know that, in fact, the universe is not against me. not that i really thought it was, but the firm reminder that it is a fact that nothing is against me is always welcome and appreciated.
i'm still sifting through photos from june !! this is why you shouldn't let things pile up, because life happens and it's hard to get back to those things that you allow to accrue in such a way. i expect to spend hours on this blog. no, not this one. the one where i dump the last year of my life on all of you. well the yous that are reading this. I've missed everyone here so much, so many great and interesting people on this site. i hope you feel the emanation ♥
hmmm so there is no point in waiting to share my thoughts and feelings just because i'm still waiting to make that blog eh ? the big question, the big decision in my life right now, or i suppose the thing that is most on my mind is, my recent decision to move back to cincinnati. now putting it into words makes it seem like much less of a decision, less important. but to me, it's a big deal. it's my hometown, and my family has been pushing me to do that for a while now. and i never wanted to, but. . . . somehow, i recently had some sort of emotional upheaval that involved aforementioned boyfriend(??) and, in a state of emotional distress, decided that i desperately needed a change. please picture this p, crying in a very baby like way to her best friend over the phone, saying "i just can't bear the thought of living in this town another year!" pathetic right ? i fall victim to my strong emotions, a crab after all. i did say however, "let me think about it, this might just be those emotions taking over any ounce of sense i've got." but after further consideration, and talking with many friends, have decided that i'm kinda stuck in this cute lil town. I've graduated, what am i doing here ? ? i do love the area, but i think if i stay in this town, my lil crabby soul will be stolen away from me, and i'll be in no better of a place. i don't make much money, and there isn't much in the way of money making around here, and i have no car, and i have no money to get one, do you see the cycle ? I'm sure you do for you are intelligent and observant of patterns. and additionally, i believe firmly that i need a change to advance, and while cinci is not where i want to be in a permanent sort of way, my best friend needs a roommate. and being closer to my family would be good, at least while i try and figure out what to do next. another thing about myself that I'd like to work on changing is the part of myself that makes anywhere home. i'm glad that i am an optimistic sort of lemonade making woman, but i get so firmly rooted in anywhere that i stay for a moment, and that makes me less adaptable, which is something i should change. i view cincinnati as a sideways step, perhaps a diagonal one moving up ? think of how a crab travels towards a goal, never straight towards, often in a sideways sort of way. that is certainly what this is. well, it's what i believe it to be.
i feel as if i've just vomited all over you, hopefully you don't mind. : D
I've been looking at farmer's markets in cinci already, i get so excited about change sometimes.
also, recently i've found much interest in astrology. i believe that uranus had a great influence over ^that decision in the form of an aquarius. there are no regrets, only choices. I have so much faith that things will work the way they're supposed to, that i feel i can make any choice and it will be "right." this is perhaps arrogant but i'll never know otherwise. there's no point to wondering what could have or what should have for that's the past and is of no consequence now. feeling that thought is so liberating.
i may leave it at this. oh i want to show my new tattoo ! i've shown to a couple of you, i'll post pictures soon. hahaha yeah i promise.
♥
in this time of much learning,
and absence,
and confusion,
and loss of words
and at times the sheer inability to form any
correct or otherwise,
i'll leave you with this image
and the reminder that things will always work out the way they should.
very soon i will return. there is still much to say, to share, to shout, and to show.
and absence,
and confusion,
and loss of words
and at times the sheer inability to form any
correct or otherwise,
i'll leave you with this image
and the reminder that things will always work out the way they should.
very soon i will return. there is still much to say, to share, to shout, and to show.
yeahyeah that's my boy hoopin fire. and me too.
did you know that i <3 marijuana ?
i hope so.
i want to shoot a new set----the idea is in my head, i just hope it's not too illegal.
this blog is shit, i'm sorry. had to update something though, you know ?
love
