A photographer that I had a shoot with 1.5 months ago is finally geting around to sending me some photos (he's been a busy guy) and I thought I'd share a couple. Don't know if I'll actually submit this, I may just enlarge them and frame them to place above my bed:



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Oh and that was a joke about enlarging and framing. Hope you caught on

That's all for the moment, I want to wake up early to plant some seeds and have a nice breakfast, so buenos noches.

I have a shoot scheduled next week, and I'm excited about my theme.....not telling yet though.....you have to wait and see

I always have things I want to chat about on my blog but then I get on here and don't know where to start.

I visited my family and gosh I love my sisters. They are so beautiful and I hope they're strong enough to get through some of the things that go on at that house. I just feel like my dad gets so upset about the smallest things, and he's not violent, but I still don't feel like it's good for my little sisters. I want them to be cherished, and I want my family to eat organic and not eat so much meat and sugar, and I want them to not watch TV all the time, and I guess you could say I want a lot of things. What I'm saying is I want the best for my little sisters. The oldest of my sisters is thirteen and she reminds me so much of myself. Her hair looks exactly like mine right now, she's stretching her ears a little, and so many other ways, she's just like me when I was that age. It's really adorable. She's been wanting to be vegetarian for years now because she loves animals and doesn't want to eat them, but my dad won't let her because he has the false conception that she won't get the nutrients her growing body needs. I've told her I can't fight the battle for her, she needs to do her research (but I have given her resources!) and prove to dad that she can, and also that this is something she really cares about, but she feels hopeless so she doesn't.

And the next oldest is ten and it's crazy how distracted and sugar-crazed she is. Watching TV or playing on the computer or playing on my dad's phone. Really fun though once you can get her away from the technology.

PLEASE GET THE OVER-PROCESSED SHIT OUT OF THE HOUSE.

And then the little baby. She's three, and somehow she never needs to reminded who I am even though she doesn't see me very often. She tells me I'm pretty and then my eyes get all teary from the smile my mouth is forced into. And she'll point at my piercings and ask "What's that? Owwie?" and I say "No it's not owwie, it's pretty!" And then she gives me huge hug. Ahhh children.

I haven't smoked since 4/20 (hehehehehe) and I drank a very small amount on Tuesday just because my dad's liquor cabinet is impressive....probably will start raw in the next day or two. I got some organic,local, and FREE goat cheese from the market I work at because it expired, but was still fine. I need to eat that before I can be raw. Because I am slightly "freegan" some vegans get frustrated that I'll define myself as "vegan." I weigh options very carefully before eating anything, and I have no qualms with eating some local, organic, free goat cheese. Except for it making my throat feel scratchy (that whole dairy mucous thing?) and slightly heavy.

I do wish dairy products weren't pasteurized. Maybe one day I'll have a pet goat, and I will treat her as if she were my child. D

Well that's all for now, no one educated me about Hell City Guess I'll have to find new sources. Talk to you guys later.

I discovered today that Neutral Milk Hotel is really good music to listen to on beautiful Saturday mornings when you're hung over working at the head shop. Why isn't there a hammock around? Geeeeeeeez.

I am going to detox a bit after the holidays....
No alcohol, pot, and caffeine for a week and see how that goes. (Not quitting any of those chemicals, I just think my body and mind would benefit from a tiny vacation )
I would like to also eat all raw for a detox week. But probably not next week, I'm visiting my family for 2 days and it's hard enough to get some good vegan food that's not loaded with awkward nonsense that I don't want to put in my body. Not about to munch on celery sticks for 2 days. Chris and I always bring our own foods when we go there anyway....

I want to ride my bike!!!!!

I did some party hoppin yesterday with a guy I work with and his friend that I don't usually hang out with. (I had planned on going to Sweatin at the Circus, but silly me apparently doesn't know what Friday it is ) I like to switch things up, and people watch. First we visited this apartment on Indianola and 5th, the hostess was slightly psychotic and liked me more once she found out I was a pothead. She should probably smoke more, man she was loud. Interesting though, she liked Mortal Kombat a lot, so every now and then while speaking she would say words as if she was growling. Maybe she just seemed psychotic because things were just stolen from her? I know when my shit was stolen on New Years, I hated people for a minute.

That place wasn't super mega fun, so we left and went to a pretty sweet apartment that was right across from the street from Whole World. (Oh em gee, if I lived right across from Whole World.....mmmmmm) Definitely an artist's place, original art all over the walls, the place just exuded creativity, I love being in places like that! mmmmm good vibrationssssss. I was given cheap white wine but a pretty girl named Vanessa and watched beer pong be played. I'm ok with beer pong every now and then....I haven't been around it for months, so I wasn't super annoyed with it. If I see it all the time though, I make snide comments in the corner about how retarded it is and try to get people to do something else.

Somehow I got sucked into a game with my coworker as my team member, and somehow we kicked ass.
And somehow I misplaced my red lighter......did I give it away?

Then everyone decided the munchies kicked in, and we went to Gumby's, and the boys ordered a meatlover's pizza, brought it back to my house, and felt guilty eating it in front of me. hahaha I didn't care too much, as much fun as it is spending energy preaching at people about what they put in their body, I've realized that they need to figure out the way they want to live. Me spouting off about factory farms and rBGH really just makes everyone feel awkward and doesn't make them change. And why should I be trying to make them change anyway? If they asked questions and cared more, seemed interested, I would list a plethora of reasons, and give more sources and websites and movies that they should see. But if they're content where they are, sweet.

I don't recall the names of folks I met last night, one was nice he shared a cig with me. (Shared a fag conmigo )

And then everyone left, my abode was quiet, so I went upstairs to spend some quiet drunk time with the water pipe and Suicide Girls.....only to discover that I should probably just pass out to Sigur Ros.

Woke up at the time I was supposed to be at work this morning.....
mmmmm Saturdays.

So can someone educate me about Hell City? I've been hearing about it, and I'm curious. What exactly is it and how much is it? It seems like a pretty fun event.

That's all for now, peace !

Well short post, because it's Saturday night, I've been drinkin, and I need to be at the Co-op early tomorrow morning to swab the decks:
I work with a piercer, so today, while bored at the smoke shop, I had her pierce my nose again (in the same nostril, it look s cute, I won't lie...) and put an orbital through my left conch into my helix. The latter was the only piercing I've had that actually made me feel light headed.....

Something about piercings....they're so addicting! I really like not having to pay for them. I like little reminders that leave something pretty on you that say "pain is temporary."

Well I need to go now because my boyfriend just gave me some very surprising news about how wonderful his dad is???

I attended the Jacob Fred Jazz Odyssey (JFJO yeah!) show last night at Skully's, and I have to say, woah. Never seen them live before, and woah. They were so together, and seamless, and the pianist made the most amazing and eccentric movements and facial expressions. So fun to watch. Stand up bass mmmm.

There were some people dancing all over right in front of the stage, and one of them came over to my boyfriend and me and tried to get us to dance crazy like him. But he tried about 23 times in the span of 2.5 hours. And he did this to everyone else too....
Not that I mind being asked to dance, it's just when someone's almost trying to force you.....I was doing my little white girl thang, really just enjoying the musicians and wanting to watch them but bobbing along slightly. He said to my boyfriend "Live with me!" and if he had said that to me, I'd have to counter with there isn't only one way to live.

I can see where he's coming from though...
But if you don't want to dance all over 10 feet of space, you shouldn't have to!

So I have no photographer......
I did have two....
One is mia, and one has changed his mind.
The only staff photographer I know of in this area is damn good, but damn busy.

I watched The 11th Hour on Tuesday, and it brought up how the Romans used to feel that any natural disaster or bad weather was caused by the gods punishing them. It stated that the same could be said about this generation, that the earth is punishing us for being the main catalyst in global climate change. I just thought of that because I'm listening to NPR, and they were just talking about the earthquake in Italy.

Maybe I'm not old enough to know, I just don't really know if I can say that the weather (or earthquake occurrence) is that weird, or bad, right now. I can say it's weird, but is it any weirder than 30 years ago? Maybe. I do believe humans are slightly fucked, but I'd like to see them convert to only using renewable energy outside of a capitalist system!

Earth isn't the only planet that's experiencing some weirdness right now.....
For instance, Saturn's got some spinning vortexes at its poles, that are inside honey-comb looking hexagons?? (Hexagon, Saturn is the 6th planet.......there has to be significance, I don't believe there isn't.)
---->http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2008/10/081013124220.htm
And there's this aurora between Jupiter and Io...
---->http://news.nationalgeographic.com/news/2008/03/080320-jupiter-auroras.html

and probably more....I know other planets (Saturn and Jupiter come to mind) are experiencing some pretty hot poles and auroras. Does anyone else know anything weird going on?

FOCUS

GOD DAMNIT OBAMA.
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I sent in my FAFSA a few days ago, and I heard back from them last night. Apparently I can't get any kind of loan right now because I am in default (I owe $888? If I'm reading the site correctly?) and I need to set up some sort of repayment before I can get a loan. That's not even that hard for me though, as long as I can split up the payments. The part that irritates me is that my "expected family contribution" is between 14-15 thousand dollars, and the "actual family contribution" is zero dollars. How am I still considered dependent when my family does not claim me as their dependent AND I've been paying for myself in entirety for the last 2 years? Have gotten no money from my family in last 2 years. It's bullshit that the government still considers me a "dependent."

blehmoney
blehschool

Fortunately though, in a few months I'll be getting out of the city to attend a tiny school for two years. I'm looking forward to no roommates (except the beau and kitten, of course ) and living on a bike path. Footsteps away from the woods. And only mere miles away from a huge forested cave area, probably one of the most beautiful areas in my little state. I don't know how I'll pay the rent there, or how I'll pay for school really, but I'm trying not to worry too much about money. Hopefully I'll find some way to make it work.

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I try to remember that everything will work out the way it's supposed to, and that helps me to not be such a stressball.

It's raining at 5:30 in the morning, and I'm listening to The Fountain soundtrack (Clint Mansell--same guy as Requiem for a Dream in case you were unawares). Why am I awake without a beer? It's a good thing my boyfriend is out of town, if I stayed up this late on the computer while he was present, I'd feel silly since I could be cuddling instead of staring at a fluorescent screen.

I would think that everyone spends an exorbitant amount of time on this site the first time they're able to. And maybe even a little while after that. I didn't want to buy a membership, even though I really wanted to be a member so I could see all the pictures and comment everywhere I wanted to. I considered it to be...like a reward? I don't know, maybe I just didn't want to shell out the dollaz. It feels really good to be on here now, and everyone seems really friendly so far.

Today I finally filed my taxes and FAFSA, so I've basically been attached to this machine all day.

I love listening to the rain, combined with this music. This storm is a hopeful reminder that spring is close, and then we can attempt our garden. I say "attempt" because the people that live in my area of town, a certain campus, have little respect for anything, except maybe their kegs and football. Tomatoes (like the entire plant) have been stolen from someone that used to live here, and I've had two garden pots stolen, the dirt that was inside them left behind. They didn't kill a plant or anything, but still....they weren't by the dumpster, needing a home. I wish that kid of behavior didn't exist. What makes someone feel like they should take something that obviously belongs to someone else?

Anyway----about the garden! We actually have quite a bit of space to work with...in our south facing bed we're going to plant our nightshades, so tomatoes, eggplants, spicy and bell peppers. Accompanied of course with some nasturtiums, basil, and dill. Milkweed I think too? (mmmmmmm butterflies.......) And the bed in the "backyard" (maybe 10 feet of space haha) will house some broccoli, watermelon, zucchini, carrot and onion. Well hopefully onion. With some more flowering plants to attract our beneficial insects. The soil is in very poor condition, I hope we have enough compost to make it viable. My boyfriend spent 2-3 days unearthing a HUGE half dead root so the vegetable roots could develop in that bed.

We visited the bike co-op yesterday and I was taught how to change the brake cables. I now have beautiful neon pink brake housing on my circa '67 green Schwinn. 1967! I told my dad today, "Awww dad my bike is as old as you!" I don't think he thought it was as cute as I did.
Pictures of Ruby Schwinn (that's her name, even though she's green) will make their appearance on this website soon. Just not too sure how soon. I've agreed to volunteer four hours of my time to the co-op, and they're going to teach me how to repair bikes by having me work on them. They must really need volunteers, or just really want to teach the populace about bikes, because I know very minimal about their inner workings. I lube my chain frequently. (Learned that lesson the hard way.) And I just recently changed a flat without any assistance. I know it sounds like I'm a pretty serious mechanic here.... They must think you really want to learn, if you're coming to the co-op, since that is the whole point.

The birds started chirping a few minutes ago. Quiet Fountain, light droplets, the sound of tapping keys and miniature flutes.


The birds came out, I should go in. I need to stretch and maybe read some Illuminatus! (if I can find it...) and then call it a night. Thanks for reading

I'd like to leave any readers with something beautiful. Good morning.

It's funny that I should get accepted days after I decide that I should use my time in more productive ways. I was on the fence about this, I thought that I wouldn't hear back from SG for months, and even then that I wouldn't be staff approved. But I wasn't completely decided on just giving up completely, I wanted to wait until I heard back. And I'm glad there was a positive review

Now if I could only figure out why I can't change any of my profile information.....