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in other news, i got my SG care package today. i am very happy now. i went to check the mail and was disappointed to not find it there. as i walked back to my door, i noticed an envelope on the ground and there it was. funny that they didn't knock on my door. yay new undies for me.

current song: tears for fears - head over heels.
current mood: stupid.

i really want to go to a halloween party but i have to go to montreal. having to shoot at a halloween party makes it even worse, i want to be dressed up too!
i was thinking of dressing up as gigolo joe or gay hitler. it would have been fun. i get back on saturday so maybe someone will be throwing something then.

i bought raisins yesterday, a whole lot of them. i have been craving them so much lately. these ones are terrible. i will never buy them in bulk again. i am disappointed.

i also bought cheesecake and was very surprised to find raisins in it. i was scared at first and thought some creepy bug made itself a home in my cake, however i was wrong, but still, raisins in cheesecake?

spanking the monkey is on IFC right now. mmm jeremy davies. i want to see him in more films.

today there is an OC marathon on today, starting at 2:00pm. hmm i don't actually know what time it is right now. damn daylight's saving, etc.

regardless, this girl needs some coffee.

also, i think i am going to email martin sargent today. that will of course make me a big loser, but whatever,

current song: the organ - sinking hearts.
current mood: groggy

today keeps getting better and better.

i found out that 2 of my photographs are being published. it's nothing really big, but it makes me happy. it makes me more secure about heading to montreal to work. i want more gigs, especially out west but as long as the other photographer is working, i probably won't be getting any. they hired me because the client wanted a female photographer however the man in charge does not want to undercut the current male photographer. it is rather annoying.

i also got a new posting picture! i feel it is much prettier than the first one.

party monster opened recently. i really want to see it for humour value.

i really want tiger woods pga tour 2004 please.

i need to start reading my hitchhiker books more slowly. i enjoy them so much but i finish them too quickly then i have nothing to read which makes me a sad, sad girl.

woo. martin sargent is on my television now. mmm. ooh. he unbuttoned his shirt to reveal pasty white skin. oh that geeky boy.

current song: hey ya - outkast.
current mood: frisky.

i have new crushes.

could someone please send martin sargent, dan huard or kevin rose my way?

please? techtv are you out there?

i love geeks so very much, especially cute ones with fancy hair.

also, hey ya by outkast is my favourite song of the moment.

i want tiger woods pga tour 2004. badly. almost as much as GT4. no that's a lie. but a lot. i am so good at tiger woods 2003. i used to take part in video game nights at my ex's place and i'd kill all the boys at it. is it embarassing that i really like golf games? i was so happy when i found that my new cell phone has golf on it.

i need a new video game. i don't know what to get though. there's so much possibility. i think i want a horror game or another god game. i wish i could find black and white even though it crashed my system ever two minutes. grrr.

i've got a headache now. i think i'm going to go to bed early tonight and read my hitchiker's guide to the galaxy.

today is a very lazy day. i am currently in my cow in bathtub print pjs sipping on a coffee wondering what happened to that dvd i was supposed to return to blockbuster. i am hoping my roommate took it this morning and that my cats haven't eaten it.

on that note, i was really unimpressed by the alternate endings on the 28 days later dvd. one of them was of jim dying and the girls moving on to that country house and the second was completely done on storyboards. i am quite glad they chose the ending they did. i wanted to jump throughout the movie though, especially with that uneven coma hair and beard.

my krisko is getting more annoying as of late. i love him to death, don't get me wrong, but mornings are just terrible! he needs so much attention in the morning and he doesn't care if i'm sleeping or not. he digs under my blanket and surprises me with a sandpaper tongue or he'll bite me gently until i wake up. of course once i am awake, he doesn't care about me anymore and runs off to play with kuda.

i found out yesterday that the gallery showing is a go. there are 6 confirmed artists and i would be the 7th. i need to give an answer by next week. eep. it's strange, apart from writing in here, i haven't wanted to tell anyone about it. i'm feeling very shy about the whole thing. bah.

it’s very comforting to know that i am not the only feeling so down about this. there are so many others shedding tears alongside. what some fail to understand is that the sadness doesn’t necessarily stem from the loss of the individual, but the situation overall. however, i shouldn’t have to explain why i feel depressed about it.

i have felt very lethargic today. i woke late and sat around until i knew i was going to be late. after procrastinating leaving my house for a good while, i met up with shaylee 45 minutes. we were shooting with an 8x10 camera. that thing was huge. it went well i think. a huge headache overwhelmed me half way through. i found ibuprofen in my back before leaving so i was happy.

after we finished i walked to the eaton center and bought a coffee. i thought that may help my headache. from there i decided i should indulge in some consumerism to ease my mind. i headed to mac. i bought another eyeshadow; swimming. i love it. oh and apparently all their christmas stuff comes out tomorrow.

i headed home after that. i decided i needed groceries. that didn’t work out well. i sort of wandered aimlessly with my basket. that’s not good. that leads to unnecessary purchases. i bought a bunch of cat food. heh. and tinfoil. and then soup and also macaroons.

i got in and played with my new eyeshadows. then i took picture being the vain picture whore that i am. i don’t care. my eyes look neat so i wanted a picture. i was also having a good hair day. yes.

i have work to do now. yippee.

ohh. i am no longer going to montreal on the 13th. it's been changed to the 4th. i hope i am flying on both the 31st and the 4th.

this is terrible.

such a waste of a brilliant man. i hope he finds better comfort wherever he is. he will be missed so very, very much.

i feel broken right now. i can't imagine how those really close to him feel.

i have to go cry.

my friend just messaged me saying that his roommate saw my old pictures on his computer and said that i was hot. then he saw my current pictures, like with short black hair, and said ewwww. who tells someone that? am i supposed to feel super and great after someone is grossed out by my looks? i don't get it.

my stupid friend garth keeps dedicating 'cunt' by rob mccolley to me on his radio show. we have a very strange relationship. we never talk about anything, and we're always making fun of each other. i'm trying to get him to join the site.

i am addicted to raisin bread.

i rented the 28 days later dvd for later. i saw it in the theater when it first came out but i'm in the mood to watch a movie tonight. i am entirely uneasy and stressed about some things in my life right now and i just need to unwind with a movie.

i'm watching tech tv. they're doing a feature on women and gaming and quite frankly, i'm a tad insulted. "women like pokemon and spongebob squarepants." my ass! i love my gta and vice city, not to mention gran turismo. i cannot wait for GT4 to come out. the release date is set for january 6th. there is so much american muscle in this version's car line up. oh baby.

damn. i just realized i missed monster house and monster garage yesterday. how sad. they're my favourite shows of the moment.

i am going to montreal again on the 13th of november. i just got booked in to work an event. huzzah. i would like to get some events outside of montreal and toronto though. i want to go west. i am so going to have that song stuck in my head for the rest of the night.

dinner time. have a good night everybody!