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JANUARY 1, 2004 @ 11:43 AM


my sadness has been set aside for the day. it all came about yesterday while i was talking to my mum. she mentionned bringing krisko over today. you see, he will be living with her once i move. i said yes, i can do that. then i looked at my dear fat sucky cat and that was it. oh the tears. i realized just how much i am going to miss my babies when i move. it all snowballed into a multitude of leaving thoughts. all alone, i craddled my kitty and shed a river of tears. i know i have to part with everything, but i am just having trouble handling all the emotion that comes with it. leaving my roommate will be tough. we have lived together for four years, and dated for many of those. i was not looking forward to having him drive me to the airport. i loathe the big emotional [public] goodbye. my parents, being as awesome as they are, offered to send me to the airport in a limo so i would not have to deal with that. huzzah. i think i just need to find a different way to look at things so i don't have to focus on the sadness of leaving. you know, celebrating vs. mourning? gah. i don't know.

last night i worked as event photographer at club atlantis. it is a pretty nice club. though, with it being raised above water, i had fears of it breaking and crashing into the water. the event itself was a reggae, soca, r&b new years event. you could say i was very intimidated. i still do not know why they chose to send me there. within a half hour of getting there, i was manhandled. i was on a balcony area taking enviroment shots when this very drunken huge man came up to me and put his arms around blabbering about something. i was cold in responding. he left. shortly after he returned with his friend. with one on each side of me, they both put their arms around me. i couldn't move from side to side so i scrunged down and out of the grasp and walked very quickly away. i was not impressed. what gives these males a mindset like this? ugh. i left the event very early. 'twas not a happy new year. though my bc time new years was considerably better.

i am sorry for the dull entry. i am lacking any creativity.

f00led made me giggle with his comment in my previous entry. way to go. you get a gold star. thanks to everyone for their hugs. you guys all rock. kiss

current mood: lonely.
current sound: dj food - ninja walk.
Comments
Sunnysunny

Sunnysunny

Russian Federation
November 2003

JAN 01, 2004 11:50 AM

awwww im a kitty, take me, purrrrrrrr meow meow meow
cheer up sweetie
happy new year! love blush meow

xSickBoix

xSickBoix

Canada
December 2003

JAN 01, 2004 12:16 PM

happy new year beautiful
i'm sure things will get goin for you

Nina

Nina

SUICIDEGIRL

Canada

JAN 01, 2004 12:18 PM

hi sweety... you would love big fish!

my new years was lame too.... i watched TV and went to sleep by one o'clcok.

boy suck puke

fenris23

fenris23

Vancouver, BC
February 2003

JAN 01, 2004 03:19 PM

Ah the cat, somehow it is harder to leave the kitty then even the people. I still miss my kitty. frown

Aanya

Aanya

HOPEFUL

Canada

JAN 01, 2004 04:07 PM

New years is definately over rated...I say this every year hoping the next will be better...but alas...blahhh!
Nine more days...woo hooo! no wait...eight...eight indeed according to your MSN!
All will be well and think of how much there is waiting here for you! We must celebrate on the weekend since you will be here and i will have successfully survived my first week of school....unless you have other plans wink

kiss kiss

OpticNerve

OpticNerve

Arlington, MA
November 2003

JAN 01, 2004 04:37 PM

My friends and I, along with the members of the Bhuddist Church of Toronto, rang a bell 108 times to symbolize the banishment of the 108 passions which inflict the human spirit. The bell was only a few hundred feet from Club Atlantis, on the Ontario Place grounds. Ironic that shit should happen to you while we were doing this ceremony.

I hope 2004 ends on a better note for you. smile

Nonchalance

Nonchalance

United Kingdom
January 2003

JAN 01, 2004 05:42 PM

Well on behalf of all males i will do the courtesy of slapping myself round the face due to the bahaviour of my gender...

... I was a bit of a bastard last night BTW. All men deserve death! wink

Hope you feel better soon. kiss

Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.

And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.

And how else can it be?

The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.

When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.

Kahil Gibran.

ninjagrrrL

ninjagrrrL

Canada
December 2003

JAN 01, 2004 06:17 PM

that sounds like a neat club!

don't worry about moving ... everything will all fall into place after everything settles... and you'll look back fondly on these mixed emotions.

f00led

f00led

Kirkland, WA
September 2003

JAN 01, 2004 08:39 PM

OMG, Posh you put my name and a link in a journal entry... *faints* I'm so not worthy blush kiss

Think of the glass half full.

Oh and most males are retards, I have trouble saying hi to girls, yet alone put my arm(s) around one.

Cash

Cash

USA
OLD SKOOL

JAN 01, 2004 08:41 PM

Amusing. I read your posts in the SG Hopefuls group re: porn vs. not porn.

Some people are so terrified to admit that the site is porn.

Max16Characters

Max16Characters

Korea, Republic Of
March 2003

JAN 01, 2004 09:33 PM

I'll be moving shortly too...only a few miles from home not like your big cross country move. Lucky you. I need a change of scenery...big time. Seven months though is when i'll decide where to go.

Yeah, guys are big douchebags for the most part. I honestly don't know what women see in us. Penises are ugly and weird though i dig mine ya see. I can totally understand a women being a lesbian or bi, but not a dude being all gay. But i digress...that club should have had some kind of security to make you safe or at least not have to worry about that stuff. I have the opposite feeling in clubs...i rarely leave my circle of friends and talk to people...can't hear anything anways. That and i'm so much taller than everybody around me that i really have to lean down to understand what they say. It sucks.

minos

minos

I'm lost
September 2003

JAN 02, 2004 08:09 AM

It's not fair the creepy guys are always lurking and guys like me would try to think of a million things to say to girl like you and then talk myself out of saying anything, out of a fear of rejection. it's just not fair.
But anyway i hope you had a good new years

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