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Poeis a 24 year-old SuicideGirl in Texas, USA.

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MARCH 4, 2008 @ 11:34 AM | 35 COMMENTS

I'm so bad at updating. I'm just not a lady of empty words. I don't like to talk (or write) when I don't have anything particularly stimulating to say. It's funny in person, because most people can't stand "uncomfortable silence". I don't find silence the least bit uncomfortable. Mindless space-filling chatter is what makes me feel awkward. True story. Can anyone here relate?


I come bearing photos. It's been so long since many of you last saw me, and my hair is much longer now, in addition to newly dyed. I'm going to try my damnedest to shoot a new set soon, but you know how it goes. I need to find a photographer now and I don't know this area well enough yet.





I went out to get ice cream with my boy the other night, and we encountered along the way a healthy number of well-endowed statues.




Check out that rack

And because I never got a chance to show anyone, here's what appears to be a porcelain stumbling drunken Jesus from a grocery store Nativity Display:



Glorious.


JANUARY 22, 2008 @ 08:24 PM | 17 COMMENTS

I've been without internet (and power) for a while. Power comes on tomorrow, finally. Internet and phone should be on Thursday. I'm at a cafe right now, so not enough time to accomplish much, but if I owe you a response of any sort to a comment or email, I'll get back to you soon. <3

JANUARY 16, 2008 @ 04:56 PM | 18 COMMENTS

Hahaha what the hell. I haven't been on SG in a while so I've missed a ton of new sets. Went back to browse through them just now and noticed Amina had 15k comments. I couldn't even begin to fathom such an absurd number, so I checked out the comments to see what all the fuss was about and it turns out there are hundreds upon hundreds of pages of the same people spamming like 500 I Loved Its. lol.

Hey guys, do me a favor and spam my sets with comments so I'll look better, please. <-- sarcasm

Oh, and I'm in Houston now. Been a long trip. Still in a hotel until my apartment is available on Friday. It smells like dirt in here.

I'll update more later.
DECEMBER 29, 2007 @ 05:44 AM | 13 COMMENTS

I'm selling the "time I've spent playing World of Warcraft", in the form of a full epic 70 undead mage (SOLD), 70 BE warlock, 60 BE Paladin. We can say I'm selling you a personal letter sealed with a kiss and giving you my account for free so Blizzard can't QQ.

I'm not quitting, just re-rolling on a new server. An ex plays on this one, and he makes me want to vomit. (Can't afford name changes or xfers right now)

I don't want drama. I just want to enjoy my game on a new server and make some cash to go towards moving to Houston. Message me if you're interested. Transfers are up for both to PVP or PVE servers.



skull
DECEMBER 11, 2007 @ 11:22 AM | 32 COMMENTS

There's something I want to discuss, and I'd like to hear your opinions on the matter, but before I get into it, I just want to make a quick update.

I'm moving to Houston, TX, and here's why:


SPOILERS! (Click to view)
I've been here in Orlando for 3 years now. Compared to my old home of Richmond VA, this city, and even Florida in general, was magnificent. Cleaner, warmer, safer, prettier. Over the past year and a half, it's left a lot to be desired for me. I was reasonably satisfied at first, with the exception of summer- turns out there's nothing worse than leaving your air conditioned house in the dead of summer here- but I slowly began to realize that I've had the same handful of friends the entire time I've been here. Now, that's not necessarily an indicator of a problem for me; I've always preferred a few close friends over dozens of acquaintances, but I've always had a little bit of both.

I'm extremely picky when it comes to making friends. My personality is an acquired taste, so when it comes to socializing, I seek out fun, intelligent and interesting people with similar interests who can deal with my sarcasm and apathy. I have found very, very few of those people here. It's not me though- it's them. In my entire 3 years here, I have not met a single potential boyfriend. Not ONE. Is that even possible? Apparently it is. Oh, I've dated, but the closest guy I've been involved with lived an hour and a half away.



In short, Orlando is too hot, boring, expensive. The personalities here are lacking, the alternative community is lame. Downtown is lame. There's not enough to do unless you want to spend a ton of cash and drive 20+ minutes to get to it. The traffic is horrendous. Rush hour lasts from roughly 3 to 7. Above all else, I'm SICK of living in these ugly sprawling apartment complexes, when I'm used to real apartment buildings or houses. It's great for vacationing, Inadequate for living. I think my vacation is over.

So in conclusion, I'm moving to Houston. I'm going to be staying with a friend in Tallahassee first to make the transition easier, but once I have enough money saved up, goodbye Florida. I want to end up in Austin, not Houston, but it's more convenient at the moment. In the long run, I'd really just like to be back up north. I can't stand the south, honestly. I grew up in the north and I miss seasons. I don't miss shoveling snow, but I do miss seeing it.

I don't have time to write about the other thing I mentioned at the start of this entry, but I will do it later. In the meantime, are any of you in the Houston area? Any suggestions? I'm thinking of moving into an apartment in the Montrose area. I've seen some cheap 1br's online and the wikipedia article I read said it's full of museums, clubs, and alternative culture. Sounds perfect. It's going to be a pain in the ass apartment hunting from here, but I have no choice. I was out there last week, and damn near everything was hiring, but it could just be due to the holiday season. Should be pretty easy to find a job quickly in the heart of the city, right?

NOVEMBER 21, 2007 @ 02:49 PM | 10 COMMENTS

I went to see Tori Amos perform at Hard Rock Live this past Friday, but haven't had the opportunity to update until now.

From Undented:
Pip opened the November 16th show at the Orlando's Hard Rock Live, busting out "Heart of Gold" for the first time since the European leg of the tour. Tori's set contained some surprises as well too: "A Case of You" and "Toast" (a tour debut!) were played during T & Bö and "Past The Mission" was debuted as well, but the real corker was during the first encore when "Not David Bowie" was performed for the first time ever!

The show was absolutely amazing. I was so fucking excited when she came out as Pip. She put on a fantastic performance and played my favorite setlist yet.

Act I - Pip

* Cruel
* Heart of Gold
* Fat Slut
* Smokey Joe
* Teenage Hustling
* The Waitress

Interlude

* Professional Widow

Act II - Tori

* Big Wheel
* Space Dog
* Bouncing Off Clouds
* Cornflake Girl
* Doughnut Song
* Caught A Lite Sneeze

T & Bö

* A Case of You
* Toast

Band Returns

* Past the Mission
* God
* Code Red

First Encore

* Precious Things
* Not David Bowie

Second Encore

* Hey Jupiter

Oh man, reading through the songs, I can hardly believe what a fabulous collection of songs I experienced, and yet somehow, I wasn't able to enjoy it as thoroughly as I should have. The venue was AWFUL. General admission, no seats, unless you paid extra to sit in the upstairs balconies, which are located as far from the stage as humanly possible. Yuck. I had gross people breathing down my neck almost the entire time, pressed up against me, singing and even worse- talking. Some rude cunt behind me just refused to SHUT THE FUCK UP. During the Tori+piano quiet songs, no less. Hard Rock also offers a full bar, so plenty of the audience was obnoxiously drunk.This piece of a review on Undented describes it well:

"I do have to say that the crowd was at times annoying (I guess general admission can bring out the worst in people) as it was distracting to hear loud talking during the T & Bo section, and I could have done without some of the drunken, way too loud, singing in my ear…I came to hear Tori, after all!"

Even so, despite the venue being shitty, it also meant the closest I've ever been and probably will ever be to Tori. She also, for the first time, talked to the crowd and introduced the band. As a matter of fact, the entire show sounded VERY similar to the live cd from To Venus and Back, which made me giddy with joy.

Heart of Gold


Space Dog


Bouncing Off Clouds


A Case of You


Toast


Past the Mission
NOVEMBER 13, 2007 @ 10:34 AM | 15 COMMENTS

I've gotten a few emails asking when I'm planning a new set, so I'll address that here: When SG accepts them. I submitted a set a couple of months ago, and it's now buried in the Hopefuls album somewhere. I think maybe my set didn't have enough nudity or something, I dunno. I was just trying to be creative and tell a story so you lovely folks would have something invigorating to fap to. I do it for my people.

Anyway, I'm really averse to shooting what I consider the boring, standard Bathroom, Bedroom and/or Plain-White/Patterned-Backdrop, themeless stripping sets. It's just not gonna happen. I'm currently mulling over the possibilities I'm limited to, due to the lack of photoshopping skill that seems so necessary these days. I'm planning to move out of Florida soon, so hopefully I'll have better access to shooting locations as well. I refuse to go near any sort of placid body of water around here. I hate alligators with a passion and I'll be damned if I give them the satisfaction of eating me, or pieces of me.

I started a new job waitressing, so money is slowly becoming less of an issue. I kind of hate it, but it's nothing new. My multitasking abilities have always been subpar at best, my right shoulder hurts, and I really can't stand being around crowds of people for very long, but meh, what can you do. Speaking of work, I have to go get ready to look as cute as possible so people will feel compelled to tip me in spite of their terrible service.

Trust me, it works.
OCTOBER 26, 2007 @ 01:14 PM | 29 COMMENTS

So I made a post in the World of Warcraft group for a friend of mine, asking people who also play on a low-population server to contribute to a thread on the General Forums, which is MEANT for making suggestions and complaining to the company about in-game problems, because we got stuck on a server that's so small, everyone knows each other.

You would think that the people who didn't care about this issue would, you know, not read it? Maybe even not comment and move on with their lives? Especially since it's just a video game I've spent hundreds of dollars playing, and I'd like for everyone, including myself, to be able to enjoy the hobby we've invested so much in.

But no. Instead, I got eyerolls and nasty comments basically telling me to shut up.

Every time I start to become more active on this site, I find good reasons to stop. Fucking rude assholes.
OCTOBER 18, 2007 @ 10:00 AM | 19 COMMENTS

After all of the recent chaos, circumstances have lead to moving in with a friend in a completely new location to start fresh. Everything sounded so promising, I thought for sure my luck was improving. My friend suggested I apply to work with him at his new job working in customer service. He said he's making great money and it's easy. He also assured me that this place gives everyone a chance- you practically cannot be turned down. So I would be working full time, making at least 12 bucks an hour, with 2 months of paid full time training. On top of that, he would be able to get me to and from work everyday. Everything sounded so perfect.

Well, I had my interview last Thursday. Yolanda, the insincerely-polite black lady who interviewed me, didn't seem to like me or anything I said. I almost felt like she was interviewing me for reasons not to hire me. She told me at the end of the interview that she would think about it, blah blah blah, get back to me on Monday. Wow, I would have to wait 5 days in suspense? Surely that means I'll be hired and start training next week? She couldn't possibly waste 5 precious days of time I could be job hunting to turn me down, right?

WRONG.

So this fucking bitch calls me on Monday during the literally 2 minutes I leave the room to use the bathroom and leaves a message saying I was not selected to move forward. I called her back of course and asked her why. She said she was not able to disclose that information, and that she didn't "recommend" I re-apply for 6 months, when I asked. Long story short, because it's upsetting me to talk about, I contacted the HR dept to find out WHY, the hiring manager calls and leaves a message saying it was because of my schedule and flexibility, then he goes on vacation for 2 days so I couldn't talk to him until today, to explain that I WAS flexible and that bitch was lying out her ass because I told her I "would like to work the same schedule as my friend so we can carpool", but she told me that wasn't possible so I told her ok. My friend even CALLED HER LATER ON TO MAKE SURE THERE WASN'T A MISUNDERSTANDING AND THAT SHE WAS AWARE I WAS FLEXIBLE.

I tell all of this to the guy, he seems uncomfortable and rushed to get me off the phone. Gives me the run-around when I start to ask questions, then says he meant to tell me that I just wasn't "the right fit for the company", and that the flexibility thing was a misunderstanding. I told him that was funny, because the message he left me stated the ONLY reason was my lack of flexibility. He said I was welcome to re-apply in 30 days, and that Yolanda just didn't feel I was right for the position.

FUCKING BULLSHIT. My friend has only been in the United States for 4 years. His English is good enough, but far from perfect. He has an accent. He doesn't have a ton of work experience because he was in the Navy for the majority of the time. He has no customer service background. I HAVE ALL OF THESE THINGS. WHAT THE FUCK.

Seriously, I hate my life. I'm at a loss and I just don't know what to do anymore. What did I do wrong? How can I fix it? Maybe I was too polite. Maybe I should have slumped into the room and instead of shaking Yolanda's hand, I should have knocked my knuckles against hers and said "Yo bitch, sup. Phat hair weave, Yolanda, 'at's tight, dog. Fo shizzle, I needz me a job, I's po az hell, foo."

Fuck that bitch. I bet she hired all the black girls I saw in the waiting room that day.

Incidentally, for those of you who are curious to know, my friend had a different interviewer. His interviewer was also, like him, Puerto Rican, and she hired him on the spot.

Am I overreacting? Is this clearly a case of my failure as a human being to obtain a job that's nearly guaranteed? Someone please tell me this is nothing more than a case of discrimination and I just got unlucky, as usual. Otherwise, I don't know what to do with myself anymore. Can you get disability for having such shitty interviewing skills that no one will hire you?

OCTOBER 16, 2007 @ 12:48 AM | 33 COMMENTS

So I just logged on and saw some inbred looking bitch's set depicting child-rape and Nazism. Awesome. I'm glad I'm not a rape victim or a jew, lewl. To anyone who was turned on by that set or kissed her ass with positive comments, you're an idiot.

It was not dark and controversial. It was just stupid and immature. If you enjoy images of little nazi girls being drugged, raped, and feeling sexy in the dirt they were dumped in, may I suggest a psychiatrist rather than porn.

I don't care if I offended you. This set is retarded, and I'm ashamed that SG accepted it.


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