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the pictures you've all been waiting for I'm sure.. tee hee.
first.. my new baby. Chello (means little wimper in Espanol)
second.. the new hair/tattoo...
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love you all! Sorry they're sideways.
bang bang,
Pistolita
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first.. my new baby. Chello (means little wimper in Espanol)
second.. the new hair/tattoo...
IMG]http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v393/MissThang0202/63091176_195075641_0.jpg[/IMG]
love you all! Sorry they're sideways.
bang bang,
Pistolita
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Fan-mail for 1/15/2006...
Looking at your profile pic...looking at the pics from your first set
is all it take to make any of us guys swoon over you.
Herien lies the problem. Since you're waqy hot and most of us have
tracked down your movie and check your journal everyday to see if you aded
pick or hell your set comes up(when the hell are we gonne see it!!!)
So we all are hooked on you, we all want to see you naked.
I would love to get to know you more. Learn all about what make Amy
tick. But there is a lucky guy out ther and he gets to be with you.
So.....break up with hiom move to California and lets get
married????!!!?!?!?
Hey I don;t know about the sleave thing, Your skin is so awesomely
soft looking and as weird as this is gonna sound Iit looks so soft i want
to rub your legs or arms. Ha. I think the sleave might take away from
you. Your naturalistic look is whats so hot about you.
You're real. Not that tats arnt real you now what i mean. there is an
angelic purity to your body.
You'll have to sell me on it.
Anyway. I think your hot i think your sexy. And i want to buy you
coffe and talk to you.
-- Mr. Coffee
Dear Mr. Coffee -
I am just going to tell you flat out that I have no idea when you all will see me naked. I had hoped that if I gained a large amount of popularity, they'd almost be forced to put me up quicker, but that's not the case.. take Sugar and Anarchie for example. They are high demand girls, and we haven't seen them go live yet. I don't compare to them. They are just too fucking rad. So I will just wait, for my turn. Second.. no.. I will not be leaving my boyfriend any time soon. We just got a puppy. She's a full blooded chiuahuah. Long hair, black and white. I'll post pics soon. But thank you for the offer. If I end up alone and broken hearted I'll give you a call, if the threesome with my first fan letter doesnt' work out. THIRD. Too bad bitches. I got a tattoo. It's rockin'. Its a day of the dead tribute, and you will all love it. It doesn't take away from my complexion. If anything it makes me look MORE hispanic. HAHA. I get the "you look like an angel" or.." you look so innocent" stuff all the time. It's because I look young. And I'm more trouble and more crazy than any of you know. I also have a child like side, and I express that often, but this tattoo is incredibly meaningful to me, and I've been waiting for it for almost a few years now. I owe it to myself. Thank Mr. Coffee.. I suppose we should catch coffee sometime if you are around Ptizzle Oregon. Let me know.
bang bang,
Pistolita
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Looking at your profile pic...looking at the pics from your first set
is all it take to make any of us guys swoon over you.
Herien lies the problem. Since you're waqy hot and most of us have
tracked down your movie and check your journal everyday to see if you aded
pick or hell your set comes up(when the hell are we gonne see it!!!)
So we all are hooked on you, we all want to see you naked.
I would love to get to know you more. Learn all about what make Amy
tick. But there is a lucky guy out ther and he gets to be with you.
So.....break up with hiom move to California and lets get
married????!!!?!?!?
Hey I don;t know about the sleave thing, Your skin is so awesomely
soft looking and as weird as this is gonna sound Iit looks so soft i want
to rub your legs or arms. Ha. I think the sleave might take away from
you. Your naturalistic look is whats so hot about you.
You're real. Not that tats arnt real you now what i mean. there is an
angelic purity to your body.
You'll have to sell me on it.
Anyway. I think your hot i think your sexy. And i want to buy you
coffe and talk to you.
-- Mr. Coffee
Dear Mr. Coffee -
I am just going to tell you flat out that I have no idea when you all will see me naked. I had hoped that if I gained a large amount of popularity, they'd almost be forced to put me up quicker, but that's not the case.. take Sugar and Anarchie for example. They are high demand girls, and we haven't seen them go live yet. I don't compare to them. They are just too fucking rad. So I will just wait, for my turn. Second.. no.. I will not be leaving my boyfriend any time soon. We just got a puppy. She's a full blooded chiuahuah. Long hair, black and white. I'll post pics soon. But thank you for the offer. If I end up alone and broken hearted I'll give you a call, if the threesome with my first fan letter doesnt' work out. THIRD. Too bad bitches. I got a tattoo. It's rockin'. Its a day of the dead tribute, and you will all love it. It doesn't take away from my complexion. If anything it makes me look MORE hispanic. HAHA. I get the "you look like an angel" or.." you look so innocent" stuff all the time. It's because I look young. And I'm more trouble and more crazy than any of you know. I also have a child like side, and I express that often, but this tattoo is incredibly meaningful to me, and I've been waiting for it for almost a few years now. I owe it to myself. Thank Mr. Coffee.. I suppose we should catch coffee sometime if you are around Ptizzle Oregon. Let me know.
bang bang,
Pistolita
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OK! I get it. So... apparently since I thought I was awesome.. recieving fanmail at such an early stage... I figured I'd post some, and then recieve MORE. WRONG.
(hint.hint. _goddess21_@yahoo.com )
WRONG WRONG WRONG! That's so lame people. I'm not here to torment you. I honestly appreciate the stuff I get sent. It's a little ray of sunshine. A part of me thinks that people just don't care to know any part of me.. they just want to see my naked ass. Well fine. If that's the way it be, then it be. That was horrible English and I will never do that again.
SO. This weekend. Looking forward to it. Got some stuff planned. My bf's birthday is happening on Saturday night. BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT... Saturday.. I'm going in for the first stage of my HALF SLEEVE !!!! Yes. You heard it here first. Wanna know what it is? Well I guess you'll have to wait. Until then.. try writing me some messages. I'm so lonely. How do you expect to get into my pants without a little "get to know" me session first?
<3 bang bang <3
Pistolita
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(hint.hint. _goddess21_@yahoo.com )
WRONG WRONG WRONG! That's so lame people. I'm not here to torment you. I honestly appreciate the stuff I get sent. It's a little ray of sunshine. A part of me thinks that people just don't care to know any part of me.. they just want to see my naked ass. Well fine. If that's the way it be, then it be. That was horrible English and I will never do that again.
SO. This weekend. Looking forward to it. Got some stuff planned. My bf's birthday is happening on Saturday night. BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT... Saturday.. I'm going in for the first stage of my HALF SLEEVE !!!! Yes. You heard it here first. Wanna know what it is? Well I guess you'll have to wait. Until then.. try writing me some messages. I'm so lonely. How do you expect to get into my pants without a little "get to know" me session first?
<3 bang bang <3
Pistolita
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've gotten a lot of requests to see the old set that I did that was rejected... It was most definetly an amazing set, but it just wasn't SG material.. too "pretty". So for your viewing entertainment, I'm posting some pics.
But I also have a very alterior motive. If you would make me a banner to put on my myspace, I would be ever so happy. But only if you want to. Don't go crazy or anything. Don't miss school or work or sex to make me a banner. But if you would, I'd give you ONE THOUSAND Pistolita kisses. And those are most valuable.
look! It's a naked strip show as you scroll down. That's fun. Ok!! Go to work!
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But I also have a very alterior motive. If you would make me a banner to put on my myspace, I would be ever so happy. But only if you want to. Don't go crazy or anything. Don't miss school or work or sex to make me a banner. But if you would, I'd give you ONE THOUSAND Pistolita kisses. And those are most valuable.
look! It's a naked strip show as you scroll down. That's fun. Ok!! Go to work!
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I have decided that since I am now officially "pink", I am almost a celebrity! Or at least as much of a celebrity as I'm ever going to be. And since I am now a celebrity, I can do whatever the fuck I want. Since I will probably grow such an awesome fan base once my set goes live, I would like to take the time to acknowledge some people who have been great to me from the very start.. before I was a SG. I have been receiving fan mail from awesome people like yourselves whom are reading this right now, and I would like to "holla" at one, in each blog, and write my own little response to their "fan-letter".
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Here's today's letter:
in response to my 12/28 blog
Damn, girl! Join the club...hehehe No seriously when a smokin' hot girl like you gets turned down it usually makes them totally f'n lose it. Because 99 times out of 100 if a
fine azz chica like yourself throws her boy down on the bed and wants to "ride" it all night long, well you're probably in for 4-5hrs of some naughty fun. Me thinks you might look into a new boy/girl? Now I don't know what your ethnicity is and I've only seen the small profile pic but goddamn whatever it is how do I sign up?
Shit, I almost feel like dumping my hot azz girl on the curb and throwing my dice on your table to see what I'd roll. She does not sound half
as naughty/fun/creatiive as you do. You fuckin' rawk and can't wait to see you cute little booty in your set.
besos
Dear Besos - First I would like to tell you that your message was hilarious. It kept a grin on my face the entire time. Do you talk like this in real life? It's so entertaining. So many metaphors, it's great! Keep up the good work. Secondly, yes, I would like 4-5 hours of naughty fun, because quite frankly, I can handle it, and I would LOVE it if my man would just hop on me ever hour on the hour. My life would be so much less stressful. 4-5 hours is a rockin' good time, for sure, but after that long, a girl's parts are usually a little swollen and hurtin' if you know what I mean. But every once in a while couldn't hurt. Third, I'm mexican/russian/italian/german/irish. That's a lot to handle. The good portion of me, or 50% of me is Mexican. That's where I get my fantastic dark skin. Fourth, your girlfriend sounds boring. You sound fun. Dump that girl. Just kidding.. don't do it an then tell her I told you to. That could get me into trouble...being naked on the internet and all. For all I know she could be my boss. Here's an idea, show her my picture and see if she'd do a 3-some with me. If so, we'll work something out. In conclusion Besos, thank you for your letter, it was a delight to read, and good luck with that gf. Every girl has her wild side, you just have to find out how to tap into hers. Keep rockin' out with your cock out. Happy '06.
<3 Pistolita
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Here's today's letter:
in response to my 12/28 blog
Damn, girl! Join the club...hehehe No seriously when a smokin' hot girl like you gets turned down it usually makes them totally f'n lose it. Because 99 times out of 100 if a
fine azz chica like yourself throws her boy down on the bed and wants to "ride" it all night long, well you're probably in for 4-5hrs of some naughty fun. Me thinks you might look into a new boy/girl? Now I don't know what your ethnicity is and I've only seen the small profile pic but goddamn whatever it is how do I sign up?
Shit, I almost feel like dumping my hot azz girl on the curb and throwing my dice on your table to see what I'd roll. She does not sound half as naughty/fun/creatiive as you do. You fuckin' rawk and can't wait to see you cute little booty in your set.
besos
Dear Besos - First I would like to tell you that your message was hilarious. It kept a grin on my face the entire time. Do you talk like this in real life? It's so entertaining. So many metaphors, it's great! Keep up the good work. Secondly, yes, I would like 4-5 hours of naughty fun, because quite frankly, I can handle it, and I would LOVE it if my man would just hop on me ever hour on the hour. My life would be so much less stressful. 4-5 hours is a rockin' good time, for sure, but after that long, a girl's parts are usually a little swollen and hurtin' if you know what I mean. But every once in a while couldn't hurt. Third, I'm mexican/russian/italian/german/irish. That's a lot to handle. The good portion of me, or 50% of me is Mexican. That's where I get my fantastic dark skin. Fourth, your girlfriend sounds boring. You sound fun. Dump that girl. Just kidding.. don't do it an then tell her I told you to. That could get me into trouble...being naked on the internet and all. For all I know she could be my boss. Here's an idea, show her my picture and see if she'd do a 3-some with me. If so, we'll work something out. In conclusion Besos, thank you for your letter, it was a delight to read, and good luck with that gf. Every girl has her wild side, you just have to find out how to tap into hers. Keep rockin' out with your cock out. Happy '06.
<3 Pistolita
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2005 was a year of My Chem, Bloc Party, Fiona Apple, and Fall Out Boy. Exactly in that order. OBSESSIVE. For the rest of my 2005 wrap up.. please... read on lovers.
January - A lot of personal redemption took place in this month. I was reading a lot of old Renaissance writers and really expanding my mind on a weekly basis on exactly what it meant to have friends, or be in a relationship. Only to realize that I was completely wrong about both later in life. But January was a good month of reflection. It was also the realization that I had been spending the last few months slipping into the biggest depression I've ever been through. I had no friends except my boyfriend, and I was extremely melancholy and lonely, needy and victimized myself.
February - I was extremely angry this month. Just moving through each day closer to graduation from school. My valentines' day was very anti-climactic, exactly like every other holiday this year. Although my bf of the time and I decided not to celebrate it, he brought me flowers. We were doing the "seeing eachother every few days" routine when he would drive up from Eugene. Long distance sucks cock.
March - About the time I found out I had two STD's. HOWEVER, they revoked one of them. Originally they thought I was infected with a virus, but after more testing they found out it was not true. They did however find lesions in my cervix and gave me meds and diagnosed me with probable cervical cancer. This put me into a deeper depression about my body, sexual health, general health and my relationship. It did however, push for my ex and I to talk again. And now we are friends... so I suppose there was an upside?
April - For spring break, Ryan, my ex and I drove through California on a road trip. We went to Taste of Chaos and drove through San Fran, stayed in L.A and had a fucking awesome time. Other than that, I was just getting excited about finishing school.
May - I turned 21 this year. And although I got drunk, I didn't puke. My boyfriend got more wasted than I did and started telling everyone it was his birthday. Fucker. Anyway, my parents came out to help celebrate, and that was awesome. They went around the whole night with us, drinking at every place, and then took us out to eat at 2am. My parents are fucking amazing. Met Rory that night... later to be my current boyfriend...
June - Sent in my first SG set..that later was turned down, but I'm still in love with it. Celebrated my best friend's birthday with her and her boyfriend.. who has the birthday a day after her. Crazy huh? Also the first time I'd had a crush on a boy other than my boyfriend in MONTHS. We'll get to that story later
July - The beginning of the end of the shittiest most mind fucking relationship I've ever been in.. for both of us. Ryan was in a new band, and although I thought things were fine, he had other intentions. Also the month when I really wanted people to tell me the truth about what they thought about me. I wanted people to be real.. and cut me open. I needed to figure shit out about myself. I was also slipping deeper into my depression and becoming careless with my health, and school.
August - The month everything came to a screeching hault. My senior collection was stolen, and I had to start over. Ryan broke up with me the same day. Everything fell apart. I started meds and counseling asap in August. I started fucking Craig (the guy that I felt something for). Yeah, he was pretty, and he filled the void. I had no other attachment to him. I felt nothing. I didn't want to be with him, I just wanted to fuck him. And it felt good for the time.
September - I graduated. Went home to spend some time with my parents in Montana. Had a nervous break down and just lost it. I was suicidal at this point. Heartbroken and devastated.
October - As soon as I got home from Montana in September, I had scraped rock bottom with everything. I started hanging out with Rory on a regular basis when I got back, and he became the happiest part of my day. Spending time with him made my days go faster, and I was not so miserable. I made vows of chastity. I didn't want a boyfriend, didn't want to be touched, didn't want anything from a boy. But for some reason Rory pierced right through that and became something I never saw in him before. October was extremely hard.. but my light at the end of the tunnel were my friends and Rory. And of course Fiona Apple... thank god for that cd.
November - Rory and I were full blown dating by now. I was starting to feel better after Halloween, things started feeling lighter. I got a job finally, and started on the 21st. It was life changing, but it got me a nice townhouse and a relocation to the SE. November was also a month that was really hard for me to figure out what exactly I was going to do in this relationship... something needed to change inside me so that I could make this work. A lot of questioning myself, questioning sex, questioning everything.
December - I was really doing well the first few months of december. Then I started to dip back into depression, but pulled myself out fairly quickly. The starting of the new job was stressful, and taking its toll on my relationship. By the end of this month, we'd been through a million talks. We love eachother. We love the time we spend together. We are two completely different people, but we are making it work...we just have to fix all of the fucked up paths we have taken with other relationships. Its like being blindfolded and starting over for the first time.. attempting love for the first time. It's so hard. Re-defining what it means to love and be in a relationship. Ok, gay. I know. Wah wah wah.
2006... here's to you. Lets do it better this time round.
January - A lot of personal redemption took place in this month. I was reading a lot of old Renaissance writers and really expanding my mind on a weekly basis on exactly what it meant to have friends, or be in a relationship. Only to realize that I was completely wrong about both later in life. But January was a good month of reflection. It was also the realization that I had been spending the last few months slipping into the biggest depression I've ever been through. I had no friends except my boyfriend, and I was extremely melancholy and lonely, needy and victimized myself.
February - I was extremely angry this month. Just moving through each day closer to graduation from school. My valentines' day was very anti-climactic, exactly like every other holiday this year. Although my bf of the time and I decided not to celebrate it, he brought me flowers. We were doing the "seeing eachother every few days" routine when he would drive up from Eugene. Long distance sucks cock.
March - About the time I found out I had two STD's. HOWEVER, they revoked one of them. Originally they thought I was infected with a virus, but after more testing they found out it was not true. They did however find lesions in my cervix and gave me meds and diagnosed me with probable cervical cancer. This put me into a deeper depression about my body, sexual health, general health and my relationship. It did however, push for my ex and I to talk again. And now we are friends... so I suppose there was an upside?
April - For spring break, Ryan, my ex and I drove through California on a road trip. We went to Taste of Chaos and drove through San Fran, stayed in L.A and had a fucking awesome time. Other than that, I was just getting excited about finishing school.
May - I turned 21 this year. And although I got drunk, I didn't puke. My boyfriend got more wasted than I did and started telling everyone it was his birthday. Fucker. Anyway, my parents came out to help celebrate, and that was awesome. They went around the whole night with us, drinking at every place, and then took us out to eat at 2am. My parents are fucking amazing. Met Rory that night... later to be my current boyfriend...
June - Sent in my first SG set..that later was turned down, but I'm still in love with it. Celebrated my best friend's birthday with her and her boyfriend.. who has the birthday a day after her. Crazy huh? Also the first time I'd had a crush on a boy other than my boyfriend in MONTHS. We'll get to that story later
July - The beginning of the end of the shittiest most mind fucking relationship I've ever been in.. for both of us. Ryan was in a new band, and although I thought things were fine, he had other intentions. Also the month when I really wanted people to tell me the truth about what they thought about me. I wanted people to be real.. and cut me open. I needed to figure shit out about myself. I was also slipping deeper into my depression and becoming careless with my health, and school.
August - The month everything came to a screeching hault. My senior collection was stolen, and I had to start over. Ryan broke up with me the same day. Everything fell apart. I started meds and counseling asap in August. I started fucking Craig (the guy that I felt something for). Yeah, he was pretty, and he filled the void. I had no other attachment to him. I felt nothing. I didn't want to be with him, I just wanted to fuck him. And it felt good for the time.
September - I graduated. Went home to spend some time with my parents in Montana. Had a nervous break down and just lost it. I was suicidal at this point. Heartbroken and devastated.
October - As soon as I got home from Montana in September, I had scraped rock bottom with everything. I started hanging out with Rory on a regular basis when I got back, and he became the happiest part of my day. Spending time with him made my days go faster, and I was not so miserable. I made vows of chastity. I didn't want a boyfriend, didn't want to be touched, didn't want anything from a boy. But for some reason Rory pierced right through that and became something I never saw in him before. October was extremely hard.. but my light at the end of the tunnel were my friends and Rory. And of course Fiona Apple... thank god for that cd.
November - Rory and I were full blown dating by now. I was starting to feel better after Halloween, things started feeling lighter. I got a job finally, and started on the 21st. It was life changing, but it got me a nice townhouse and a relocation to the SE. November was also a month that was really hard for me to figure out what exactly I was going to do in this relationship... something needed to change inside me so that I could make this work. A lot of questioning myself, questioning sex, questioning everything.
December - I was really doing well the first few months of december. Then I started to dip back into depression, but pulled myself out fairly quickly. The starting of the new job was stressful, and taking its toll on my relationship. By the end of this month, we'd been through a million talks. We love eachother. We love the time we spend together. We are two completely different people, but we are making it work...we just have to fix all of the fucked up paths we have taken with other relationships. Its like being blindfolded and starting over for the first time.. attempting love for the first time. It's so hard. Re-defining what it means to love and be in a relationship. Ok, gay. I know. Wah wah wah.
2006... here's to you. Lets do it better this time round.
GET THIS!
Lately I have been horny as all hell. I don't know if it's because of the cold weather, that I want to rub up against my warm man or what.. but seriously. Lately I've been having to "do it myself" because my bf just started a new job, and I'm working all day, and we just have conflicting schedules. So yesterday after work, we are hanging out at my place, playing some Perfect Dark on my N64, and I start putting the moves on my man. I immediately get a huge sense of distance from him. Like he's not into it. So, I lay off. As we're getting into bed last night, I start working my "magic" again...
and????
WAH WAH WAH... he pulls away from me and tells me that he's just not into kissing right now, and that I shouldn't be offended. WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN? He doesn't want to kiss me? Have we not been seperated in the genitalia area for more than 3 days?! I'm going crazy.. and now I can't even KISS YOU?
Ok. I know it might seem that I'm just freaking out over a little sexual rejection, but the boy is ALWAYS asking me to initiate sex. Well.. this time I'm totally going for it, and I get rejected! WTF. That makes me NEVER want to do it again. In fact.. I'm not going to.
Ladies.. what the hell do you do if you get rejected.. or DO YOU get rejected? Am I the only woman in the universe who gets rejected for sex?
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Lately I have been horny as all hell. I don't know if it's because of the cold weather, that I want to rub up against my warm man or what.. but seriously. Lately I've been having to "do it myself" because my bf just started a new job, and I'm working all day, and we just have conflicting schedules. So yesterday after work, we are hanging out at my place, playing some Perfect Dark on my N64, and I start putting the moves on my man. I immediately get a huge sense of distance from him. Like he's not into it. So, I lay off. As we're getting into bed last night, I start working my "magic" again...
and????
WAH WAH WAH... he pulls away from me and tells me that he's just not into kissing right now, and that I shouldn't be offended. WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN? He doesn't want to kiss me? Have we not been seperated in the genitalia area for more than 3 days?! I'm going crazy.. and now I can't even KISS YOU?
Ok. I know it might seem that I'm just freaking out over a little sexual rejection, but the boy is ALWAYS asking me to initiate sex. Well.. this time I'm totally going for it, and I get rejected! WTF. That makes me NEVER want to do it again. In fact.. I'm not going to.
Ladies.. what the hell do you do if you get rejected.. or DO YOU get rejected? Am I the only woman in the universe who gets rejected for sex?
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Is it possible to be too addicted to SG? I think so. And especially when you're a girl who's as giddy as a school boy getting his first blowjob waiting through each step of the process..
Im officially on the limbo page, which is pretty cool. I'm hoping that will draw some friends my way. Because in all reality, yes, it is a fucking beauty contest. And you all are just waiting to see me naked. Well.. some of you have already.
ANYWAY. I think I'm going to throw up.
Im officially on the limbo page, which is pretty cool. I'm hoping that will draw some friends my way. Because in all reality, yes, it is a fucking beauty contest. And you all are just waiting to see me naked. Well.. some of you have already.
ANYWAY. I think I'm going to throw up.
Things that I need to remember from now on:
1.) take your medication EVERYDAY
2.) you need to let go of gender roles in life.
3.) when things start to get complicated, stop thinking. You are just making it more complicated.
4.) alone time is necessary for all living things to grow.
5.) It is possible to be happy.
6.) Nothing fails you, as long as you don't fail yourself.
7.) If nothing is ok, everything is ok.
8.) You can only think for yourself.
9.) others are not your reality. YOU are your reality.
10.) Sometimes, you feel insane, and like something is out of wack. And there is something happening. You are about to get your period. It's ok. Take a deep breath.
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1.) take your medication EVERYDAY
2.) you need to let go of gender roles in life.
3.) when things start to get complicated, stop thinking. You are just making it more complicated.
4.) alone time is necessary for all living things to grow.
5.) It is possible to be happy.
6.) Nothing fails you, as long as you don't fail yourself.
7.) If nothing is ok, everything is ok.
8.) You can only think for yourself.
9.) others are not your reality. YOU are your reality.
10.) Sometimes, you feel insane, and like something is out of wack. And there is something happening. You are about to get your period. It's ok. Take a deep breath.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxamyxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
So, today I went "Insert Commercial Holiday Here" shopping.. and I must say... I hit up all the major shopping places in downtown p-town, and I caught the BUG. The holiday BUG!!! I was all chipper and red cheeked.. happy and spending money like I had it.
It was amazing. I was in love with EVERYTHING. Like on holiday extacy or something. It is just ridiculous.
Well, I can't go back to Montucky for christmas this year, so I'm going to be spending it either by myself, or with my boyfriend's family. I can't really seem to decide which is better. I mean, I don't want to be alone, but I don't want to be imposing on a family's holiday special time. You know.. when everyone wakes up and is opening presents.. and then there's me... sitting on the couch. THEN.. if I go.. do I have to get them a gift? We've only been dating a few months, and I'm not really feeling like I know what they are like, let alone what they'd want for a christmas gift. Jesus. Holidays are just getting ridiculous.
Bah Humbug.
It was amazing. I was in love with EVERYTHING. Like on holiday extacy or something. It is just ridiculous.
Well, I can't go back to Montucky for christmas this year, so I'm going to be spending it either by myself, or with my boyfriend's family. I can't really seem to decide which is better. I mean, I don't want to be alone, but I don't want to be imposing on a family's holiday special time. You know.. when everyone wakes up and is opening presents.. and then there's me... sitting on the couch. THEN.. if I go.. do I have to get them a gift? We've only been dating a few months, and I'm not really feeling like I know what they are like, let alone what they'd want for a christmas gift. Jesus. Holidays are just getting ridiculous.
Bah Humbug.
