Hello new layout!? WHAT!

I know that's what everyone else must be thinking, this completely blew my mind.

I've received lots of e-mails and comments from all of you about your cares and concerns for me and I think that is awesome. I've made an appointment to go see my energy healer for the first round of natropathic healing. I still have my colposcopy appointment too, however.

My boyfriend went to Mississippi to visit his dying grandfather, and I'm alone for 6 days. I miss him so much already, but I know when he returns it will be a wonderful feeling. I love him so much. Even though I haven't showed it well lately. I'm ready to admit that I want this to be it.

Again, thank you. Your words really help raise my spirits. Thank you to Loe and Lanolin, you guys are sweeties.

And Taye and Wendy AND Fractal all had sets/vids go up! AWESOME WEEK.

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Today is a sad day.

Remember a few posts back, I had my annual exam and the doctor said everything looked great? Well... my tests came back abnormal. I'm headed in for a second time, for a colposcopy, so that they can take more tissue from my cervix to test. For any of you women out there who are familiar with this, you know how I feel. I feel kinda dirty. I feel like I'm damaged goods, and that there's something wrong with my vagina. Being brought up strict Catholic leads a lot of negative energy to a girl's vagina. You're literally taught to fear it, and that it's ugly and inappropriate. Maybe this is just a result of 20 something years of negatively thinking about my vagina. I'm hoping I haven't ruined my chances of having children someday, or that my boyfriend will still want to have sex with me, after all of this... surgeries and cervix tissue removing... ugh. It can leave you feeling less womanly. My vagina is my womanhood. In it, I find strength.


So here's what I'm doing to help myself:
1.) I'm going to see my energy healer. I hope that he will guide me back into my powers of manifestation and healing. I know I can heal my vagina, if I manifest it so.

2.) I'm trying to educate every woman I can about the dangers of HPV and other std's that are VERY common. Please please please get checked. Some day, you will want to have children, and when you go into a gynocologist and they check you and say you have cervical cancer and that you are now barren, you will wish you would have gotten checked in the first place.

3.) In all reality, I cannot afford to pay for the treatments and procedures that I am going to have to go through for the next few months. So, I am calling on the resourses of my friends and those who know I would do the same for them in their time of need. I'm using the "red dress" as a symbol of HPV, and HPV awareness. It had some bids, but now I'm really pushing it as a way to raise money for my vagina. ....

HELP SAVE PISTOLITA'S VAGINA!!!!!!

.... there are many ways to help, if you wish.... I can sell you photographs, trinkets, articles of clothing, the red dress,... whatever.... Please help if you can. I'm going to try to save every penny I can so that I can pay off my medical bills that are already existing before I get the rush of new ones for my cervical cancer treatment. If all you can donate is an honest prayer, I'll take what I can get. Maybe if we all focus positive energy on my vagina, it will heal and get better by itself. Anything you have to offer me is more than appreciated....

Even if you read this, and tell ONE person to get checked, or you yourself get checked, I consider that a win.


Please be safe, and take care of your bodies!!!


Donate to Pistolita's Cervical Cancer Fund!!!


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I've been absent from SG for only 3 freaking days, and I'm so behind.

I must hurry children. Quiet now. Everybody listen up.

My mommy is in town. My mom is AWESOME. Seriously the raddest woman ever. She now is aware of my smoking habits, although politely declined to smoke with me. Maybe next time.

The play I've been costuming opens tonight!!!! It's for a group who has created a school for adults with mental disabilities. So I've costumed over 40 adults (kids really) for the play Camelot. It's going to be amazing. Last night I saw the dress rehersal, and within 10 seconds I was totally crying because I was so proud. These people have mental disabilities, yet they are SO charismatic on stage, and are amazing vocalists, and make me sooooooooo proud. I am so happy I've been a part of this. It makes me feel like a decent human being.

My lovely baby girl Chello (my chihuahua) is going through heat. She's all puffy and swollen, but she's cute as fuck. Serious heart breaker. I'll send her your love.

My bf's band is in crisis.... their guitarist is up and out. And they're at square one now. Bummer.

Work sucks, I'm looking for a new job, but the job I have now pays bank. So unless something or someone will pay me $15/hr, forget leaving.


That's about all for now kiddies. Hopefully I'll have pics from the show. Thanks for all your love and e-mails. I appreciate them very much.


besos y pesos
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I had my annual exam yesterday. Ick.

She said everything looks and feels very healthy, and that I must really take care of my vagina. Well, she's right. I love it very much and hope we spend a lot of time together.

Women: get checked. Go to a local planned parenthood. It's free. And it's the best thing you can do for your body, and your lover's bodies, and your friends bodies.


Men: get checked too. Be a man and help stop stds. There's no reason you can't put a condom on to save someone's life. Be responsible and most of all be respectable.


P.S. I'm selling my red dress... seen in the notorious red dress set that was rejected before I went pink. To refresh...



It can be bid on by sending me a msg. Or by going to this link here....

Clicky Clicky!


mmmm sexy.

Also. Kensington had a sexy set go up today. i love that girl. Go tell her how hot she is.

besos y pesos,
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mmm. Home early. Get high. Sushi. Get high. Hot boyfriend plays bass tonight. I'm totally going to bone him when he comes home. mmmm.


by the way, I just discovered I liked sushi a week ago. I've been going to get sushi a lot. I'm probably going to die over mercury poisoning. It's a cause for concern.


Ok seriously. I have to see if anyone else can tell, but my breasts have grown an ENTIRE cup size since about a month ago. I have pictures to prove it. Maybe I'm just crazy, but they weigh a ton, and they're just heavy on my body. I'm not pregnant. So don't even say it, because trust me, I'm not pregnant. But my boobs are gigantic. Every day I want to sit and play with them (just like boys always say they would if they had breasts, I seriously do that). It's like a second puberty, and I'm akward and curious about my body again. It's fantastic. Thank you boob god. Thank you.

Ok.

To the pictures. drum roll. Ok, here's exibit A. Taken 2 months ago.




And exibit B. Taken a few moments ago...


and most incriminating...



let me know what you think mmkay?



Also.. I fucking really miss my girls from Hell City. I think about them every day. Esp. Riot, we need to get together soon. I miiiiiiiiiisss you hard. I'm going to come into your work this weekend.

Is it wierd for me to confess my undying love for you after a blog about my breasts? Don't think too poorly of me darling.


besos y pesos,
<3 Pistolita

Hey everyone in SG land!

Last night was my 22nd birthday. And I learned a very important lesson... I have the most amazing friends ever. My boyfriend's bandThe Coterie played a show in McMinneville, OR. And instead of being parted from my bf on my birthday, I decided to go with them to their show. When my friends caught word that I wasn't staying in Portland to celebrate my birthday, they decided to come to McMinneville (dubbed McMethville) with me.

So they did... my friend Boni, Lisa and her fiance Ben came with us.. and we had a kick ass time. Pitchers of beer, jello shots, joints being passed, and a rockin band. No one.. and I mean NO ONE showed up to the show... figures.... so I'm glad we all went. They dedicated pretty much every song to me, and on my favorite song, Rory pulled a chair out in the middle of the floor for me to sit on, while I got serenaded, metal style.

I love love love love love those boys. Their cd is being mastered, and they will have music up soon on their myspace. It's seriously the catchy-est pop-metal you've ever heard. It's really hard to resist listening to it. Their singer has a phenomenal voice, and they are all very talented musicians, as well as solid dudes. They make me very happy. They are all my boyfriends, I just have exclusive rights to one.

So I got some pretty sweet stuff. My girlfriend Lisa planted a garden for me in my back yard while I was gone for 3 hours. That took serious planning and a lot of love on her part. She's amazing. I got a dress form for draping, so now I can start draping some amazing ball gowns and sell them for thousands of dollars... whoooooo hoooo! I ate macaroni and cheese on my bday.. because I wouldn't have it any other way... and... pretty much had the best day ever. I love my friends.

CaptainTact sent me a birthday present.. and I love him. He's my myspace boyfriend. And a fabulous friend.

Thank you for all the birthday well wishes. I love them all, and they make me smile!!!

Hopefully I'll have some pictures from tonight to show people! I'm getting the film developed, so it will be a good few days before I can post any picture madness. But there will be some.

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besos y pesos
Pistolita

So I promised. Im hoping that people will post pictures in the Hell City thread, so that I can steal more. But of course I"m selfish and only take the ones with me in them... but here's a few to tide you over.


This is Friday night.. I believe. And we all had been partying for quite a while... these are fucking solid ladies. I love them all....


Workin' the table...


And getting my ass kicked... or getting tattooed. By Trevor Collis


I hope more pictures are on their way. I'm hot. It's 80 degrees in my house. And only 4 days till my 22nd birthday. Eeeee!!!


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So much fun. So much fun and excitement, and so many things to tell about Hell City. I got back really early today, and the last 3 days have lasted for a freaking eternity. I think that's a good thing though. I met a slew of girls who became very well thought of, in my mind. The convention was filled with people, and there were plenty of things to see. I'm so happy that I had the opportunity to do something like this. We are all so different, but like Taye said, we're really not that different, because we're all girls, naked on the internet, and being confident enough to take the initiative to go somewhere you've never been, to stay with a bunch of girls you've never met, to experience things you've never experienced. So really, we're all a lot alike. Us SG's. We're something else.

Riot and I met up the night before we left to get a drink together. And I can honestly say that I really felt like the two of us had the same idea for what we wanted Hell City to be like. We just wanted to kick it and meet some SG's and get crazy. We did just that. We flew together from Portland to Columbus, and when we got to the hotel, we had to just wait... with our bags, until we could get into our room. So basically we had a few hours to kick it at the hotel bar. Turns out, Hell City was not only having the tattoo convention, but a funeral homes directors convention. So all of these undertakers, who embalm people, were mingling at the bar the same time the tattooed people were getting there. Apparently, according to the staff, the undertakers are by far the rowdy-est group that they've ever accomodated. Just fucking crazy, those undertakers are!

So we sat, drank and met up with Wendy, met a tattoo artist who eventually tattooed 6 of the 20-something SG's that came. So because we met him, he drew us all up tattoos, like... in 3 minutes. And by the next day I had plans for a new tattoo. 2 weeks after finishing my half sleeve. And I tell you now, that I have a huge Medusa on my left shoulder that coils down my left back, and curves around my left breast and ends in my waist area. It's phenomenal. The tattoo artist is Trevor Collis. I'll provide a link to his website later. Too stoned now to try. And much to stoned to explain the rest of Hell City. I met a ton of girls, a few that are standing out in my mind now are Mckenzie, Drave, Kensington, Twwly, Amina, Campbell, Riot, Taye, Anna, Sunshine, Loe, Zui, Madison, Odette, Kiska, Eliska, .... and if i'm forgetting any, it's because i'm stoned. Not because I don't love you......I thought you were all amazing. I can't wait to get pictures to show everyone!!!!


besos y pesos,
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I really can't explain to people how fucking excited I am to be going to Hell City this year for the tattoo convention in Columbus, OH. I just finished my half sleeve today with Lucky at Temple Tattoo in Ptizzle, and it is seriously a cause for celebration!!!

FUCK YES I'M DONE WITH A HALF SLEEVE! And although I had no part in the actual physical work of doing the tattoo, I feel like I have done something awesome, and need to celebrate it justly.

So I'm done with the tattoo, and got my hair cut even shorter. Yes SHORTER. But I can promise you it's hot. It's wierd because boys who didn't give me the time of day now say "what's up hottie" every time I enter a room. How cute. I didn't cut my hair to be a sex icon.. I cut it off because I needed to feel liberated. And it feels amazing. Its short, it's sexy and I don't have to do a thing to it. I also got my eyebrows waxed, which was awesome.. certainly needed. So now it comes down to getting a new swimming suit... why?... because my boobs have grown a full cup size. YES. A FULL CUP SIZE. I'm now a 34C. My bf loves it. I love it. They're sore, but for some reason they feel amazing.

There are plans in the works for Riot and I to do a girl/girl set in Hell City. If it goes down, it will be stellar. I can promise that.

Other than that, life seems to be going in super fast motion. My boyfriend and I just had the 6-month relationship evaluation talk a few days ago, and he said something that threw away all my doubts... he said... "if we weren't aiming for something long term, why would we be together." So basically it wont' be over in 2 months. Yay!

Ummmm... I'm pretty tired of my dog eating my tampons from the garbage can.... it's really disgusting, and it makes me want to puke, but she's so freaking cute. She can't help it that she likes my vagina smell.... but it is seriously disturbing.


Ok that's about it for updates.

bang bang,
Pistolita



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i have the best of friends. this is from my gilfriend Boni... she draws pictures and heals hearts.

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