The ladies would like to say hello



P.S. I have hormones to blame for this. At least they are good for something?

In regards to my last post, I think my frustrating stemmed from the fact that nothing, at least for me, compares to the expressiveness of art. When taking a break from art, I was unconsciously trying to find other outlets for my creativity and finding them to be so much less satisfying than painting. Also, the meditative state that I achieve when working is probably something I needed, more than I knew. Even when doing yoga, I just wasn't quite going as... deep, probably because I'm not as practiced at it. Now that I'm back to painting, I'm more content and happy! It was a good little experiment, though, and I'm keeping up with eating healthy and exercising almost everyday.

Something is bugging me. The less absorbed I am in my painting work, the more narcissistic I become. Now that I'm taking some time off, I'm thinking so much about my body, health, exercise that my head is clouded and I feel like can't think straight. When I'm painting, nothing else matters. Now I'm thinking about outfits, hair, makeup, stuff that was irrelevant when I only had time for painting. It's as if I just got out of a long marriage and am trying to get back into dating. Ha ha!


Edit: So then I drew this...

I spent the whole day trying to take photos of myself, good ones. I have decided it is nearly impossible! Then I decided that what I needed to do was take a video so that I could pause it whenever something art-worthy caught my eye and use it as a reference. I filmed it thinking that only myself would see it and so you get a very intimate look at me. It could possibly be better than any painting I might do and that's why I feel like sharing it.

And just so you know what the farting noise is, I'm kneeling on an air mattress, not farting!

I'm planning a new series of paintings! I want to break up my portraits a bit, take them more into sensual figure studies where hands touching skin are the main focus. Beautiful, expressive hands with long, graceful fingers are often what catch my eye when I notice a person. Hands can convey so much through a gesture or touch.


Here's a sketch I did the other day that sort of illustrates my idea.

So I need some help finding images! If you see an SG photo or any kind of photo I would love to see it! Please post images or links in the comments below.

Thanks everybody!!!

Okay, time for a new blog.

Lately I've simply been working my butt off in preparation for my art show. I finished a few commissioned paintings that will be hanging in a new restaurant that is opening next week, and because this is a semi-anonymous blog I get to brag that the owner and chef has been on tv and is quite accomplished! What's funny is that I expected him to be quite controlling and egotistical but after meeting him in person and seeing him on tv, he's really the opposite. It didn't strike me at first when he said to me how much he admired my work and that he "couldn't do what I do". Later, though, when I thought about what he's achieved I felt like it was one of the biggest compliments I've ever gotten. It's really great to meet people that are so successful while at the same time being positive and down-to-earth. They've achieved their success not by pushing others down but by bringing everyone up. I'm hoping that all of my future clients are this great!

Here's one of the paintings:


Secrets. 36x48. Acrylic on wood.

and I forgot to take a good picture of the other painting, which is my favorite, before I delivered it! Blargh! I will be able to go and take a picture soon so it's not a huge problem.

That's all for now.

This might seem like a strange blog to some of you, but to others you might remember a time when I'd write about metaphysical and spiritual things. Well, the reason I haven't in such a long time is because it's as if that sense had gone away from me. I've often reminisced about how I used to feel these timely pushes to do certain things, as if it was something bigger making my decisions for me, and everything would work out "like it should". Now I've been wondering what has changed for me that I don't get these inklings anymore. Is it because my awareness has shifted to be more present? Is it because I am exactly where I should be so there's no need for other forces to guide me? Or is it because I'm no longer open to these things? I hope the latter isn't the case.

Anyways, today is a day that I feel something - an urgency to act. It could be that I am simply overly inspired at the moment and I want to capture what is building inside me before I forget what it was, but this feeling seems to relate to other people. It's as if something will be coming to an end, or someone will be moving away. It seems to relate to art, as well.

This makes me wonder whether these hints at the future are set in stone, or they are meant only as things that could be, and if extra attention is paid in the present moment then the best possible outcome will transpire. It probably won't be different than what I'm feeling - an ending of sorts, but it could mean that things end up changing for the better. So what I plan to do is cherish every second, be with the people that I really want to be with, and be open to good things that are coming.

So I see that lots of people like these dolls! Choplogik and I will definitely be doing more and so I'm curious as to how much people would be willing to pay for them. We were thinking to charge $175 for a set of 3 dolls, and $325 for a set of 5 dolls (+ $5-$10 shipping). What do you think?





Choplogik and I collaborated on these matryoshka dolls. He did the white filigree and I did the girls.

I've also finished 2 paintings:


Whirlpool. Acrylic on wood. 24x18.


Tides. Acrylic on wood. 20x16.

Life is good these days. Though I've had an unfortunate bout with cheques getting lost in the mail and payments being slow this month, I can't complain that I've had the worst luck in the world! I'm getting into serious work mode, working 8-10 hours/day, 6-7 days a week. My solo show is coming up in May so I want to have everything that I can finished for that. There are also small side projects, charity donations, and commissions to do. I'm so full of ideas and inspiration right now that it hasn't been too arduous. I don't want to miss out on anything though, like the cherry blossoms that are coming out right now, so I've been making sure to get out of the house almost every day.

I have been a very busy girl!




Choplogik and I collaborated on these matryoshka dolls. He did the white filigree and I did the girls.

I've also finished 2 paintings:


Whirlpool. Acrylic on wood. 24x18.


Tides. Acrylic on wood. 20x16.

Life is good these days. Though I've had an unfortunate bout with cheques getting lost in the mail and payments being slow this month, I can't complain that I've had the worst luck in the world! I'm getting into serious work mode, working 8-10 hours/day, 6-7 days a week. My solo show is coming up in May so I want to have everything that I can finished for that. There are also small side projects, charity donations, and commissions to do. I'm so full of ideas and inspiration right now that it hasn't been too arduous. I don't want to miss out on anything though, like the cherry blossoms that are coming out right now, so I've been making sure to get out of the house almost every day.

And now to move on.

Trying times reveal so much about people. Some sad things have come to light this last week in regards to my family. My uncle's death is not the worst of it, but there's too much to type here. There's no point in taking on other people's pain anyway. I just wish that people could love themselves enough that they are capable of loving others.

All I will say is how I'm ever so grateful for the wonderful people in my life. The last while has really made me appreciate how perfect my life is.

Today, as I was beginning a new painting, I felt a powerful sense of purpose and joy. As I was watching my painting coming together, a few kind words resounded in my mind and my whole being brightened. It reminded me of how important it is to encourage people with positivity. You never know just how deep a comment will go, better it be a positive one than a negative one.