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Here are but a few of my abstracted thoughts of the day, bet you thought that my inquisitive self had disappeared...
What is the difference between a beautiful woman who knows she is beautiful and uses her beauty to reap it's rewards, and a beautiful woman who might know that she is beautiful but doesn't invest so much of herself in her beauty? Does one equate to being more spiritually aware by being less attached to the physical self, while the other is more ego driven? Is it possible to utilize one's beauty without becoming attached to it? Is it all a question of ones motives?
Whenever I try to think of answers to these my mind fills with more questions. I would like to think that is because my ego is self-destructing and can no longer think in terms of me or I. But I think it's because I'm trying to judge the value of one over the other, and neither is better. The point is how you live with yourself.
I am a bit fearful these days, but maybe it's most days and I've forgotten the others. I think it's because I'm taking big steps that are challenging my perception of who I am, where I can go, and how do I get there. It's making life very interesting, at the very least. At the very best, the world is changing and I'm becoming a better person.
One more week and you'll get to see this!
In case you were wondering, yes you will get to see me naked, again.
But I look different than before, in a good way. That's one of the beautiful things about SG - you get to watch us change and grow over the years. This set will mark 6 years for me.
What is the difference between a beautiful woman who knows she is beautiful and uses her beauty to reap it's rewards, and a beautiful woman who might know that she is beautiful but doesn't invest so much of herself in her beauty? Does one equate to being more spiritually aware by being less attached to the physical self, while the other is more ego driven? Is it possible to utilize one's beauty without becoming attached to it? Is it all a question of ones motives?
Whenever I try to think of answers to these my mind fills with more questions. I would like to think that is because my ego is self-destructing and can no longer think in terms of me or I. But I think it's because I'm trying to judge the value of one over the other, and neither is better. The point is how you live with yourself.
I am a bit fearful these days, but maybe it's most days and I've forgotten the others. I think it's because I'm taking big steps that are challenging my perception of who I am, where I can go, and how do I get there. It's making life very interesting, at the very least. At the very best, the world is changing and I'm becoming a better person.
One more week and you'll get to see this!
In case you were wondering, yes you will get to see me naked, again.
But I look different than before, in a good way. That's one of the beautiful things about SG - you get to watch us change and grow over the years. This set will mark 6 years for me. 
If anybody can recommend good Spanish movies I would love to know! I took Spanish classes in school years ago and now I'm trying to get whatever fragments of the language are buried in my brain to resurface before my trip to Spain (and Europe) in October. Muchas gracias!
Eeek! I'm so lucky! I'm going to be a part of the SG UK vacation! This will be my first time in the UK and I'll be meeting so many of the SG's for the first time too. I'm incredibly grateful to have been chosen!
I'm hoping to go from there to Barcelona between Oct. 10th and 30th or so. Perhaps taking a train through France into Spain might be a good way to see the countryside? I've barely begun to check out costs and such so any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Barcelona has been my dream European destination for years, though there are a ton of other places that I would love to visit, like Austria, Portugal, France, and Germany. I really don't have a time limit so I plan on going wherever the winds push me, granted I don't run out of money.
I'm hoping to go from there to Barcelona between Oct. 10th and 30th or so. Perhaps taking a train through France into Spain might be a good way to see the countryside? I've barely begun to check out costs and such so any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Barcelona has been my dream European destination for years, though there are a ton of other places that I would love to visit, like Austria, Portugal, France, and Germany. I really don't have a time limit so I plan on going wherever the winds push me, granted I don't run out of money.
I had the best Shambhala festival experience yet! Choplogik and I ended up randomly meeting up with all of our friends and camping together. They are all such special people and the entire festival had good energy! My highlights of the weekend were the spectacularly genuine hugs, which still bring me to tears and leave me all warm and fuzzy inside when I think about them. I might have to become a huggy person after all, which would be a big step since it takes me weeks to warm up to new people enough to hug them.
In the past, I'd heard that a sober Shambhala is the most magical experience one can have, and I must say that I now agree. I can't describe how amazing everything was on those nights that all I had in me was an energy drink (which isn't exactly sober, but...) , they were by far my favorite nights. I did have a few nights of not-so-sober fun as well on some so-called "legendary" party favors, which makes it even more striking that my favorite nights were the sober ones.
I'm still processing all of the awesomeness that occurred, and figuring out the why's and how's. What I'm coming to realize is that it's important for me to have some kind of a reset button. I'm always reminiscing about a few years ago when I was in a particular place in my life, everything was so vivid and raw and open. I'm hoping to get that sense of life back, I think it has a lot to do with being around more people and having significant experiences with them.
In the past, I'd heard that a sober Shambhala is the most magical experience one can have, and I must say that I now agree. I can't describe how amazing everything was on those nights that all I had in me was an energy drink (which isn't exactly sober, but...) , they were by far my favorite nights. I did have a few nights of not-so-sober fun as well on some so-called "legendary" party favors, which makes it even more striking that my favorite nights were the sober ones.
I'm still processing all of the awesomeness that occurred, and figuring out the why's and how's. What I'm coming to realize is that it's important for me to have some kind of a reset button. I'm always reminiscing about a few years ago when I was in a particular place in my life, everything was so vivid and raw and open. I'm hoping to get that sense of life back, I think it has a lot to do with being around more people and having significant experiences with them.
My big summer road trip is about to begin! I'll be heading all through BC, ending at Shambhala music festival! I'm finally beginning to get excited about hitting the road since it's been a long time since I drove for hours on end, which I love.
It's a bit late, but I've finally been pondering what I would like to get out of Shambhala this year. In the past it's been a very spiritual event for me, but the last year was mostly about seeing old friends. Sometimes I feel like my imagination is falling away, perhaps because I feel so content with my life right now. My life has grown so much in the last few years, to the point that all of this would seem a miracle if I had glimpsed it back then. Now everything simply feels normal. So, I'm hoping to reconnect with my spirituality a bit, see the magic in my life, take it to the next level. I want to envision a life even grander than the one I am living now, as if I am writing my own sci-fi future ...
It's a bit late, but I've finally been pondering what I would like to get out of Shambhala this year. In the past it's been a very spiritual event for me, but the last year was mostly about seeing old friends. Sometimes I feel like my imagination is falling away, perhaps because I feel so content with my life right now. My life has grown so much in the last few years, to the point that all of this would seem a miracle if I had glimpsed it back then. Now everything simply feels normal. So, I'm hoping to reconnect with my spirituality a bit, see the magic in my life, take it to the next level. I want to envision a life even grander than the one I am living now, as if I am writing my own sci-fi future ...
It seems that my 2 personas are beginning to overlap. People have begun to ask aloud on my "real me" Twitter whether I am an SG. It's quite a compliment that my work has become recognizable, however, I'm a bit sensitive about the subject because the majority of people might not take kindly to me being erotically naked on the internet. I'm not ashamed of any of this, but I don't want to alienate anyone who doesn't understand what SG is about. I also find it a bit disrespectful and ill-considered to just call someone out on this kind of subject. So I must ask that if you happen to recognize me or my work in other spaces, and want to inquire as to whether this is me, message me in private or here on SG.
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