I always say that the process of making art is better then the end result

i perfectly know that feeling .. i always think too much and always those 2 feeling in my head , in my heart
Let me tell you something , you are such a great artist , talented lady

When I was re-reading To The Lighthouse recently I read a little passage that made me think of your paintings of women being enveloped in the petals of flowers. So I thought you might like it

"There is something I want—something I have come to get, and she fell deeper and deeper without knowing quite what it was, with her eyes closed. And she waited a little, knitting, wondering, and slowly rose those words they had said at dinner, “the China rose is all abloom and buzzing with the honey bee,” began washing from side to side of her mind rhythmically, and as they washed, words, like little shaded lights, one red, one blue, one yellow, lit up in the dark of her mind, and seemed leaving their perches up there to fly across and across, or to cry out and to be echoed; so she turned and felt on the table beside her for a book.
And all the lives we ever lived
And all the lives to be,
Are full of trees and changing leaves,
she murmured, sticking her needles into the stocking. And she opened the book and began reading here and there at random, and as she did so, she felt that she was climbing backwards, upwards, shoving her way up under petals that curved over her, so that she only knew this is white, or this is red. She did not know at first what the words meant at all.
Steer, hither steer your winged pines, all beaten Mariners
she read and turned the page, swinging herself, zigzagging this way and that, from one line to another as from one branch to another, from one red and white flower to another, until a little sound roused her—her husband slapping his thighs. "

This new painting is looking very good. I think it's something to do with the fact that she seems to have age, not old age I mean but she looks alive and like time has passed in her life if that makes sense. So she seems very real. I think she would be beautiful with grey hairs in fact. Anyway I do all that over-thinking too, it's a bit problem for me and in my case it usually leads to paralysis. I think that's why I didn't paint for so long. The last while I've just been learning to accept making images for pleasure and exercise but I know I'm going to have problems when I start trying to make "real" paintings again. It's quite silly to divide all these things though. Anyway I think you're going in really interesting directions and I think it's amazing how you press on and develop further and further with your paintings. It's very inspiring so have faith. I hope you're well. Oh and read To The Lighthouse if you can. I probably recommended it already when I was telling you about The Golden Notebook and such but it really is wonderful. I think you would appreciate the beauty, psychology and the things about men and women.