Here are but a few of my abstracted thoughts of the day, bet you thought that my inquisitive self had disappeared...

What is the difference between a beautiful woman who knows she is beautiful and uses her beauty to reap it's rewards, and a beautiful woman who might know that she is beautiful but doesn't invest so much of herself in her beauty? Does one equate to being more spiritually aware by being less attached to the physical self, while the other is more ego driven? Is it possible to utilize one's beauty without becoming attached to it? Is it all a question of ones motives?

Whenever I try to think of answers to these my mind fills with more questions. I would like to think that is because my ego is self-destructing and can no longer think in terms of me or I. But I think it's because I'm trying to judge the value of one over the other, and neither is better. The point is how you live with yourself.

I am a bit fearful these days, but maybe it's most days and I've forgotten the others. I think it's because I'm taking big steps that are challenging my perception of who I am, where I can go, and how do I get there. It's making life very interesting, at the very least. At the very best, the world is changing and I'm becoming a better person.

One more week and you'll get to see this!



In case you were wondering, yes you will get to see me naked, again. But I look different than before, in a good way. That's one of the beautiful things about SG - you get to watch us change and grow over the years. This set will mark 6 years for me.