Alex. 30"x22". Graphite on Arches. 2010. For Sale.

I have been working hard these days and have just finished a new drawing. I'm getting into the groove of working on different projects at the same time. There's the commissioned work, the collaborations, and then the personal pieces that take a bit longer, like this one. It's a little homage to the late Alexander McQueen, whose work is very important to me.

I feel that there is so much potential these days. Things are picking up. My energy has increased and I have lots of new pieces on the go. I met a terrific yoga instructor who has really inspired me. She's helped me awaken into my bodily awareness, past sensation. When I look at her I can see her old soul blossoming out, almost to the point of masking her physical youth. I've never met a person whose age was so indeterminable, like some days I could swear that she is in her mid 30's and other's early 20's.

The other day I learned something about myself. I realized that sometimes I do things with the expectation that they will get easier. While I was in a pose, going farther into the more advanced stages of it, I found that I was able to go deeper than I thought I could with my perceived level of fitness while at the same time being stressed to my max. That dichotomy of being on the brink of collapse and yet getting farther than ever before struck me and I realized that nothing will ever get easier. I may gain more, learn more, do more, but life will never get easier. Every new stage I reach will have new challenges. So my search for that idyllic life where I am suddenly freed of all responsibility, stress, and discomfort will never come. This makes me feel much more grounded and thankful for what I have.