I'm feeling tapped in at the moment. Not quite removed from myself but just aware of my actions. A friend's words summed it up well , "... cannot afford to invest in my own misery...". Still working in the same old patterns but the awareness is coming in, shining light on them. Their durations are getting shorter and shorter before I break out of them and learn my lessons. I must remind myself that those patterns are only on the surface of me. They do not affect what is deep within, only mask it. I don't have to do or be more than I am or go anywhere other than right here.