Last night I could not sleep and, while lying awake, I had one of my moments where I let myself sink really deep into stillness and can usually glean some tidbits about the future, dates for significant events, inklings about where different choices will lead me. Well, for the first time since I can remember having these moments there wasn't anything important that came to me, no warnings, no epiphanies. There was only a feeling that whatever I am doing right now is right. Nothing in my perceived future is going to throw me off course into something wildly different, my path is solid and strong. Living with the flow of things seems to be the only way to go these days. Where once it all felt so precarious, like walking a tightrope, it's now like I am caught in a deep river current. I'm sure that's how it's always been and, in the past, I was simply attempting to swim backwards or clinging to the rocks with my eyes tightly squeezed shut.

Now I understand the ease of life when I ask for the things that I need in the right way. Ken Wilber talks about knowing your truth, being aware of yourself, and how it's important in relating to others and the bigger picture. His book, A Brief History of Everything, has helped me understand why I have sometimes explored so far to the edges of things. Being open to everything is important if I want to find truth, which is what I have always been seeking. Living in truth is essential; the secret to having what you always wanted. It not simply a matter of accepting what comes to you. The whole world shifts when you are aware of what is happening. Everything that I have ever dreamed of is coming. My only vice is a lack of patience.

Here's one of my latest drawings.


Art-making is quite exciting these days. I'm back to my old love - oil painting. It's getting easier to mix my colors without making too many mistakes and ending up with piles of ugly goo that I can't use. I'll have some photos of the new work soon.