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Hello my fellow SoCal SG members!
Join us on Saturday February 20th, at
Meltdown comics
7522 Sunset Boulevard
Los Angeles, CA 90046
Around 5 pm for an awesome time! I will be there along with other SG's signing special edition vinyl dolls.
Bring your SG books for autographs, stop by and say hi and even take pictures with us!
See you there! Ciao!
xoxo
Peaches
Join us on Saturday February 20th, at
Meltdown comics
7522 Sunset Boulevard
Los Angeles, CA 90046
Around 5 pm for an awesome time! I will be there along with other SG's signing special edition vinyl dolls.
Bring your SG books for autographs, stop by and say hi and even take pictures with us!
See you there! Ciao!
xoxo
Peaches
Happy Valentine's Day SG!!!!
well... Do i have some news for you guys or what?
I found the explanation to my "mysterious" illness..... I'm prego! Yup... I'm having a baby
I took a test yesterday but it came out positive and then it turned to error. So i retested this morning on Valentine's day and it was confirmed as positive.
Hopefully I will make an appointment tomorrow with the doctor and begin taking care of my new bundle of joy.
Sigh- What a gift on Valentine's Day
well... Do i have some news for you guys or what?
I found the explanation to my "mysterious" illness..... I'm prego! Yup... I'm having a baby
I took a test yesterday but it came out positive and then it turned to error. So i retested this morning on Valentine's day and it was confirmed as positive.
Hopefully I will make an appointment tomorrow with the doctor and begin taking care of my new bundle of joy.
Sigh- What a gift on Valentine's Day
Tell me this isn't happening all at once....
House is on escrow so we have to start looking for another one.
We have to start packing by the end of this month.
My dad was just diagnosed with Diabetes.
We have no money at all. Rent is due and we are short $100.
I'm getting anxiety attacks. I wake up every single night at 3:00 am and cannot go back to sleep because I have the urge of running.
Sometimes i just brake down and cry for no reason. I can't eat because I'm always feeling nauseous so i'm living off fruit and water.
I tried to go back to school but it was already too late and now I have to wait until the summer.
And i just had my court hearing today which i found out about yesterday.
This whole house process is too hard for us to deal with alone. We don't know where to go, what to do, etc. Just when we think we found one we have to keep looking for another.
My dad's diagnosis was the biggest reality check for me. His father died from it, and three months ago his sister died from it. I want him to really take care of himself. I'm serious about moving to Europe so we can all live together and help one another but I don't see that happening sometime soon. The advantage is that he's a doctor and he knows what to do.
The anxiety attacks are driving me crazy. I feel like I try to sleep and my arms and legs get heavy and someone is pinching my nerves. I have to run in order for it to calm down a bit because not even then does it go away. It won't let me sleep.
I can't even eat! I don't know what's wrong with me but the smell or sight of food makes me gag. My stomach growls and shows signs of hunger but my brain and throat say it's gross. My mom bought me some gelatin and i can only eat half one hour and another half the other hour and sips of water in between. This may be another sign of stress or an unconscious way of control. I don't know.
Going to school and finding out school started a month ago really sucked. I could have gotten a heads up on my math and been one step closer to graduating and then transferring. I got my financial aid but i cannot get into the classes and I was pissed! Now I have to wait until the summer session.
For some reason I felt the need to call the court of Appeals yesterday and find out what's going on with my unemployment appeal and they informed me that i have a hearing the next day. I was freaking out because I never got a notice in the mail and I was so close in missing my hearing! Luckily I called on time and was able to go in today.
I was a nervous wreck! I wanted to cry because I didn't think that there would be such mean people that would make someone go through something like this. I didn't want to see my employer and I was hoping with all my heart that they didn't show up.
I reviewed my folder and then it was my turn to go into the court room. First time ever and it wasn't what I pictured it would be like. There was no lady typing away and there wasn't a podium where the judge stands, he wasn't even wearing the gown.
He started the session and made me tell him my version of the story as he went along asking questions and stuff. My heart was going to jump out of my chest. The session lasted 30 minutes and my employer didn't show up. The judge will notify me by mail within 10 days to see if they ruled in my favor which I hope they do.
If I do get my unemployment my life will get so much easier. I will be able to pay rent, my bills, my car, buy more tattoo supplies, and do all the daily essentials that I have taken for granted for so long. I can even get into fashion design and create clothing and I'll be able to buy the cloth and supplies. My dream is to design a wedding gown. If my unemployment goes through I will def make that my priority.
That was a scary experience though. Luckily Pookey was there to support me. He said I did a good job.
I'm just really worried about what will happen next. I feel like i'm standing on the edge of a cliff.
House is on escrow so we have to start looking for another one.
We have to start packing by the end of this month.
My dad was just diagnosed with Diabetes.
We have no money at all. Rent is due and we are short $100.
I'm getting anxiety attacks. I wake up every single night at 3:00 am and cannot go back to sleep because I have the urge of running.
Sometimes i just brake down and cry for no reason. I can't eat because I'm always feeling nauseous so i'm living off fruit and water.
I tried to go back to school but it was already too late and now I have to wait until the summer.
And i just had my court hearing today which i found out about yesterday.
This whole house process is too hard for us to deal with alone. We don't know where to go, what to do, etc. Just when we think we found one we have to keep looking for another.
My dad's diagnosis was the biggest reality check for me. His father died from it, and three months ago his sister died from it. I want him to really take care of himself. I'm serious about moving to Europe so we can all live together and help one another but I don't see that happening sometime soon. The advantage is that he's a doctor and he knows what to do.
The anxiety attacks are driving me crazy. I feel like I try to sleep and my arms and legs get heavy and someone is pinching my nerves. I have to run in order for it to calm down a bit because not even then does it go away. It won't let me sleep.
I can't even eat! I don't know what's wrong with me but the smell or sight of food makes me gag. My stomach growls and shows signs of hunger but my brain and throat say it's gross. My mom bought me some gelatin and i can only eat half one hour and another half the other hour and sips of water in between. This may be another sign of stress or an unconscious way of control. I don't know.
Going to school and finding out school started a month ago really sucked. I could have gotten a heads up on my math and been one step closer to graduating and then transferring. I got my financial aid but i cannot get into the classes and I was pissed! Now I have to wait until the summer session.
For some reason I felt the need to call the court of Appeals yesterday and find out what's going on with my unemployment appeal and they informed me that i have a hearing the next day. I was freaking out because I never got a notice in the mail and I was so close in missing my hearing! Luckily I called on time and was able to go in today.
I was a nervous wreck! I wanted to cry because I didn't think that there would be such mean people that would make someone go through something like this. I didn't want to see my employer and I was hoping with all my heart that they didn't show up.
I reviewed my folder and then it was my turn to go into the court room. First time ever and it wasn't what I pictured it would be like. There was no lady typing away and there wasn't a podium where the judge stands, he wasn't even wearing the gown.
He started the session and made me tell him my version of the story as he went along asking questions and stuff. My heart was going to jump out of my chest. The session lasted 30 minutes and my employer didn't show up. The judge will notify me by mail within 10 days to see if they ruled in my favor which I hope they do.
If I do get my unemployment my life will get so much easier. I will be able to pay rent, my bills, my car, buy more tattoo supplies, and do all the daily essentials that I have taken for granted for so long. I can even get into fashion design and create clothing and I'll be able to buy the cloth and supplies. My dream is to design a wedding gown. If my unemployment goes through I will def make that my priority.
That was a scary experience though. Luckily Pookey was there to support me. He said I did a good job.
I'm just really worried about what will happen next. I feel like i'm standing on the edge of a cliff.
My mom arrives today! YAY! LOL
I busted my back and it hurts really bad. My bro picked me up and quickly put me down on the arm of the couch and my spine hit the center of it. My back is KILLING me! It hurt so bad I started to cry. It feels a bit swollen today and I can't touch it. It even hurts when I drive.
A couple days ago I went out to get my mail and slipped. I slowly and gracefully did the splits and landed on my right knee. The impact wasn't hard but it was bad enough to turn it into a big bruise. It still hurts today.
This morning I went to Downey to fill out the paperwork. My credit is better than I thought. I was like, "Oh no, ... They're just gonna place a HUGE red stamp saying 'DENIED' on it" LOL but it was actually good. I qualified for a loan, but once they found out I wasn't working, they took it back. Pookey works but his credit didn't qualify. So later his dad will head down and apply as a co-signer.
We then went to see the house. It was pretty. It was a 3 bed 2 bath and the house in the back is a one bed one bath. But really small.
It was really nice. New paint, new carpet, new cabinets. Everything was great. Except the front porch. Too small but it can be fixed. I would like my sister and her six kids to move in but Pookey doesn't want to deal with the drama. So idk what to do.
So far i'm in such a great mood! I hope things just keep getting better
I busted my back and it hurts really bad. My bro picked me up and quickly put me down on the arm of the couch and my spine hit the center of it. My back is KILLING me! It hurt so bad I started to cry. It feels a bit swollen today and I can't touch it. It even hurts when I drive.
A couple days ago I went out to get my mail and slipped. I slowly and gracefully did the splits and landed on my right knee. The impact wasn't hard but it was bad enough to turn it into a big bruise. It still hurts today.
This morning I went to Downey to fill out the paperwork. My credit is better than I thought. I was like, "Oh no, ... They're just gonna place a HUGE red stamp saying 'DENIED' on it" LOL but it was actually good. I qualified for a loan, but once they found out I wasn't working, they took it back. Pookey works but his credit didn't qualify. So later his dad will head down and apply as a co-signer.
We then went to see the house. It was pretty. It was a 3 bed 2 bath and the house in the back is a one bed one bath. But really small.
It was really nice. New paint, new carpet, new cabinets. Everything was great. Except the front porch. Too small but it can be fixed. I would like my sister and her six kids to move in but Pookey doesn't want to deal with the drama. So idk what to do.
So far i'm in such a great mood! I hope things just keep getting better
Well, i'm in a much better mood now.
My mom arrives on Monday and i'm super excited! I'm going to make her a welcome back cake and have all the kids at my place to surprise her. I'm sure she'll like it.
Pookey gave me some excellent news! He told me that his parents found a duplex house in Downey and they are willing to help us out with the down payment. If that happens, and all goes well, we will be able to move in by March which is when our lease is up here.
I have decided to jump back in the game and attend school and finish where I left off. I'm going to catch up on my math. I'm also still trying to find a job by applying anywhere.
I got a hold of the DIR about the wage report with my previous employer and it turns out that they lost my claim so i have to resubmit everything including evidence. This sucks! That was one thick envelope!
Unemployment is still being a pain in the ass. Still have not heard from them.
I still have not heard from the tat shop next door. They're such pricks! I fucking hate the douche bags that work there! I had to drag my feet to get there because I needed anything I didn't care where I worked. Pookey says they won't call and I agree. It's like one of those things where you hope it doesn't happen but you need it so bad you don't care if it does kind of thing.
Some guy came in 2 days ago to get a quote on a tat he wants to get. He wants to come in on Friday so I need to get on sketching. I'm so tired of people flaking out that I ask them to pay a security deposit to secure their slot but then they don't pay and I don't know if they will come in or not. I can even go on for hours sketching out a design and I ask them to pay a sketch fee and they don't so I put so much effort just so I don't hear from them again. It's a VERY frustrating situation.
Well... here goes to a better future.
My mom arrives on Monday and i'm super excited! I'm going to make her a welcome back cake and have all the kids at my place to surprise her. I'm sure she'll like it.
Pookey gave me some excellent news! He told me that his parents found a duplex house in Downey and they are willing to help us out with the down payment. If that happens, and all goes well, we will be able to move in by March which is when our lease is up here.
I have decided to jump back in the game and attend school and finish where I left off. I'm going to catch up on my math. I'm also still trying to find a job by applying anywhere.
I got a hold of the DIR about the wage report with my previous employer and it turns out that they lost my claim so i have to resubmit everything including evidence. This sucks! That was one thick envelope!
Unemployment is still being a pain in the ass. Still have not heard from them.
I still have not heard from the tat shop next door. They're such pricks! I fucking hate the douche bags that work there! I had to drag my feet to get there because I needed anything I didn't care where I worked. Pookey says they won't call and I agree. It's like one of those things where you hope it doesn't happen but you need it so bad you don't care if it does kind of thing.
Some guy came in 2 days ago to get a quote on a tat he wants to get. He wants to come in on Friday so I need to get on sketching. I'm so tired of people flaking out that I ask them to pay a security deposit to secure their slot but then they don't pay and I don't know if they will come in or not. I can even go on for hours sketching out a design and I ask them to pay a sketch fee and they don't so I put so much effort just so I don't hear from them again. It's a VERY frustrating situation.
Well... here goes to a better future.
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Let's make a difference together!It is terrible to watch the news and see that thousands of people are suffering or have lost their lives. Just wish more help and food arrives. It breaks my heart to see so many people suffering.
Let's help them get the medical attention they need. Let's make a difference!
It is a beautiful day today. The sun is shining so nicely here in SoCal.
Lately I have been feeling lifeless. I have been home laying around and sleeping more than usual. I feel like the life has been sucked out of me. I have no energy whatsoever.
Tomorrow I will be booked all day. I will be tatting 3 peeps and hopefully this helps me get out of this rut!
I'm tired of being depressed. I'm tired of feeling and thinking this way. I just want to be the happy energetic person i'm used to.
I feel like crawling out of my skin.
I feel like if I were to go missing no one would notice.
I think thats why i sleep so much, because i'm tired of thinking all day about my problems and ways to solve them.
I hate TV! I feel like it takes up valuable time! I feel like I could be doing other things instead of wasting time staring at a screen. But.... right now the TV is the only thing that keeps me interested. The only thing that keeps me sane. I can watch TV all day and not get bored or irritated.
I hate what I have become.... a lifeless being, with no goals, motivation, ambition, nothing. I don't feel alive.
I don't feel like i'm living. I feel like i'm surviving.
Lately I have been feeling lifeless. I have been home laying around and sleeping more than usual. I feel like the life has been sucked out of me. I have no energy whatsoever.
Tomorrow I will be booked all day. I will be tatting 3 peeps and hopefully this helps me get out of this rut!
I'm tired of being depressed. I'm tired of feeling and thinking this way. I just want to be the happy energetic person i'm used to.
I feel like crawling out of my skin.
I feel like if I were to go missing no one would notice.
I think thats why i sleep so much, because i'm tired of thinking all day about my problems and ways to solve them.
I hate TV! I feel like it takes up valuable time! I feel like I could be doing other things instead of wasting time staring at a screen. But.... right now the TV is the only thing that keeps me interested. The only thing that keeps me sane. I can watch TV all day and not get bored or irritated.
I hate what I have become.... a lifeless being, with no goals, motivation, ambition, nothing. I don't feel alive.
I don't feel like i'm living. I feel like i'm surviving.
-sigh. I couldn't help but cry. I was working on a sketch for a back piece and just had to take a break.
I sat down in the same spot for hours. Reflecting. After so long of being strong and putting a positive attitude and giving advice, i broke down in tears.
There's that point where strong people just have enough and can't hold it in anymore. I felt so depressed and lonely. I look at my calendar and hope that possibly I could have someone scheduled at least one day a week to help me get by until my lease is up but I don't. I'm still questioning how things will work out next month.
I have learned to take action when there's a problem instead of sitting around crying about it. But what to do when you have tried it all and nothing seems to help?
I kept thinking over and over. What am I going to do? Where are we going to go? What do I plan to do? etc.
People are telling me to look for a job, to go back to school, what do I want to do? When will I do it?
AHHH!!! So tired of hearing it! I have been looking for a job! But now I feel i just don't want to anymore! I don't want to work minimum wage for the rest of my life! I don't want to work for someone else for the rest of my life! I don't want to have to worry about traffic, time, routine BLAH BLAH BLAH! I don't want to go to school because I don't know for what anymore! I wanted to be a psychology major but not anymore. I wanted to pursue art maybe fashion, but i'm not even sure if it's worth it.
I'm so used to providing my family with the best. If i can afford it, i will spoil them. Best hotels, best dinners, best parties, best of everything. Now I can't. I will have to move to a less expensive place. With a not so nice neighborhood. It will probably just depress me even more.
I kept reflecting and wondered what happened to me? I used to challenge everything and everyone? I used to get what i wanted. I was a goal setter. Very determined. Very successful. Now i'm nothing. I feel worthless. I feel like i don't have value. Like i let everyone down. I literally have nothing. No education, no degree, no job, nothing to be looked up for.
I'm the oldest in my family and i guess the example too. I remember telling my cousin for so many years, "Go to school, go get a job, stay busy, go out, make friends, do something! your life is wasting away and you're not taking advantage of your youth!" She used to be on crack for a couple years. She's staying clean now but still not trying to pursue anything in life. I don't blame her. I'm right there with her. I can't give her any advice or encourage her to do anything when i feel the same way.
My sister has 6 kids and is only a year younger than me, which makes her 23 and she feels stuck as well. Sometimes she becomes really depressed because she wants a career and a future for her kids but she can't find it. She has been looking for jobs, she has taken security training, and she still doesn't give up. Sometimes she can try harder but doesn't because she's so frustrated. I don't blame her. I feel like i'm right there with her.
Yes, I'm young and I have a whole life ahead of me. I know. But I feel like I've had enough. I have no motivation what so ever. I feel like the world around me could be falling apart and rot and i wouldn't do anything about it but watch it decade away.
I feel like I have tried all my options and I have failed.
I feel like crawling into a little hole and not have to worry about anything. I used to admire nature so much. I could just sit and appreciate the little things like the wind, the grass, flowers, the sky, sunsets and the sounds around me. But life has gotten too depressing that I don't even look out my window anymore. I could just sit in the dark listening to music all day.
5 years ago I had nothing. 2 Years ago I had so much to be thankful for. Today I'm losing it all. This is so devastating. I can't believe I let it go. Everything I worked hard for, struggled for, waited for and fought for is vanishing.
I'm depressed and no one around me notices it. I was in denial at first but reality caught up to me and hit me hard. Now i'm feeling it and it's way too heavy to lift. I'm just not in the mood of anything.
I don't know what to do.
I sat down in the same spot for hours. Reflecting. After so long of being strong and putting a positive attitude and giving advice, i broke down in tears.
There's that point where strong people just have enough and can't hold it in anymore. I felt so depressed and lonely. I look at my calendar and hope that possibly I could have someone scheduled at least one day a week to help me get by until my lease is up but I don't. I'm still questioning how things will work out next month.
I have learned to take action when there's a problem instead of sitting around crying about it. But what to do when you have tried it all and nothing seems to help?
I kept thinking over and over. What am I going to do? Where are we going to go? What do I plan to do? etc.
People are telling me to look for a job, to go back to school, what do I want to do? When will I do it?
AHHH!!! So tired of hearing it! I have been looking for a job! But now I feel i just don't want to anymore! I don't want to work minimum wage for the rest of my life! I don't want to work for someone else for the rest of my life! I don't want to have to worry about traffic, time, routine BLAH BLAH BLAH! I don't want to go to school because I don't know for what anymore! I wanted to be a psychology major but not anymore. I wanted to pursue art maybe fashion, but i'm not even sure if it's worth it.
I'm so used to providing my family with the best. If i can afford it, i will spoil them. Best hotels, best dinners, best parties, best of everything. Now I can't. I will have to move to a less expensive place. With a not so nice neighborhood. It will probably just depress me even more.
I kept reflecting and wondered what happened to me? I used to challenge everything and everyone? I used to get what i wanted. I was a goal setter. Very determined. Very successful. Now i'm nothing. I feel worthless. I feel like i don't have value. Like i let everyone down. I literally have nothing. No education, no degree, no job, nothing to be looked up for.
I'm the oldest in my family and i guess the example too. I remember telling my cousin for so many years, "Go to school, go get a job, stay busy, go out, make friends, do something! your life is wasting away and you're not taking advantage of your youth!" She used to be on crack for a couple years. She's staying clean now but still not trying to pursue anything in life. I don't blame her. I'm right there with her. I can't give her any advice or encourage her to do anything when i feel the same way.
My sister has 6 kids and is only a year younger than me, which makes her 23 and she feels stuck as well. Sometimes she becomes really depressed because she wants a career and a future for her kids but she can't find it. She has been looking for jobs, she has taken security training, and she still doesn't give up. Sometimes she can try harder but doesn't because she's so frustrated. I don't blame her. I feel like i'm right there with her.
Yes, I'm young and I have a whole life ahead of me. I know. But I feel like I've had enough. I have no motivation what so ever. I feel like the world around me could be falling apart and rot and i wouldn't do anything about it but watch it decade away.
I feel like I have tried all my options and I have failed.
I feel like crawling into a little hole and not have to worry about anything. I used to admire nature so much. I could just sit and appreciate the little things like the wind, the grass, flowers, the sky, sunsets and the sounds around me. But life has gotten too depressing that I don't even look out my window anymore. I could just sit in the dark listening to music all day.
5 years ago I had nothing. 2 Years ago I had so much to be thankful for. Today I'm losing it all. This is so devastating. I can't believe I let it go. Everything I worked hard for, struggled for, waited for and fought for is vanishing.
I'm depressed and no one around me notices it. I was in denial at first but reality caught up to me and hit me hard. Now i'm feeling it and it's way too heavy to lift. I'm just not in the mood of anything.
I don't know what to do.
Frustrated and disappointed.
Just when i think things will get better or at least help me get by they don't.
Yesterday I hosted a " Girls get together" for eyebrow threading. I was charging $5 per person and sent out invites and called people and sent so many text messages using Pookey's phone.
A handful of girls confirmed that they were going to show up. So i rush to the store and buy snacks and refreshments to make the environment much more pleasurable. My cousin and sister came over and helped me clean and prep everything.
The thing started at 5pm. No one showed up. So then i had to drive my sis to Lakewood mall for her training at Forever 21 and rushed back.
6pm and still no one. Pookey comes home and he looks at everything and he began to laugh, not to be rude but because he found the environment to be too "girly" for him to be around. But it made me so mad! I didn't have the sense of humor non the less the mood to even find anything funny.
I understand that people have their own things to do but if they knew they couldn't come why didn't they just say so instead of saying they would?! They got my hopes up! I'm in a very needy situation and was really looking forward to whatever I can get. I was hoping at least 20 girls to show up which that would help me HUGE because I would have made at least $100. Which is perfect for my car insurance which is due in 2 weeks.
I was so pissed i wanted to cry. All the effort that I put into it just to make sure they are comfortable. If i knew no one was going to show up i wouldn't have bought anything and I wouldn't have stressed out about my time.
Last night I went to bed around 12am. But didn't go to sleep until 2am. Woke up at 3:20am and I have been awake ever since. I only got 1 hour and 20 min of sleep.
Pookey says its okay and its not worth stressing for. I'm like, "HOW THE FUCK IS IT OKAY?!" It's not comforting! I'm frustrated and I feel like i'm the only one trying to find solutions or extra ways of making money!
Fucking unemployment is also being a pain in the ass. They keep telling me that they will assign my case to a judge and will be sending me info on my hearing but that has been since November!
I am literally a nervous wreck!
Later on tonight i will go next door to the tat shop and talk to the shop manager. Let's see if they have anything available to help me out
For now, just sell all my stuff I guess. I will be delivering my dining table to NoHo and get $90 out of that. The bar is a fucking pain in the ass to get rid of though. It's nice and all but it's a bitch to deliver. The only best thing would be local pick up but that's when people flake out and are a no show.
I truly can't wait till this nightmare is over.
Just when i think things will get better or at least help me get by they don't.
Yesterday I hosted a " Girls get together" for eyebrow threading. I was charging $5 per person and sent out invites and called people and sent so many text messages using Pookey's phone.
A handful of girls confirmed that they were going to show up. So i rush to the store and buy snacks and refreshments to make the environment much more pleasurable. My cousin and sister came over and helped me clean and prep everything.
The thing started at 5pm. No one showed up. So then i had to drive my sis to Lakewood mall for her training at Forever 21 and rushed back.
6pm and still no one. Pookey comes home and he looks at everything and he began to laugh, not to be rude but because he found the environment to be too "girly" for him to be around. But it made me so mad! I didn't have the sense of humor non the less the mood to even find anything funny.
I understand that people have their own things to do but if they knew they couldn't come why didn't they just say so instead of saying they would?! They got my hopes up! I'm in a very needy situation and was really looking forward to whatever I can get. I was hoping at least 20 girls to show up which that would help me HUGE because I would have made at least $100. Which is perfect for my car insurance which is due in 2 weeks.
I was so pissed i wanted to cry. All the effort that I put into it just to make sure they are comfortable. If i knew no one was going to show up i wouldn't have bought anything and I wouldn't have stressed out about my time.
Last night I went to bed around 12am. But didn't go to sleep until 2am. Woke up at 3:20am and I have been awake ever since. I only got 1 hour and 20 min of sleep.
Pookey says its okay and its not worth stressing for. I'm like, "HOW THE FUCK IS IT OKAY?!" It's not comforting! I'm frustrated and I feel like i'm the only one trying to find solutions or extra ways of making money!
Fucking unemployment is also being a pain in the ass. They keep telling me that they will assign my case to a judge and will be sending me info on my hearing but that has been since November!
I am literally a nervous wreck!
Later on tonight i will go next door to the tat shop and talk to the shop manager. Let's see if they have anything available to help me out
For now, just sell all my stuff I guess. I will be delivering my dining table to NoHo and get $90 out of that. The bar is a fucking pain in the ass to get rid of though. It's nice and all but it's a bitch to deliver. The only best thing would be local pick up but that's when people flake out and are a no show.
I truly can't wait till this nightmare is over.
Sigh- day 3 of the new year.
So due to my failure of paying my phone bill, the company suspended my line. I can only receive calls and textes. Which sux because i can't reply. I need my phone working because thats how i communicate with my customers for tattoos.
I'm barely making it. I just paid my rent being $10 short but Pookey helping me cover the expense. We still have to pay our Edison bill along with the gas bill. Thanx to the holidays they are a lil more expensive than usual.
I have 3 weeks to come up on $400 for my car and $680 for next month's rent. This is going to be the hardest time for me. My sis was helping me with the money but she won't be able to anymore so i really don't know how we're gonna make it through until our lease is up in March. Not to mention my phone bill which caught up to $300.
I have tried a lot of things in order to come up with money to get us by and it is just so hard. I have been posting flyers around the streets for "Dog Walking" even tried Craigslist, learned how to "thread" eyebrows and offered that, even posting more about tattoos and body piercing. But no luck yet.
I'm running low on supplies and I only have $20 to invest in more needles. Sigh- tough tough tough
I was on my personal facebook and posted up a comment about me almost finishing up a tattoo on someone and an old friend didn't know i tatted and asked me to set him up for a time to come in. I got excited! Hopefully that will reel in at least $160! Friday a lady wants to buy our kitchen table for $90 so that is also helpful. So I would have a total of 2 weeks to come up with almost $1000 to cover rent, car and bills. How am I going to do it? I don't know.
Sometimes people contact me and get my hopes up and never come through. That really frustrates me.
So here I am, in a frustrated mood everyday using my comp on safe mode trying to get my name out there and post ads and stuff. I don't even know what's wrong with my comp! Hopefully I can take it tomorrow to Office Depot so they can check it for free and tell me what the problem is. But then how will i pay for the repairs?! UGH!!!!!
Can't wait till my mom comes back. I really miss her and she really misses us. I want to throw her a welcome back party or get together. I think she will really like that
In the meantime, Pookey and I are trying to find a cheaper place to move to while all this madness calms down. February hopefully i'll be able to get my tax return and won't have to worry about paying for my car or even our last month's rent.
I'm even stressed about the court hearing for my unemployment appeal. I'm super nervous because that bitch has a lawyer for a husband and he will fight to the end to save themselves the money that they owe me. I even reported her ass to the DIR and still haven't heard anything.
What to do? What to do?
So due to my failure of paying my phone bill, the company suspended my line. I can only receive calls and textes. Which sux because i can't reply. I need my phone working because thats how i communicate with my customers for tattoos.
I'm barely making it. I just paid my rent being $10 short but Pookey helping me cover the expense. We still have to pay our Edison bill along with the gas bill. Thanx to the holidays they are a lil more expensive than usual.
I have 3 weeks to come up on $400 for my car and $680 for next month's rent. This is going to be the hardest time for me. My sis was helping me with the money but she won't be able to anymore so i really don't know how we're gonna make it through until our lease is up in March. Not to mention my phone bill which caught up to $300.
I have tried a lot of things in order to come up with money to get us by and it is just so hard. I have been posting flyers around the streets for "Dog Walking" even tried Craigslist, learned how to "thread" eyebrows and offered that, even posting more about tattoos and body piercing. But no luck yet.
I'm running low on supplies and I only have $20 to invest in more needles. Sigh- tough tough tough
I was on my personal facebook and posted up a comment about me almost finishing up a tattoo on someone and an old friend didn't know i tatted and asked me to set him up for a time to come in. I got excited! Hopefully that will reel in at least $160! Friday a lady wants to buy our kitchen table for $90 so that is also helpful. So I would have a total of 2 weeks to come up with almost $1000 to cover rent, car and bills. How am I going to do it? I don't know.
Sometimes people contact me and get my hopes up and never come through. That really frustrates me.
So here I am, in a frustrated mood everyday using my comp on safe mode trying to get my name out there and post ads and stuff. I don't even know what's wrong with my comp! Hopefully I can take it tomorrow to Office Depot so they can check it for free and tell me what the problem is. But then how will i pay for the repairs?! UGH!!!!!
Can't wait till my mom comes back. I really miss her and she really misses us. I want to throw her a welcome back party or get together. I think she will really like that
In the meantime, Pookey and I are trying to find a cheaper place to move to while all this madness calms down. February hopefully i'll be able to get my tax return and won't have to worry about paying for my car or even our last month's rent.
I'm even stressed about the court hearing for my unemployment appeal. I'm super nervous because that bitch has a lawyer for a husband and he will fight to the end to save themselves the money that they owe me. I even reported her ass to the DIR and still haven't heard anything.
What to do? What to do?
