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i worked my ass off this month, spending every thursday-sunday in michigan...
so i could start getting a little ahead and have some extra money....
for some new lingerie for the pinups for soldiers shoot and an outfit for havana...
so i'm finishing up some last minute shopping this afternoon [literally like 3 hours ago]....
and my CVjoint goes out.
and now i don't have any money to fix it...
and even if i did... its not like i can have it in and out of the shop by 2pm tomorrow. [i'm 2 hours from columbus.]
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucccccccccck.
i've been looking forward to this so much...
and all i feel now is just..... completely bummed.
i really don't know how i'm going to make this work out... but i'm going to try.
i might be able to make it to havana.... but most likely not to the shoot.
damnit damnit damnit all to hell.
[someone please tell me if for some reason i can't post this here. i have her permission, i asked when we took it.]
met jenna haze at work and hung out with her afterwards.
she is a really cool chick... the coolest pornstar i've met yet.
and we gave one hell of a show when i went to the stage to tip her.
it's been busy for me lately.
i've been working.. but i'm not complaining.
i feel productive lately.
i hope everyone had a good fourth of july weekend.
i watched the fireworks... and went to the county fair.
and i went to cedar point. which was fucking fun.
i really want to shoot a set...... hopefully soon.
thats all i got for now. i'm off to work again.
enjoy. [you may want to turn your speakers down.]
[taken in 15 second clips on a cell phone but still pretty decent]
this was my first fight ever.
i've been in one fight... when i was a freshman in high school.
this girl was 5'4" and 115lbs... and i'm 4'11" and 100lbs.
oh yeah... i got a kitten.
but i pretty much just decided tonight that i want to get a sleeve.... and i know exactly what i want to get.
and it fits me perfectly.
got my hair cut.... and i love it now.
pics soon.
i've been busy....
had a short stay in the hospital... but i'm feeling perfectly fine now.
its so done for.
i seriously want to cry.
and i have no more money to get it fixed because i paid entirely too much to have it fucked up.
i'm chopping it all off.
and probably going back to black or purple or some other dark color.
it looks like ronald mcdonald SHAT on my head. its seriously 5 differnt shades of red with some dark brown/almost black spots in it.
i'm so bummed right now.
my hair is a big thing for me.
hell it took me this long to work up the courage to do ANYTHING to it.
and now its ruined.
curses.
red it is.
i will post pics when i am done with it though.
but give me a couple days.
havana last night was kinda dead, but still fun. i think i'm more comfortable when there are less people. i'm too shy for big crowds. i kinda just lurk around.... 
but last night i saw a few girls that were at hell city, and met a bunch of new ones.... like rigel, who is only a few inches taller than me! 
i just can't wait to be 21 at one of these things so i don't have to be the DD and make sure my boyfriend doesn't pee on any gas pumps on the way home.
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i'm really unhappy with my hair.
it feels crappy... is a million different shades of red.... and i'm scared to go over it again to even it out because of how weak it is....
right now i'm debating these two options:
chop it short and start over.... probably into an asymmetric bob [rihanna-like].... and leave it red.... maybe add some black streaks where the hair didn't lift as much....
or go over it with red dye again... even the shade out as much as possible.... and then get dreads.
i was growing my hair out for dreads anyways, but i was hoping to wait until it was a lot longer.
so i dread it now, and have kinda short ones, or i cut my hair short and start over.
i dunno!
opinions?
i'm going friday to get my hair done... and right now i have my heart set on blond...
BLOND:
my stylist told me its possible without killing my hair...
but if it somehow fails or doesn't turn out right.... i will once again be:
RED:
hey... i can ALWAYS come back to black.
its always turned out to be my personal fave... but seriously... it's time for a change.
i'm so bored with my hair.
lol.
when i did a vote awhile back it ended up being 24 votes red, 6 votes blond, and 6 votes for black.
but i've had red hair before, and my natural color is reddish... so i want to try blond.
i'm also gonna do something a little crazy to it.
i'm excited.
us
i will definately post pics.
PS. i'm working at christie's in cleveland now. my stage name there is lucy. [friends of mine called me 'the hip swinging sister of satan'. thats where i got the idea from. lol]
i have so many ideas.
i want to do at least 2 more sets by the end of the year.
and at least 1 multi.
i think i should be able to do this.
i went to hocking hills yesterday.
we took a bunch of pictures... so those will be coming soon.
being there is what gave me an idea for a set.
and its actually my favorite theme idea so far.
among others. lol
i got a tattoo touched up and added to... and i love it.
i got to meet a lot of other girls and had a blast.
i can't wait for the next SG event!
i will probably be going to the Detroit event!
a few pics:
