To those of you who truly care and keep in touch or had plans with me I offer my sincerest appologies for being somewhat unavailable. while at work on my swings I slipped off, falling straight down onto the pavement and hitting my head hard enough to cause a frontal lobe contusion and physical brain bleeding. I was taken to Sunrise Hospital where they did several scans and tests, and where I stayed for about 7 days. They pumped me full of pain meds while my brain swelling dropped, including morphine, percocet, furocet and others, causing me to be slightly over neurotic in my twilight daze. To detox and get stabilized on my proper medication, after being physically cleared, they transported me to Spring Mountain Psychiatric where I spent an additional 5 days or so locked away. So... its been about a week since my accident, but much has changed. First off, my living situation is temporarily shifted, and I'm back with my mother for a bit. Please don't email me regarding my relationship with my fiance Kaine, as it is just fine if not better than before. Surprisingly, one of the positives of the accident was that the ordeal caused us to have to reflect and better our own selves as well as our relationship, both mentally and physically, while coming to terms with the things we cannot change and / or took for granted... Including each other...

On a quick side note: Baby, since i know you are reading this I want you to know how much i miss you and how much you truly mean to me. i miss spending the time we used to and look forward to spending the rest of my life with you.... to those of you who called with concern, it means a lot just knowing you care. that is all anyone can ever ask for...

It hurts my eyes staring at the screen for more than a few minutes at a time due to my headaches and light sensativity, I have to walk with a cane for balance, and i have taken out some of my piercings, so if i don't respond immediately as before, don't take it personally and know i will asap. also, if you have my number, my phone is always on and feel free to call me. Thanks for your patience and time reading my letter....

I know I havent written in quite a while. I've been busy with various doctors getting my health back in order so I can get back to work on the swings. I promise to submit a new set soon. I've been mainly concerned with the threat of cervical cancer. They found abnormal cell growth and on the 20th I have to have a procedure done. Blech. Anyhow, since Kaine's turned 21, we have been getting along much better. We went and saw Fashionistas (which is AMAZING by the way). We also went to the Suncoast and gambled a bit. I won 200 bucks! woot! It's been nice.

My brother turned 15 on the 1st. HOLY SHIT! NEXT YEAR HE CAN DRIVE! Haha!

tomorrow is kaine's 21st birthday. finally. ive waited two years for him to turn 21 lol. its finally here. today i have a 3 doctor's appointments: massage therapy, bioneurofeedback and the gynocologist. fun shit yo. tomorrow at noon i think kaine, me and some of the girls over at Talk of the Town are going to go chill at Ditch Fridays over at the palms. we'll prolly stay there for a few hours and then come home and go to sleep. then that nite, Kaine and I are going to dinner with his mom and then we are going to go to Sanctuary at Krave. Should be a fun day. woohoo. I've been so sick lately though it sucks. But I have faith that I will get better. I guarantee it!

I havent been on here in a few because I've been enamoured with this game I got for my brand new PSP! It's called Riviera and its a turn based RPG. I love those! I'm really anticipating Disgaea and Final Fantasy Tactics Advance for the PSP in Oct. That will be SOOOO much fun. hmm. Well, I'm writing on my brand new computer that I got for my birthday from my parents. It's so rockin! It's got a flat panel LCD screen (17 inch), 500 Gigs of Hard Drive space, and its designed specifically for multitasking. the only problem I have with it is that it is a vista based OS. I don't think I'm quite so crazy about it, but whateva! I finally got some new pix done with Travis. I intend on taking a bunch more soon and getting a new set done! I'm including below some of the shots taken. I promise to include more soon!

Well, I turned 24 on August 2nd. My bday itself was ultimately uneventful, but all things considered, quite well. Kaine took me to Sushi Roku in Ceasar's Palace.They're a neato little resturant, somewhat pricey, but worth it nonetheless. This weekend, we made a failed attempt at hosting a birthday party. Only 2 people showed up, and that's only because we could offer a ride. But regardless, we had fun. I got my top belly button re pierced... this is time number 4 on that one! lol! My bestest friend Eric was unable to attend, but he called me up late last nite to invite me to lunch on Thursday night. On Saturday, I'm doing another shoot with Travis and quite possibly Bianca. I'm excited. I'm gonna try and get Bianca to become an SG. I think you guys will dig her! I'm supposed to go get a new computer tomorrow!!! My Mom said she would get it for me as a birthday gift, which I think is sweet! My dad sent me $150 but I had to pay off a debt with it. lol.It was worth it though! I got a package from my "little sister" in Florida. She bought me the greatest singing card... (its hilarious), an Emily Strange shirt, and 2 wrist warmer cuffs. They rock! My dad is sending me another one of his "clothing care packages" lol, which I always look forward to! Also, in the mail is my PSP! Kaine bought it for me as a bday gift! YAY!!!!

Fun with pictures!
Always nice to have new images.
Fiance is in a few of these... hehe... with more to come...

I have to make this short because I am going to pick up my mom from her house and take her to the airport. I guess she has some continuing education seminar in San Diego, CA for her bio neurofeedback technician job. Then I get to come home and chill for an hour (i live about 7 minutes from the airport) and then I get to go to my massage therapist. So yea. Enjoy the images and feedback is always appreciated!!!


thanks!

Hehe. Been workin hard on my myspace profile. I got around to editing more pix from last night's shoot. I think I want to start getting more involved in the SG community and what not. Hehe. This site rox. Ok enuff stoner ranting... to the pix....







more in my albums

Got meh septum pierced!
Yay! And had a quick shoot with my friend Travis Sackett again!





much more to come...

Hm. New edits to some newer imagery. Just messin' around with photoshop lol.
I discovered the 2nd best site ever invented: WebMD. It was very helpful. Except next week I have 3 different doctors appointments so it'll be an interesting week. The house atmosphere has cooled slightly, but I can tell Blake is a little bitter . I hope he feels better soon. Not much else to report other than each day I get closer and closer to my bday! Yay! Mmk. Enough ranting for now. Enjoy the imagery!

So we had no internet for dayz on end. lol. They had to jackhammer in our room 2 holes because they wanted to see whose apartment was leaking water in the pipes. (wasn't ours btw). Then my fiance found out about my roommate's high school type crush on me and flipped out. We settled it. Even though he wasn't too thrilled that I made sure he didn't throw him out. Then the other roomies (Dee and Blake) decided to split up. But they are still living together. In our apartment. So yea. Lots been going on. I had to switch up my schedule because I have to take a short break from work due to the summer heat. And I have a severe sensativity to the sun. Blech. Ah so. Photos should be coming soon. Haven't had much time or ability to due them.

Oh! And my birthday is coming up soon. Yay. Exactly a month tomorrow. August 2 I'll be 24!!!
I'll be posting a wishlist soon. Hehe.

Okies. Nuff for now!