To those of you who truly care and keep in touch or had plans with me I offer my sincerest appologies for being somewhat unavailable. while at work on my swings I slipped off, falling straight down onto the pavement and hitting my head hard enough to cause a frontal lobe contusion and physical brain bleeding. I was taken to Sunrise Hospital where they did several scans and tests, and where I stayed for about 7 days. They pumped me full of pain meds while my brain swelling dropped, including morphine, percocet, furocet and others, causing me to be slightly over neurotic in my twilight daze. To detox and get stabilized on my proper medication, after being physically cleared, they transported me to Spring Mountain Psychiatric where I spent an additional 5 days or so locked away. So... its been about a week since my accident, but much has changed. First off, my living situation is temporarily shifted, and I'm back with my mother for a bit. Please don't email me regarding my relationship with my fiance Kaine, as it is just fine if not better than before. Surprisingly, one of the positives of the accident was that the ordeal caused us to have to reflect and better our own selves as well as our relationship, both mentally and physically, while coming to terms with the things we cannot change and / or took for granted... Including each other...

On a quick side note: Baby, since i know you are reading this I want you to know how much i miss you and how much you truly mean to me. i miss spending the time we used to and look forward to spending the rest of my life with you.... to those of you who called with concern, it means a lot just knowing you care. that is all anyone can ever ask for...

It hurts my eyes staring at the screen for more than a few minutes at a time due to my headaches and light sensativity, I have to walk with a cane for balance, and i have taken out some of my piercings, so if i don't respond immediately as before, don't take it personally and know i will asap. also, if you have my number, my phone is always on and feel free to call me. Thanks for your patience and time reading my letter....