I'm such a weird person. I've been thinking and really, compared to my friends and other people I know, I seem like a freak. I can't stop moving EVER; during classes in school I always do kiddy like stuff, such as pulling my legs up on the chair and holding my knees to my chest, I'm constantly observing people and when they look back at me I either smile or make a really weird face. Sometimes I can read their minds: "WOW YOU ARE SUCH A WEIRDO, STOP STARING". I have some awkward crazy habits, but heeey, I can't help them!

I'll also yawn and make loud noises and more weird faces when I'm in random places and people will gave me looks.... the kind of look you know they are laughing inside but they don't wanna be rude so they just keep it to themselves. I just find it funny, I'm not complaining... I also cuss out a LOT, especially when I'm around my bandmates and old high school friends. Earlier today I was in school and I used the word fuck and I don't know what else and my classmate mocked me???? I was like, shut up you I'll cuss out if I want to! Damn it, she was like my mom even though mom would have been more like "WATCH YO MOUTH, GURL!!" Except she wouldn't speak like that 'cause she's a lawyer and all ~polite. OH LOL.

My dad texted me today saying that we won't be able to get together to play cards this weekend because he has work on Saturday and Sunday.... it sucks, I feel bad for him. He stills helps me pay for school. I miss hanging out with him sometimes and listening to him speak about the recent crimes in our city and such; and the way he hugs me like he's never going to see me again. It freakin' sucks that I'm a twenty year old still all bitter about my parents divorce. My mom is now single although I'm not really sure she's looking (she probably is considering she's been taking dancing classes for a few weeks now) while my dad lives in this house with the woman he chated on my mom with. How classy, I know. But I'm over it and we get along anow. Yeah, whatever. I don't even know why I'm writing about this in here.

TOMORROW I DON'T HAVE WORK BECAUSE IT'S A HOLIDAY! LIFE IS JUST SO AMAZING. My band is performing on Friday (we're headlining this time, wow) and I'm kind of excited, just kind of.

Oh, I wrote a new song on Wednesday and as soon as I fix up some stuff in it, I'm going to put a video up on YouTube. Some people who saw my other video have been asking me for more and I haven't really written something like that in a while. It's been all about ~rock'n'roll~ lately, but I missed writing cute songs on the keyboard.


I'm off to eat some lasagna now. Mmmmm
xo
Nanc-