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It's so awful; we never agree on much and it gets worse because I get so easily annoyed… earlier tonight we got together to finish this one song (we actually started it like, yesterday) and after 2 hours trapped in a room with them I just had to leave. It fucking sucks to be the only chick among four guys. I should be used to it now since I've always had more guy friends than girls, but it still freaks me out from time to time. What makes me really, really MAD is that sometimes they argue with me about things concerning music that I'm sure of and it isn't a secret to any of us that I know more about that than any of them. So I'm like, CAN YOU PLEASE SHUT UP???? Tonight we were all giving each other our opinions on what should be changed about this latest song and when I told the bassist that he could change one note he was playing (ONE NOTE OH MY GOD HOW HARD IS THAT), our guitarist was like "he can't do that because the bass always does the same as the guitar". As in, he was playing a G minor and the bassist had to play a G as well, he couldn't do anything other than that. And he knows everything about scales and such (opposite from the bassist, who doesn't know SHIT) and STILL he said that???? I'm like, what kind of fucking guitarist ARE you?

Then the bassist tried a Bb and it wouldn't do because that's the note he was supposed to play next. Alright. He tried a C and it didn't work as well. It was okay with me???? Then I told him to try a F# because that's a 7+ and it usually makes things sound a little havier. Guess what? It wasn't fucking good enough either!!!! "Hummm, that doesn't sound good to me…" is all they would freaking say. The bassist, oh, the fact that he'd say that didn't bother me that much because he just says whatever pleases our guitarist since he doesn't know shit and doesn't want to sound dumb. But the freakin' guitarist…

After I gave up trying to teach them that HE COULD DO THAT BECAUSE IT'S IN THE FUCKING G SCALE and it didn't sound bad at all followed by the Bb (NOTE: THEY DIDN'T EVEN WAIT UNTIL THE Bb???? They'd just play it til the note I suggested and were like "HUM NO IT SUCKS"), I said "fuck this, I'm leaving."

Lol, they didn't want to let me leave. The were all "you gotta stay here because we need your opinions…" so I told them I had nothing left to say. And really, I didn't. That was the one thing I hadn't said yet, if I'd stay there I'd just start yelling at them and tell everyone to go suck a big fat cock.

That's how I work. Take it or leave it, I don't have the fucking patience anymore to deal with this kind of shit.

I was already kind of pissed before that because the guy who does the screams wouldn't make up his mind about the parts he wanted to scream on that song. All we got done was the chorus. Every time we played the damn thing he would scream now and then in the fucking end and then in the beginning of a sentence again, and the middle, and he would change it every time. I wrote the lyrics for the chorus and was trying to think of something else, but there was no way in hell I would do it with him being like that.

So, I BOTHERED explaining to them that I was mad already and it'd be worse if I stayed, hugged them goodbye and left.

Came home, ate some good old Pringles and vented to someone who cares. Now I'm listening to Emery and holy shit, are they amazing.

Farewell,
xoxo
Nanc-