FEBRUARY 13, 2012 @ 12:03 PM


today is a better day!

for anyone who's interested, I spoilered the explanation...

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In my last blog I already gave a hint to me feeling very bad lately... Actually that's nothing new. I was diagnosed with depression when I was 14. It was shortly after leaving my father, who was even sicker than I've ever been. He was a very brutal man. All my childhood I remember him beating up my mom. Anyways this is a far too long story for here. In short my mom left him and a few years later did I. Facing reality was hard. My mom has heavy depressions and needed to get medical treatment that time. Somehow she always fell for bad men, who hit her or at least were berbally cruel.
A few years ago I found out, I do not only have depressions but have also a bipolar disorder. That means that I usually go from very happy to very very sad within very short periods of time, sometimes half a day. Luckily it's not as bad as others experience it. I just have those days were I don't even leave the house, ignore my phone and I am totally non-productive.
Right now is a hard phase... It's been like this for days now. I know that working out would help but somehow I can't get my lazy ass out there. What so ever.
If anyone has experiences with that, I'd be pleased if you could share them with me.



So tomorrow is Valentines day. That means I will post way too much love related pictures and comics in this blog smile

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following: pictures my boy made for his shirt designs

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alright folks, see ya 'round! (I'm training my horrible dialecting skills)

Comments
Kelpie_

Kelpie_

HOPEFUL

Ellensburg, WA

FEB 13, 2012 01:25 PM

I'm sorry to hear about your family experience and hope very much that you find just the right treatment and that you get all of the love and safety that you deserve...which is so much. xoxo!

GiniColorful

GiniColorful

Panama
November 2011

FEB 13, 2012 03:44 PM

blurry but sex pics.

lectorvyal

lectorvyal

Australia
May 2006

FEB 13, 2012 04:26 PM

*hugs*

softnsweet

softnsweet

I'm lost
June 2003

FEB 13, 2012 09:55 PM

there is an SG for those who are dx with bipolar or have friends or family with the disorder. finding a good psychiatrist who will work with you to find the medication and or medications is very important. as is good social support and maybe a psychotherapist. good luck.

Denie

Denie

SUICIDEGIRL

I'm lost

FEB 14, 2012 12:06 AM

they are all awesome right?

When did you go to bed then?smile)

Dawnie

Dawnie

Germany
February 2007

FEB 14, 2012 12:15 AM

Oje, das klingt ja echt nicht schön. whatever Leider kenn ich mich bei diesem Thema überhaut nicht aus, aber ich glaube, es gibt da eine oder mehrere SG-Gruppen dazu, vielleicht wär das was für dich.
Und was doch schön ist: Du hast einen lieben Freund, der Lover und bester Freund ist und dich irgendwann heiraten will. smile
Und: der Frühling ist auch nicht mehr weit. wink

Comaboy

Comaboy

Sweden
December 2005

FEB 15, 2012 08:44 AM

Life can sometimes be an emotional rollercoaster.. we'll just have to enjoy the highs and try to speed past the lows.

This clip might help the next time your feeling low.. it always helps me smile

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