In my last blog I already gave a hint to me feeling very bad lately... Actually that's nothing new. I was diagnosed with depression when I was 14. It was shortly after leaving my father, who was even sicker than I've ever been. He was a very brutal man. All my childhood I remember him beating up my mom. Anyways this is a far too long story for here. In short my mom left him and a few years later did I. Facing reality was hard. My mom has heavy depressions and needed to get medical treatment that time. Somehow she always fell for bad men, who hit her or at least were berbally cruel.
A few years ago I found out, I do not only have depressions but have also a bipolar disorder. That means that I usually go from very happy to very very sad within very short periods of time, sometimes half a day. Luckily it's not as bad as others experience it. I just have those days were I don't even leave the house, ignore my phone and I am totally non-productive.
Right now is a hard phase... It's been like this for days now. I know that working out would help but somehow I can't get my lazy ass out there. What so ever.
If anyone has experiences with that, I'd be pleased if you could share them with me.