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well.....there are 2 set EXAMPLES of what goes live on the 10th of next month and the 24th. i had so many requests for them. and there is a bw set that was a project prior to being active again. it was fun to be a part of. i love the look and feel of bw photos.
i hope everyone enjoys the sets when their live.
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i hope everyone enjoys the sets when their live.
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so there is this havana event in ohio? and ive asked so many people what it was. and none of the girls "going' have replied. man i feel like dirt when i get ignored. i just wanted to know if i could go. i really feel like cinderella right now....
meh. thats what i feel like today. i hate verything about my life right now. and i am for the first time ever so perplexed as to how i can possibly change it. i mean wtf. i just really donno what to do.
(no offense because some of you are on here) but i am so sick of my friends sometimes. i just need a change. and i feel like i am fighting so hard even tho hes already left me emotionally(so obvious) for lee to not leave me. i feel really lost but its already said and done. i cant change his mind or beg him anymore. its just not going anywhere. i just dont get how you can love someone so much and just leave them in the dust. i guess that isnt love then. meh
oh and i hate my job. im tired of doing the same mind numbingly retarded shit day after day. she tells me i am good and i am doing good one day then the next im getting chided because im not doing good enuff. i mean what is it? im sorry i am not happy working this silly pointless job. i plan on doing something other than having a fmaily with some dude who i think loves me and working a job that barely affords me gas and groceries because its really the best i can do....i just cant be that person. im too smart and too motivated to be that pathetic. but i need to work so i can get through school...but i think it might be high time i just looked elswhere for work.
bleh. im trying to complain and be productive about it. was i successful? prolly not either way i am going to see about a different job i cannot let her guilt me into this management position because they simply dont have anyone else. i just dont want it. i dont want to get comfortable doing stupid shit for forever. besides 40 cents more and hour to do 6times as much work just isnt enuff incentive to make me pretend i care. and i dont want to have to constantly pick up the slack for the buncha dumbasses that she tends to hire. i do that enuff as it is and i am just a regular employee. fuck me sideways....meh
i need to get the fuck out of this bullshit town.
on a lighter note i got signed up for a class(only one i had to pay outta pocket and photography is expensive) and i am really excited to start it. but thats all that was good today
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(no offense because some of you are on here) but i am so sick of my friends sometimes. i just need a change. and i feel like i am fighting so hard even tho hes already left me emotionally(so obvious) for lee to not leave me. i feel really lost
but its already said and done. i cant change his mind or beg him anymore. its just not going anywhere. i just dont get how you can love someone so much and just leave them in the dust. i guess that isnt love then. mehoh and i hate my job. im tired of doing the same mind numbingly retarded shit day after day. she tells me i am good and i am doing good one day then the next im getting chided because im not doing good enuff. i mean what is it? im sorry i am not happy working this silly pointless job. i plan on doing something other than having a fmaily with some dude who i think loves me and working a job that barely affords me gas and groceries because its really the best i can do....i just cant be that person. im too smart and too motivated to be that pathetic. but i need to work so i can get through school...but i think it might be high time i just looked elswhere for work.
bleh. im trying to complain and be productive about it. was i successful? prolly not
either way i am going to see about a different job i cannot let her guilt me into this management position because they simply dont have anyone else. i just dont want it. i dont want to get comfortable doing stupid shit for forever. besides 40 cents more and hour to do 6times as much work just isnt enuff incentive to make me pretend i care. and i dont want to have to constantly pick up the slack for the buncha dumbasses that she tends to hire. i do that enuff as it is and i am just a regular employee. fuck me sideways....mehi need to get the fuck out of this bullshit town.
on a lighter note i got signed up for a class(only one i had to pay outta pocket and photography is expensive) and i am really excited to start it. but thats all that was good today
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i need to make more friends on here
i dont really have any female friends. i just donno...i hope i go pink so i can travel and be a part of the site. it sucks when the name youve been known as for over 7 years is alredy kinda taken. i hope i get my spelling of it.....it would be sooo hard to even fathom having a different name. i think id die...
well anyways i got a LOT of people to sign back up and to sign up in general just to see me. and there are going to be more when my sets are finally live. i think thats a good thing.
i need to find someone who will apprentice me for tattooing soon or im going to give up all together. the last few people i worked with flaked.
i wont be going back to school this semmester because of money so i gotta do something. these dead end unsatisfying jobs just arent doing it. and this fluxuation in my hours causing a bigger fluxuation in my pay is just tiring.
meh and my only stability in my life is about to move away to cali and wont take me with him because...well he just cant. im so tired of finding someone else....
sorry for being so winey. i need to go be productive today. should get dressed before my final photography print trade/excuse to wear dresses and drink wine this afternoon. im kinda excited about it.
well....tata i guess.
i dont really have any female friends. i just donno...i hope i go pink so i can travel and be a part of the site. it sucks when the name youve been known as for over 7 years is alredy kinda taken. i hope i get my spelling of it.....it would be sooo hard to even fathom having a different name. i think id die...
well anyways i got a LOT of people to sign back up and to sign up in general just to see me. and there are going to be more when my sets are finally live. i think thats a good thing.
i need to find someone who will apprentice me for tattooing soon or im going to give up all together. the last few people i worked with flaked.
i wont be going back to school this semmester because of money so i gotta do something. these dead end unsatisfying jobs just arent doing it. and this fluxuation in my hours causing a bigger fluxuation in my pay is just tiring.
meh
and my only stability in my life is about to move away to cali and wont take me with him because...well he just cant. im so tired of finding someone else....sorry for being so winey. i need to go be productive today. should get dressed before my final photography print trade/excuse to wear dresses and drink wine this afternoon. im kinda excited about it.
well....tata i guess.
do you ever wonder sometimes when you stumble across something youve hidden away why you never burned it...its so odd how far back you can push the memory of someone you loved so dearly and it just appears one day again like a bad omen or a random thought....and it all feels so awfully familiar...
i feel so sad. i just lost the person whom i hoped would be in my life for a long time after it taking me years to get over someone i spent 4 years of my life with. i dont think ill ever fully adjust tot he loss. if he wasnt marrying the giel he basically forgot about me over then maybe it wouldnt be so bad...sometimes i have the thought that maybe its not too late...maybe he still loves me just as i love him deep down inside and maybe his love for her is really his masked love for me. everyone says how much her and i are alike...its almost sick.
and now the one person after all these years in my life to cover up that hurt has left a scar of his own. and i sit here alone contemplationg...wich my finger once again on the send button but i still cannot do it. and sit and regret that if i had in the first place before he got too comfortbale with her if it would have matter anyhow.
i hate regret as much the that old jar of mystery int he back of the fridge that you avoid evertime you open the door.
sweet misery.
i feel so sad. i just lost the person whom i hoped would be in my life for a long time after it taking me years to get over someone i spent 4 years of my life with. i dont think ill ever fully adjust tot he loss. if he wasnt marrying the giel he basically forgot about me over then maybe it wouldnt be so bad...sometimes i have the thought that maybe its not too late...maybe he still loves me just as i love him deep down inside and maybe his love for her is really his masked love for me. everyone says how much her and i are alike...its almost sick.
and now the one person after all these years in my life to cover up that hurt has left a scar of his own. and i sit here alone contemplationg...wich my finger once again on the send button but i still cannot do it. and sit and regret that if i had in the first place before he got too comfortbale with her if it would have matter anyhow.
i hate regret as much the that old jar of mystery int he back of the fridge that you avoid evertime you open the door.
sweet misery.
hey guys my set will go live in member review real soon! I hated it but i submitted it to make the photographer happy. White backgrounds suck. but i hope to hear a little bit of good feedback atleast. im shooting with a different guy tommorrow and i am excited. but i have 2 other self shot sets ill maybe submitt in the meantime that arent so bad...well...
enjoi!
enjoi!
