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Quick update to signal boost this : http://www.indiegogo.com/svdp-soupkitchen
If you haven't already seen the story about this, Paul Ryan visited this soup kitchen without obtaining any permission from them, in order to get a photo op. The soup kitchen has made it clear that they wished to remain non partisan and the visit was unwelcome as they feared they would lose donors. Well, they were right. In retaliation against negative press for Ryan because of his visit, many petty people have withdrawn their funding and the kitchen may have to close.
No matter what your politics, I think we can agree that this place shouldn't have to close and stop serving people in need because of politics they did not wish to be involved in. If you want to throw some money their way, click the above link.
Thanks, and I will post a more substansive update later.
If you haven't already seen the story about this, Paul Ryan visited this soup kitchen without obtaining any permission from them, in order to get a photo op. The soup kitchen has made it clear that they wished to remain non partisan and the visit was unwelcome as they feared they would lose donors. Well, they were right. In retaliation against negative press for Ryan because of his visit, many petty people have withdrawn their funding and the kitchen may have to close.
No matter what your politics, I think we can agree that this place shouldn't have to close and stop serving people in need because of politics they did not wish to be involved in. If you want to throw some money their way, click the above link.
Thanks, and I will post a more substansive update later.
Holy flying spaghetti monster, I'm 30.
And the happiest I've ever been. Thank you to my SG friends for all your contributions to that happiness!
And the happiest I've ever been. Thank you to my SG friends for all your contributions to that happiness!
I'm back again! It's been a busy couple of weeks as Daniel and I just moved from our apartment to our very own condo! We're almost completely done moving in: we're just waiting on some furniture items, and at some point we need to reorganize our book collection, but we're unpacked and settled for the most part. I'll add some pictures next entry.
Before I post another ranty post, I want to thank everyone who left thoughtful posts on my last entry. I wanted to respond, but, y'know, moving:
On a note somewhat related to my last post, today I'd like to rant a little bit about Being a Creep vs. Being Socially Awkward. This is probably obvious to anyone who reads much of what I say here, but I read a lot of feminism/social justice blogs. One thing that gets really exhausting is seeing how aggressively people will push back against the idea that it's possible to like women without creeping them out.
It's been over a year since Elevatorgate and not only are people all over the atheist blogosphere STILL railing against Rebecca Watson for daring to respond to someone making her uncomfortable with a casual "guys, don't do that" any time the subject comes up, but I see the same story play out almost 90% of the time when a woman talks publicly about being made uncomfortable by someone's advances. The story goes that 1. a woman says "so this guy wouldn't leave me alone/wouldn't stop staring/whatever, and I felt unsafe/uncomfortable/vaguely annoyed" (it never matters how upset the woman actually was about the incident" 2. Sometimes, but not always, she ties this to a larger issue, say societal entitlement to hit on/stare at/touch women. Sometimes she just says it annoyed the hell out of her 3. A ton of dudes (and some women, dubbed in various places as "Chill Girls"*) descend and chew the woman out, telling her that for all she knew the guy in her story was just completely socially awkward and clueless/that she ruined his day or even his life by complaining about his behavior and that she is ruining THEIR lives by extension for criticizing another dude. The word "creepshaming"** often gets thrown around, as well as the accusation that the woman is hysterical, overreacting or a bitch.
Here's the thing: I understand being socially awkward. I AM socially awkward. But there are a million reasons why "but maybe he was socially awkward and you're a bitch for calling him out or disliking his behavior" is the wrong response to a woman talking about someone acting creepy at her:
1. The biggest one, I think: people who are socially awkward but mean well DO NOT WANT TO CREEP PEOPLE OUT. When they hear that their actions did make someone uncomfortable, their reaction should be regret and a desire to know what behavior caused the discomfort so they can stop. People who are socially awkward but mean well do not react to "hey, this makes me uncomfortable" with a hissy fit or an accusation of hysteria.
2. If you're socially awkward, that is a part of your personality you need to work around, not a part of your personality that everyone else in the world has to work around and forgive no matter what you do. Again, if you creep someone out and really didn't mean to, it makes sense to say "I'm sorry I did that, I'm bad at reading social cues and I won't do it again" but it does NOT make sense to say "well I'm socially awkward so you don't get to complain". Using it as an explanation: okay. Using it as a way to excuse away your behavior and make the other person feel like the bad guy: not good.
3. Obviously there are exceptions, but even the most socially awkward people tend to understand boundaries, ESPECIALLY stated boundaries. What amazed me the most about Elevatorgate was how many people were eager to explain away the behavior of Elevator Dude by saying he must have been so awkward that he couldn't possibly know that what he did was creepy. I have a hard time buying the idea that the guy was SO AWKWARD that he didn't understand that hitting on someone in an elevator at 4am at a conference after she had just talked for a long time about how she is uncomfortable with being hit on at conferences might come across badly. I think that's very unlikely. I think it's far more likely that he wanted to talk to her and decided her stated boundaries just didn't matter. Anyway, when it comes to more general discussions of women talking about what makes them uncomfortable, the response of "but we just don't know" makes no sense: the boundary has literally just been stated in whatever piece of writing they were responding to! They just don't LIKE the boundary.***
* Chill Girls are the women who come into any discussion like this and seem to feel the need to point out that they aren't like those humorless feminists, they know how to take a joke, and they love it when guys randomly grab their tits. I'm not even joking about that last one, I saw it said recently.
** Creepshaming is not a thing and never well be, and anyone who uses the term is ridiculous.
*** I think the point about how there are many people out there who just don't want to respect people's boundaries is important. Maybe the random guy making me uncomfortable isn't that kind of person, but I have no way of knowing. He might also be the kind of person who tries to push past people's boundaries, in short: he might be a predator. Since I don't know, I'd rather not err on the side of being "nice" and "understanding". Schroedinger's Rapist is always a great article about this kind of thought process.
Anyway, that's my rant.
Before I post another ranty post, I want to thank everyone who left thoughtful posts on my last entry. I wanted to respond, but, y'know, moving:
On a note somewhat related to my last post, today I'd like to rant a little bit about Being a Creep vs. Being Socially Awkward. This is probably obvious to anyone who reads much of what I say here, but I read a lot of feminism/social justice blogs. One thing that gets really exhausting is seeing how aggressively people will push back against the idea that it's possible to like women without creeping them out.
It's been over a year since Elevatorgate and not only are people all over the atheist blogosphere STILL railing against Rebecca Watson for daring to respond to someone making her uncomfortable with a casual "guys, don't do that" any time the subject comes up, but I see the same story play out almost 90% of the time when a woman talks publicly about being made uncomfortable by someone's advances. The story goes that 1. a woman says "so this guy wouldn't leave me alone/wouldn't stop staring/whatever, and I felt unsafe/uncomfortable/vaguely annoyed" (it never matters how upset the woman actually was about the incident" 2. Sometimes, but not always, she ties this to a larger issue, say societal entitlement to hit on/stare at/touch women. Sometimes she just says it annoyed the hell out of her 3. A ton of dudes (and some women, dubbed in various places as "Chill Girls"*) descend and chew the woman out, telling her that for all she knew the guy in her story was just completely socially awkward and clueless/that she ruined his day or even his life by complaining about his behavior and that she is ruining THEIR lives by extension for criticizing another dude. The word "creepshaming"** often gets thrown around, as well as the accusation that the woman is hysterical, overreacting or a bitch.
Here's the thing: I understand being socially awkward. I AM socially awkward. But there are a million reasons why "but maybe he was socially awkward and you're a bitch for calling him out or disliking his behavior" is the wrong response to a woman talking about someone acting creepy at her:
1. The biggest one, I think: people who are socially awkward but mean well DO NOT WANT TO CREEP PEOPLE OUT. When they hear that their actions did make someone uncomfortable, their reaction should be regret and a desire to know what behavior caused the discomfort so they can stop. People who are socially awkward but mean well do not react to "hey, this makes me uncomfortable" with a hissy fit or an accusation of hysteria.
2. If you're socially awkward, that is a part of your personality you need to work around, not a part of your personality that everyone else in the world has to work around and forgive no matter what you do. Again, if you creep someone out and really didn't mean to, it makes sense to say "I'm sorry I did that, I'm bad at reading social cues and I won't do it again" but it does NOT make sense to say "well I'm socially awkward so you don't get to complain". Using it as an explanation: okay. Using it as a way to excuse away your behavior and make the other person feel like the bad guy: not good.
3. Obviously there are exceptions, but even the most socially awkward people tend to understand boundaries, ESPECIALLY stated boundaries. What amazed me the most about Elevatorgate was how many people were eager to explain away the behavior of Elevator Dude by saying he must have been so awkward that he couldn't possibly know that what he did was creepy. I have a hard time buying the idea that the guy was SO AWKWARD that he didn't understand that hitting on someone in an elevator at 4am at a conference after she had just talked for a long time about how she is uncomfortable with being hit on at conferences might come across badly. I think that's very unlikely. I think it's far more likely that he wanted to talk to her and decided her stated boundaries just didn't matter. Anyway, when it comes to more general discussions of women talking about what makes them uncomfortable, the response of "but we just don't know" makes no sense: the boundary has literally just been stated in whatever piece of writing they were responding to! They just don't LIKE the boundary.***
* Chill Girls are the women who come into any discussion like this and seem to feel the need to point out that they aren't like those humorless feminists, they know how to take a joke, and they love it when guys randomly grab their tits. I'm not even joking about that last one, I saw it said recently.
** Creepshaming is not a thing and never well be, and anyone who uses the term is ridiculous.
*** I think the point about how there are many people out there who just don't want to respect people's boundaries is important. Maybe the random guy making me uncomfortable isn't that kind of person, but I have no way of knowing. He might also be the kind of person who tries to push past people's boundaries, in short: he might be a predator. Since I don't know, I'd rather not err on the side of being "nice" and "understanding". Schroedinger's Rapist is always a great article about this kind of thought process.
Anyway, that's my rant.
***EXTREME TRIGGER WARNING FOR THE LINK CONTAINED IN THIS ENTRY.***
Honestly, it's probably not worth clicking. Plus you'll be taken to Reddit, one of the worst places on the internet.
So today on the feminist blogosphere, I've seen many articles about this thread on reddit (I feel dirty having just opened up the link in order to get the URL), in which a bunch of people who have raped in the past talk about...well, raping people. Apparently one of the worst/most disturbing posters in the thread is a guy who confesses to being a serial rapist and to purposely manipulating his wife away from anyone who would tell her about his past. I don't know many details, as that is a thread I'm just not willing to read. Because I participate in a lot of feminist forums I tend to see a lot of creepy rationalizations and rape apologia, but reading a bunch of confessed rapists discuss their crimes, apparently some pretty gleefully, would probably break me.
Though I will say it could be a useful tool: a bunch of people talking about raping people and some of them patting each other on the back about it would do a nifty job of illustrating rape culture.
Anyway. Obviously the general reaction I've seen has been one of outright disgust and horror. But on a couple of the blogs I follow, I've seen people say that the few people in the Reddit thread discussing how terrible they now feel about having raped someone in the past gives them hope, because it shows that people can change. Maybe it's my cynicism and slight misanthropy showing, but all I could do when I saw those kinds of posts is scoff. And honestly, that makes me feel a bit guilty. Here's the main reasons why:
1. I just honestly don't believe that someone who did that to another human being COULD change significantly enough for me to feel some kind of hope for humanity. To me, violating another person like that says something central about your character, and my irrational self says that central characteristic is immutable. It feels cynical, though, to simply not believe in the possibility of redemption for some people.
2. Here's the bigger reason, and it's hard to explain. Essentially, I do not and cannot feel empathy for rapists. Now that really doesn't seem like that radical a statement, at least to me. I think if I said that to most people I know they'd just go "yeah, who does?". Even when I've taken this to the extreme and stated that if I had children (this point is moot since I don't plan to) and my child committed a rape, I would disown them no questions asked, and most people have still not seen that as extreme. But it still disturbs me to be able to cut off my empathy for a person based on one thing. After all, if I think about it, it seems to me that many rapists do the exact same thing to their victims: they feel absolutely no empathy towards them and do not consider the humanity of their victims at all. I'm not trying to imply that not feeling empathy for rapists makes me the same as them, but it's uncomfortable for me to have the ability to feel no empathy for a person. Again, if I really think about what most of the people posting in that thread have probably done to another human being, it doesn't seem that strange to me that I don't feel any pity for them and wouldn't even if they did seem to genuinely feel bad: maybe some things are just unforgivable. Still, that little bit of me that says I should have empathy for everyone always kicks in.
Anyway, I still haven't learned any lesson from any of this, because each time someone brings up that thread my gut feeling is and probably always will be "I hope all those creeps are miserable forever. And go to jail". Plus I'm sure that even if I could be convinced that a former rapist had actually changed, I still wouldn't want to have anything to do with them.
Honestly, it's probably not worth clicking. Plus you'll be taken to Reddit, one of the worst places on the internet.
So today on the feminist blogosphere, I've seen many articles about this thread on reddit (I feel dirty having just opened up the link in order to get the URL), in which a bunch of people who have raped in the past talk about...well, raping people. Apparently one of the worst/most disturbing posters in the thread is a guy who confesses to being a serial rapist and to purposely manipulating his wife away from anyone who would tell her about his past. I don't know many details, as that is a thread I'm just not willing to read. Because I participate in a lot of feminist forums I tend to see a lot of creepy rationalizations and rape apologia, but reading a bunch of confessed rapists discuss their crimes, apparently some pretty gleefully, would probably break me.
Though I will say it could be a useful tool: a bunch of people talking about raping people and some of them patting each other on the back about it would do a nifty job of illustrating rape culture.
Anyway. Obviously the general reaction I've seen has been one of outright disgust and horror. But on a couple of the blogs I follow, I've seen people say that the few people in the Reddit thread discussing how terrible they now feel about having raped someone in the past gives them hope, because it shows that people can change. Maybe it's my cynicism and slight misanthropy showing, but all I could do when I saw those kinds of posts is scoff. And honestly, that makes me feel a bit guilty. Here's the main reasons why:
1. I just honestly don't believe that someone who did that to another human being COULD change significantly enough for me to feel some kind of hope for humanity. To me, violating another person like that says something central about your character, and my irrational self says that central characteristic is immutable. It feels cynical, though, to simply not believe in the possibility of redemption for some people.
2. Here's the bigger reason, and it's hard to explain. Essentially, I do not and cannot feel empathy for rapists. Now that really doesn't seem like that radical a statement, at least to me. I think if I said that to most people I know they'd just go "yeah, who does?". Even when I've taken this to the extreme and stated that if I had children (this point is moot since I don't plan to) and my child committed a rape, I would disown them no questions asked, and most people have still not seen that as extreme. But it still disturbs me to be able to cut off my empathy for a person based on one thing. After all, if I think about it, it seems to me that many rapists do the exact same thing to their victims: they feel absolutely no empathy towards them and do not consider the humanity of their victims at all. I'm not trying to imply that not feeling empathy for rapists makes me the same as them, but it's uncomfortable for me to have the ability to feel no empathy for a person. Again, if I really think about what most of the people posting in that thread have probably done to another human being, it doesn't seem that strange to me that I don't feel any pity for them and wouldn't even if they did seem to genuinely feel bad: maybe some things are just unforgivable. Still, that little bit of me that says I should have empathy for everyone always kicks in.
Anyway, I still haven't learned any lesson from any of this, because each time someone brings up that thread my gut feeling is and probably always will be "I hope all those creeps are miserable forever. And go to jail". Plus I'm sure that even if I could be convinced that a former rapist had actually changed, I still wouldn't want to have anything to do with them.
Update time! Warning, life is boring in a good way, but that means that this update probably won't be particularly interesting.
The only major thing that has happened since I last updated ages and ages ago is that Daniel and I bought a condo! It's a two bedroom, one bath only about two blocks from where we are now. It's a really nice place: updated kitchen, really cool bathroom fixtures, exposed brick in the living room and it's got a patio AND a deck. We close on it at the end of this month and move in on August 3rd. So right now half of our apartment is filled with boxes and we're finishing up with packing pretty soon. We're obviously really excited for our move and can't wait to get settled in to our new place. Once we've mostly unpacked I'll definitely take some pictures to post here.
Otherwise, not much has changed. Daniel and I are still going strong at 3 years and...let's see...5 months. He's very happy at his job and his company has been getting awesome publicity lately, which is great. As for me, work is work...it's not particularly exciting and often pretty stressful. I'm waiting to hear back about a raise, but I've also been looking for work elsewhere in a field I'm actually interested in. But if it takes awhile to find something else it's not like I'm super unhappy where I am.
Otherwise I've just been doing my usual thing: hanging out with Danny a lot watching movies and TV (we're finishing up watching all of The West Wing currently), playing video games (Diablo III of course!) and reading. I've been on a LeGuin kick lately, reading wise. And soon I"ll be reading lots of fantasy and sci-fi, as I'm taking a course at coursera.com on the subject.
I hope life is treating all of you well!
The only major thing that has happened since I last updated ages and ages ago is that Daniel and I bought a condo! It's a two bedroom, one bath only about two blocks from where we are now. It's a really nice place: updated kitchen, really cool bathroom fixtures, exposed brick in the living room and it's got a patio AND a deck. We close on it at the end of this month and move in on August 3rd. So right now half of our apartment is filled with boxes and we're finishing up with packing pretty soon. We're obviously really excited for our move and can't wait to get settled in to our new place. Once we've mostly unpacked I'll definitely take some pictures to post here.
Otherwise, not much has changed. Daniel and I are still going strong at 3 years and...let's see...5 months. He's very happy at his job and his company has been getting awesome publicity lately, which is great. As for me, work is work...it's not particularly exciting and often pretty stressful. I'm waiting to hear back about a raise, but I've also been looking for work elsewhere in a field I'm actually interested in. But if it takes awhile to find something else it's not like I'm super unhappy where I am.
Otherwise I've just been doing my usual thing: hanging out with Danny a lot watching movies and TV (we're finishing up watching all of The West Wing currently), playing video games (Diablo III of course!) and reading. I've been on a LeGuin kick lately, reading wise. And soon I"ll be reading lots of fantasy and sci-fi, as I'm taking a course at coursera.com on the subject.
I hope life is treating all of you well!
I was going though old threads and journal entries and thought "wow, I miss this place".
So this will be a placeholder for a better update later. For now, hi everyone. I hope y'all are doing well. I certainly am!
So this will be a placeholder for a better update later. For now, hi everyone. I hope y'all are doing well. I certainly am!
Wow, it's been awhile. I hope everyone had good holidays and a happy New Year!
Mine was pretty amazing. I went with Danny and his family on a cruise! We went to San Juan, St. Thomas, Antigua, Barbados and Dominica. For most of the islands we had excursions set up, so we got to go to a beautiful beach, go ziplining in Barbados, and went tubing in Dominica. Danny and I also set up excursions to swim with sea lions and stingrays. I'll post some pictures below.
Also, today I finally got around to adding up the totals for all the books I read this year. Last year I started to keep a list, because I was curious to find out how many books I tended to read on average, but it was lost. So this year I kept track again. Here's the total:
169 books read total
45,985 pages
An average of 126 pages a day
Keeping in mind that about 24% of those pages read were comics/graphic novels, I'm still pretty impressed with myself. Especially since reading the Game of Thrones books took up a good month or two all by themselves.
Anyway, pictures!
Mine was pretty amazing. I went with Danny and his family on a cruise! We went to San Juan, St. Thomas, Antigua, Barbados and Dominica. For most of the islands we had excursions set up, so we got to go to a beautiful beach, go ziplining in Barbados, and went tubing in Dominica. Danny and I also set up excursions to swim with sea lions and stingrays. I'll post some pictures below.
Also, today I finally got around to adding up the totals for all the books I read this year. Last year I started to keep a list, because I was curious to find out how many books I tended to read on average, but it was lost. So this year I kept track again. Here's the total:
169 books read total
45,985 pages
An average of 126 pages a day
Keeping in mind that about 24% of those pages read were comics/graphic novels, I'm still pretty impressed with myself. Especially since reading the Game of Thrones books took up a good month or two all by themselves.
Anyway, pictures!
Hello again friends! Sorry it's been so long since my last update. Our internet has been down for awhile and just got fixed today. I gotta say, as much as I missed checking SG and reading all my favorite blogs, I got a TON of reading done, which was nice. Not much has been up otherwise.
Work is good, and I'm liking the job so far. My co-workers are nice, the job is just busy enough to prevent me from getting bored very often but usually not so busy that I feel super-stressed. I've been told I'm doing well and that I've been a quick learner, which feels nice, and next week I might end up taking on a pretty solid amount of responsibility, which makes me feel like they already trust me as a hard worker. As much as I feel like complaining in the morning about getting up early, it feels good to be working again.
I finished the new Terry Pratchett and loved it, of course. The other night I said that every Terry Pratchett novel is my favorite after I read it, and then the next one I read becomes my new favorite (with one exception, because almost every Pratchett fan I know has at least one book that they aren't a big fan of). However my favorite storylines are Vimes stories, followed closely by Tiffany Aching, so of course a new Vimes-centered book made me extra happy.
Danny and I had been watching (re-watching for him) The Wire and finished season 4 just before our connection stopped working. Because it's such an intense show we would watch a couple episodes and then watch an episode of Foster's Home For Imaginary Friends. A strange but good combination.
And that's really about it. Hope things are going well for all of y'all.
Work is good, and I'm liking the job so far. My co-workers are nice, the job is just busy enough to prevent me from getting bored very often but usually not so busy that I feel super-stressed. I've been told I'm doing well and that I've been a quick learner, which feels nice, and next week I might end up taking on a pretty solid amount of responsibility, which makes me feel like they already trust me as a hard worker. As much as I feel like complaining in the morning about getting up early, it feels good to be working again.
I finished the new Terry Pratchett and loved it, of course. The other night I said that every Terry Pratchett novel is my favorite after I read it, and then the next one I read becomes my new favorite (with one exception, because almost every Pratchett fan I know has at least one book that they aren't a big fan of). However my favorite storylines are Vimes stories, followed closely by Tiffany Aching, so of course a new Vimes-centered book made me extra happy.
Danny and I had been watching (re-watching for him) The Wire and finished season 4 just before our connection stopped working. Because it's such an intense show we would watch a couple episodes and then watch an episode of Foster's Home For Imaginary Friends. A strange but good combination.
And that's really about it. Hope things are going well for all of y'all.
Good news and less good news!
Good news: I GOT A JOB! Starting Wednesday I will be an Underwriting Facilitator at a local company that seems like a really great, comfortable place to work. Plus, health benefits! I'm really excited. After a long, LONG and disheartening search it feels wonderful to know I'll have money of my own, that I can contribute to my household and that I'll feel like I'm doing something useful.
Though I will admit I'll miss spending hours a day futzing on the Internet and playing video games.
Not so great news: I saw my regular doctor and they just have a policy that they will not prescribe any sort of painkillers if they haven't done tests to pinpoint with more complete accuracy what the issue is. Which I understand, but it sucks. They did help me out with other suggestions and now that I"ll be working I can save up to get any needed tests to make sure there's nothing else wrong that I need to worry about. I'm also seeing just a regular GP on Saturday to discuss the same issue and they may be of help to.
Anyway. Yay jobs!
Good news: I GOT A JOB! Starting Wednesday I will be an Underwriting Facilitator at a local company that seems like a really great, comfortable place to work. Plus, health benefits! I'm really excited. After a long, LONG and disheartening search it feels wonderful to know I'll have money of my own, that I can contribute to my household and that I'll feel like I'm doing something useful.
Though I will admit I'll miss spending hours a day futzing on the Internet and playing video games.
Not so great news: I saw my regular doctor and they just have a policy that they will not prescribe any sort of painkillers if they haven't done tests to pinpoint with more complete accuracy what the issue is. Which I understand, but it sucks. They did help me out with other suggestions and now that I"ll be working I can save up to get any needed tests to make sure there's nothing else wrong that I need to worry about. I'm also seeing just a regular GP on Saturday to discuss the same issue and they may be of help to.
Anyway. Yay jobs!
Fuck I hate medical stuff sometimes.
So I've been dealing with a pain issue since early last year. Slight TMI behind spoilers:
So I've been dealing with a pain issue since early last year. Slight TMI behind spoilers:
Anyway, long story short, I know what the problem is. I also know it isn't dangerous and it isn't really treatable in this case, it's basically something that will eventually go away on its' own, in all likelyhood. More slight TMI:
But in the meantime it means that several days out of every month are extremely painful for me. Like for my personal pain scale it's an 8 out of 10. I've tried every over the counter painkiller I can but they don't do much and I'd rather not be popping tons of those every day.
But my primary doctor does not want to prescribe anything for the pain until I get another test, the exact same one I got at the clinical trial. But this one instead of being free would cost $600, WITH insurance. I can't afford that, obviously. I called her again today to ask if there's any way she can prescribe something anyway and I'm supposed to hear back tomorrow but I don't have my hopes up. It's so frustrating. I'm not drug seeking. I just want to not be in that much pain for a chunk of each month and there's no way I can submit to a $600 test just for a prescription that would probably cost under $50. Long story short is that even if you have insurance here it blows, and it's incredibly frustrating to deal with.
And also ow.
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