Is there anything better to a college student than coming back from the grocery store wiith bags and bags of yummy groceries? I keep opening my fridge and thinking "oh, i could eat THAT, or THAT, or THAT". It's the most perfect thing.

*GLEE*

If only my boy were here...

Okay, first some links:

Eddie From Ohio songs (the best song is "If I Had a Boat")

Dork Tower

Yes, I am a gamer.

So, here's a question: If you could do anything you wanted for one day, regardless of laws or money or anything at all....what would you do?

"Let's stop the fussin' and the fuedin'"

Alright, here's what I think: there are people you meer or come across who you are just not going to like. They will annoy the hell out of you, and maybe even hurt your feelings. But don't waste you r time on it. Gather the annoyance and resentment into a littl e ball and then throw it away. What does anger give you? What do you gain from holding a grudge, except for maybe an ulcer or two? If you don't mesh with somoene, then it's not worth your effort to hate them. There is nothing to hate but hate itself, I say. Walk away, chill out, watch some Monty Python, and all will be well.

I think Hide n' Seek should be an olympic sport.

Oh, and here: download a great song -
Quick (Eddie From Ohio)

Oh goodness! My second set is up!

What a perfect way to make this rainy dreary too busy day ten times better! And now i WILL definately give myself a nice treat and spent the rest of the day (after I finish my english essay, of course) lazing about and surfing SG and being a general layabout scaliwag!

In the words of Robert Benini, I love ALL of you!

My stupid body is being evil and betraying me again. Why oh why does it do this?

It's also really rainy and cloudy here. I think when i'm done with classes I'm going to go home and retire from the day. Take a nap, watch some movies, maybe some porn, and ignore the fact that i'm at college for the evening. That sounds really lovely.

In other news: quack quack.

I am the Milky Way Woman!!!!

And as such I want/am in need of many many kisses and hugs.

So this weekend I went back to C'ville, and on the (badly spent) Sunday evening, I decided to drive back to my old house. I thought it would be comforting...you know, in movies whenever a person is trying to find themselves they go someplace that used to be important to them and find some kind of great meaning, and an answer.

It ended up being sad, though. I guess it's true, you can't ever go back home. Once it's gone...it's gone. I drove past my old house (someone else is living there now) and it looked different...I was going to drive up to the lake, but I felt almost as if i was intruding. I didn't belong there anymore. As much as that place is part of my history and will always be in my heart, i'm not in its heart anymore, and i'm not really welcome, either.

So I drove home, driving too fast on the old curvy road where I used to chastise my friends for going to fast, lest their cars go screeching into the bushes and never come out again. And I went back to the city and cuddled up with Nick and it was fine. It's not that big a deal, really. It's just weird to think, you can spent so many years of your life in a place and then it just becomes a memory. How do you even know it ever happened?

I was telling my dad about this and he said it's like love. You can love someone and love someone and then if it ends, and they just become this memory, how do you know if it was ever really real?

In other news, I like porn.

Okay, okay, FINE, i'll DO it!

I am: A Morgan. I don't fully know what that means. I am self-conscious and overly critical of myself. I am immensely loving to those I care about. I give good backrubs. I hug well and I am told I am an extremely good fuck. I snort sometimes when I laugh. I get excited about movies. I am a picky eater. I am shy but I get outgoing once I get to know you. I have to be tamed. I am funny, in a way, and I guess I might be cute.

I enjoy: movies. sleeping. books, and then more movies and sleeping. sex. my boy. (notice the juxaposition of those two things) I do NOT enjoy listing things i enjoy because it makes my brain hurt.

I am looking for : nothing but friendship. I am looking for my boy to hold. I am looking for friends to hug and to hug me, too. I am looking for someone to SHOW me that I am an okay person, and to help guide me through hard times. And during the good good times, they will laugh with me. I am also looking for some good ice cream.

Well, I'm finally back.

Here are two quotes that struck me this weekend: "We are made to bleed, and scab and heal and bleed again, and turn every scar into a joke...we are made to fight, and fuck and talk and fight again, and sit around and laugh until we choke".

And more positively: "better to be dusty than polished
like some store window mannequin why don't you touch me where i'm rusty let me stain your hands...let's show them how it's done let's do it all imperfectly"

So, yeah. I got stuck in C'ville an extra day, but that's okay. All is a lot better now. I've just been having a bad-ish month, and hopefully it's getting better. I wish that i could just live with Nick and the people I love and still be in college, but until that can happen, I am happy just loving him. (and them)

As much as i do it, i never seem to become accostumed to disappointing the people that i love.

"Kathy, I'm lost, I said, though I knew she was sleeping...I'm empty and aching and I don't know why"

So this weekend I am going away to see my boy. I won't be updating at all until Sunday evening or Monday morning.

Since I am being evil and leaving ya'll for the weekend, I am leaving you with two special treats.

First of all, this journal is now a place to leave numerous Clerks Cartoons and Eddie Izzard quotes. If you know a quote (or many quotes) from these things, leave 'em!

Secondly (shhh, don't tell) here is a little link: linky linky It goes to four pictures, they are previews for the set i just finished! Two are "outtakes" and two are actually in the set. They are cropped, of course, so you'll have to leave some things to your dirty little imaginations.

Love you all! See you Sunday/Monday, and many kisses for everyone.