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OCTOBER 23, 2002 @ 11:04 PM

MEH!

I'm weirded out and jumpy and nervous and anxious. Why do I let myself do this to myself? Why do I force myself to find deep meaning in small things, meaning that probably isn't there?

I am like my guinea pig Frodo. Everything makes me jump and cower. My imagination acts like a runaway train...there it goes, and here I am, wanting nothing but comfort, and frozen until I feel safe again.

I'm a retard.

If people start telling the truth around here, I'm going to BED.

Here, look at me trying to be parker posey. Don't read my stupid ramblings. Remind me of my goal, that I was trying to be positive. Don't let me make the mental switch and push the panic button.

Save me, save me, save me.

Morgan

SUICIDEGIRL

Illinois, USA

OCT 23, 2002 11:14 PM

"so many sheep i quit counting
sleepless and embarrassed about the way that i feel
trying to make mole hills out of mountains
building base camp at the bottom of a really big deal"

TheOriginalSin

I'm lost

September 2002

OCT 23, 2002 11:14 PM

I have saved you, every one of you pics is on my hard...... mmm, that's not what you meant right.

Politrix

Jacksonville, FL

October 2002

OCT 23, 2002 11:24 PM

You're 8.3 times cooler than Parker or her Posey.

word.

Psmith

Fountain Valley, CA

OLD SKOOL

OCT 23, 2002 11:53 PM

who is parker posey?

NoPantsDave

Cincinnati, OH

OLD SKOOL

OCT 23, 2002 11:56 PM

"Who is Parker Posey?"....such a shame....

As cute as Parker is, she's got nothing on you

And yes, hopefully I will grow some fucking balls and ask that girl out.

montagro

Santa Cruz, CA

October 2002

OCT 24, 2002 12:02 AM

The Earth is spinning. You're alive. Theres tons of people who'd like to be in your shoes or be around you. You're intelligent and beautiful and you shouldn't let yourself think differently. Don't despair, understand your moods, and stop worrying about things that don't get solved by worry. Absorb yourself in happy things.

ratsonjulia

Koosharem, UT

July 2002

OCT 24, 2002 12:34 AM

I've actually had this recurring fantasy about Ms. Posey in that we're really good buddies & she lets me call her "Schmarker Schmosey", as in "What's say we go down to the sporting goods store & test out the pogo sticks, Schmarker Schmosey!" & she'd be like "Let's go!" & I'd be like "Oh, but I've gotta wait for a little bit, say, maybe 20 minutes, because I've got some stuff in the washer & it gets unbalanced really easy & makes this obnoxious buzzing noise that makes the neighbors nervous." "Oh, alright, then," she'd say.

I need to work on my fantasies.

rivers_cuombover

I'm lost

October 2002

OCT 24, 2002 01:32 AM

'party girl' is one of my most closeted obsessions.

was_nicole

I'm lost

OLD SKOOL

OCT 24, 2002 04:19 AM

yes break up suck, life goes on. thanks for the post.

bishop

Iceland

September 2002

OCT 24, 2002 06:02 AM

I thought you were Parker Posey using a psuedonym....

crazydasaint

Washington, DC

OLD SKOOL

OCT 24, 2002 07:44 AM

Depending on how serious your anxiety is, you could learn some meditation techniques (breathing exercises and the like) or even see a shrink and try to score some Paxil. My little sis was on Paxil for a bit, and it really helped her-- she was having serious panic attacks for a while.

Hmmm... Would you kick my ass if I said those pics reminded me more of Claire Danes?

madcool1

Champaign, IL

August 2002

OCT 24, 2002 01:37 PM

I have been trying to get some Eddie from Ohio stuff... hard to download from KaZaa. I could not find the Minnesota song, but i will keep trying.

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