I want it to be all right
Can't you see that's all I want?
You only laugh about it all

Did you find someone worth
All of the hours and all of the work?
I think I know how you get by

There's nothing I can do to make it all just go away
There's nothing I can say to make it all just go away
So it falls apart
It falls apart
Just like you wanted it to fall apart.

I just keep holding you down...

I'm back from a 2 week vacation all around Europe and the Middle East/ North Africa. I'm brewing up an epic blog post about all the wild shit we saw. Here's a teaser:


And I really like this:

I saw Cut Copy this week and they were surprisingly good live. Like really, really good.

Tomorrow I begin my journey to the land of pharaohs and pyramids, for real. See y'all bitches again in 2 weeks.

Life just keeps getting weirder and weirder.

This guy just keeps getting cuter and cuter:



Only those who'll hurt you will say patience is a virtue when it's been so long


How is it that I've never seen Chromeo live? Blasphemy.

Throwback:


Oh, and this is a painting I did for an art show benefiting my friend's sick Boston Terrier:

If you'd like a custom pet portrait, holler at yer grrrrrl. I'm gonna donate the $$ to the sick pup.

When is shit going to get better and (mostly) stay that way? I am in pretty dire need of some consistency and stability. I am so beyond ready to do this right, for real.

Me being weird:




I'm going to Italy, Greece, Turkey, Egypt and Israel with my family in two weeks. Cruising. Should be awesome, I've been obsessed with ancient Egypt since childhood. So there goes one item off the bucket list!

I'm also going to Vegas for a few days in August for Magic, the fashion tradeshow. Gonna get my network on! You can help fund my trip, Operation BYOB (Be Your Own Boss), by purchasing some sweet items from my store. Click the pic to shop:

Had a good couple days. Beginning to feel a little less like I'm just whistling in the dark. (knock on wood....because every time I post something good something awful happens)

Been spending some quality time with a certain man...

Hmmmm...

I went to a friend's bachelorette party and drank through a penis/tampon applicator straw:

got attacked by the bride-to-be:

Saw an old friend who's in town from LA:

Lots of dicks:

These are supposed to be dicks but look more like squashes:

Pink cigarettes:

Annnd some more glittery dicks:



He's real cute.

These loverly vintage gems will be in my store soon...

Check 'em out...

I have to go measure them now. Ugh. Hate that. It's so tedious and annoying, especially when there's so much other shit I need to do to get the ball really rolling with this! I need interns, dammit!

Dragonette on repeat lately:

Yeah I could find someone who'd never make me blue
'Cause nobody could ever tear me up like you
And its easy, hard as it looks

Could you go break it
If you let time we're awaiting
So don't mistake it
For something that you're free to play with



I like that outfit, the zippers' pinchin',
But if you want it any tighter we could cinch it.
Dress up in leather, wear every color.
I'm going rococo with sequins in the summer.

So, come - twirl your dresses around,
Lift your cotton socks on,
And turn your cameras on
Now for the fun...

I wanna get to the point where I don't feel like other people have to take care of me all the time. I'm so irresponsible and chaotic and I don't know how to not be. I'm scatterbrained, incredibly messy, overly emotional, forgetful. I'm never on time, I lose/break everything, I'm terrible with money. I pretend like I don't, but I drink way too much and I guess I'm a little bit of a hypocrite about that. I just wanna be a respectable, together human being but I'm so blaaaahhhhh all over the place always. I'm hard to deal with. I attract chaos like a magnet. When it comes to relationships my mom has always said, "You need a babysitter, not a boyfriend." I hate that. I'm not without my good qualities- but I gotta reign this shit in. I wanna be self-sufficient, not a walking disaster.

This will explain the pictures that will follow:

If I were a musical genre I'd definitely be sissy bounce.

I babysat this guy:

While his mama, my bff, got married (!!!!!) in Bosnia:


I also went to a clown themed birthday party:

Annnd some instagram action:




I've been totally enamored with Zooey Deschanel since Almost Famous. Offscreen, she's a little indie princess looking for my normal taste, like she shops at Mod Cloth or something, but I still love her and this song:

And you can work to save your love
You can bear it from the earth below
You can work but you can't let go
Oh, oh, but you have to know

Don't look back
All you'll ever get is the dust from the steps before
I don't have to see you every day
But I just want to know you're there

Life is confusing. I'm scared of making the wrong decisions. I get ahead of myself and I kill myself with questioning. That leads to 4 am panic attacks and insane stream of consciousness text rants. My anxiety only makes this situation worse. When will I learn?





I went out last night. We went some party at Wiz Khalifa's cousin's house or something. I don't know, all I do know is that I was one of 3 white people there, and we were dancing to Juvenile like it was the year 2000 and I ruined my shoes.

I drank way too much. I need to stop that. I wanna get away from that life, and live quietly and happily with the person I love. But. It's complicated. Oh well, at least my bangs looked good.

It's been a while since I've heard this one:

Most of this garbage I write
That these people seem to like
Is about you
And how I let you infect my life
And if they got to know you
I doubt that they would see it
They'd wonder what i showed you
How you could leave it
A friend in Chicago said that I should stay persistant
If I stay around, I'm bound to break resistance
Fuck you Lucy for defining my existence
Fuck you and your differences