SuicideGirl: Monroe
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Monroe don't cook or clean but I dress my ass off and my walk is mean

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MAY 22, 2011 @ 07:21 PM


Life is confusing. I'm scared of making the wrong decisions. I get ahead of myself and I kill myself with questioning. That leads to 4 am panic attacks and insane stream of consciousness text rants. My anxiety only makes this situation worse. When will I learn?





I went out last night. We went some party at Wiz Khalifa's cousin's house or something. I don't know, all I do know is that I was one of 3 white people there, and we were dancing to Juvenile like it was the year 2000 and I ruined my shoes.


I drank way too much. I need to stop that. I wanna get away from that life, and live quietly and happily with the person I love. But. It's complicated. Oh well, at least my bangs looked good.

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Drama

Drama

Columbus, OH
January 2003

MAY 22, 2011 07:25 PM

Life confuses me more and more everyday so I'm right there with you.

BTW I'm going to be back in Pittsburgh next month the week of June 26. Shall we hang out?

Tactical

Tactical

I'm lost
August 2009

MAY 22, 2011 07:26 PM

looks like a good group to be in wink you look amazing, and you gotta start trusting yourself

catdad

catdad

Portland, OR
August 2002

MAY 22, 2011 07:30 PM

Love the first pic. smile

78walk

78walk

Oklahoma City, OK
July 2005

MAY 22, 2011 11:08 PM

Life is complicated and confusing and I'm won't try to claim it ever becomes otherwise. Time passes by at a deceptively fast rate that's extremely difficult to grasp when you're young. It's important not to delay choices indefinitely - we never know how long our time here is going to last and life is meant to be lived. We all make mistakes, no matter how cautious we try to be. When mistakes occur, try to see them as learning opportunities rather than indicators of fatal flaws. Always keep in mind that there is no set of magically correct choices that will lead to an easy, uncomplicated life, so beating yourself up for failing to find that perfect set of choices is irrational and self-defeating. Just try to use knowledge of past outcomes to make better choices in the future.

Those bangs are rockin'. smile

MSelect

MSelect

Grand Rapids, MI
January 2008

MAY 22, 2011 11:33 PM

patience is key. damn that reminds me how i mostly don't miss drinking

Glitch

Glitch

SUICIDEGIRL

British Columbia, Canada

MAY 23, 2011 12:12 AM

that they did smile I hope your figure shit out heh but don't we all

Totem

Totem

I'm lost
December 2008

MAY 23, 2011 07:02 AM

I'm having a similar problem - i keep overanalysing everything I say or do in case it goes wrong, looking for problems. Always here to talk/take your mind off things.
Your bangs do look pretty rad, great hair colour on you at the moment.

mellon

mellon

USA
October 2004

MAY 23, 2011 09:04 AM

I think it's worth realizing that you never control the outcome anyway. We spend all this mental energy trying to figure out what action we can take to produce the outcome we want, but usually things go in a different direction anyway, don't they? So you might as well stop trying to get the ball in the corner pocket and just do the actions that are in keeping with who you want to be, even if you don't know what the result of doing them will be. Leave the complexity to take care of itself.

13Jack

13Jack

USA
September 2004

MAY 23, 2011 10:34 AM

I can't even tell my wrong decisions from my right ones anymore. So I stopped sweatin' them. Works for me.

forevershadow

forevershadow

USA
April 2011

MAY 23, 2011 02:45 PM

We all have these days. I get them the more stressed I am for sure. Need some beach time with the dog, smile

MetaTag

MetaTag

United Kingdom
September 2002

MAY 23, 2011 04:06 PM

Worry is often worse than the thing you are trying to avoid, but I know that it is not that easy to stop over analysing.

McKenzie

McKenzie

SUICIDEGIRL

California, USA

MAY 23, 2011 07:47 PM

your animals are good models! kiss

Rigel

Rigel

ASSPARTY

USA

MAY 24, 2011 07:05 AM

Your bangs did look good!! I wanna go to parties where I can do the Wop... Take me there....

Rigel

Rigel

ASSPARTY

USA

MAY 24, 2011 03:48 PM

everyone i've showed it to says that they are "too white" to wop but i can do it so i don't know what that says about me. i particularly like to "check a lady like 'daaaang she fiiiiiine!'"

EL_Scootro

EL_Scootro

Pittsburgh, PA
January 2005

JUN 03, 2011 11:58 PM

i have also seen your nipples.

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