hey there, wow a sat. entry from me, see i am trying to be more on the ball. shooting more girls tomorrow, some old favorites and some new favorites hopefully. hanging ou ttoday tryign to get shit done. talk to you later. <p> xoxo -missy

i had a bit of insomnia last night and have had way too much coffee to overcompensate this morning. thinking too fast to talk, then too slow. i feel like i am in that simpson's episode where homer out eats that trucker at the steak restaurant and the trucker dies and so homer and bart have to go deliver his last load. then homer slacks off and has to get like a billion miles in a couple of hours so he takes all of those uppers, then the guy at the stop and go tells him that would kill him so he takes all of those sleeping pills to counter act it. then he just volleys between going super fast and falling asleep. and the truck drives itself and all is ok. that is how i feel. now if i can only get photoshop to drive itself i will be all good. <p> xoxo -missy

good morning starshine. i guess it is already evening but this day has gone by so fast. so much going on. prepping photos, meeting new girls. 3 really great ones that i hope to shoot in the next couple of weeks. <p> i missed pilates class this morning and here is why.... spooky and i went to kick boxing last night (yes i am on a health kick) and i hadn't eaten all day so i was super exhausted and cranky afterwards. i took a pain pill and i guess crashed out on the couch watching tivo, the next thing i knew spooky was pleading with me to wake up and go meet the new girls. i guess i was asleep for like 12 hours or something. i suppose i was tired. <p>anyway, in class, this guy that i was fake sparring with actually punched me in the hand. it is bruised and swollen now, makes me feel tough. i guess i shouldn't feel so tough, if i really were tough his hand would be bruised not mine. <a href="/girls/Six">six</a> came by this afternoon and i showed her my hand, all proud of my battle woulnd and all, and lets just say she was less than impressed. she showed me her knuckles that were still swollen from an actual fight like three weeks ago. guess i need to practice my badd ass routine a little more. <p> xoxo <ahref="mailto:missy@suicidegirls.com">-missy</a>

hey there everyone. the holidays are growing ever near. i hate holidays, more reason for stress and obligations, as if there wasn't enough of that already, but there has already been a long message board discussion about that. instead i propose a holiday where your only obligation is to make yourself happy. where you can't put obligations on others to make you happy, you just have to do what it takes to make yourself happy. probably a silly idea but it would be more fun than having to spend time with and buy presents for everyone you ever met because of some alleged holy day. and there isn't really a day that you get immunity like that to just think of yourself. i should sign off now. <p> xoxo <a href="mailto:missy@suicidegirls.com">-missy</a>

so <a href="mailto:spooky@suicidegirls.com">spooky</a> and i went to a pilates class this morning. so much fun. going to go twice a week. maybe i can twist <a href="/girls/Celia">celia's</a> arm into going too. very funny board posts this morning. i have a bunch of new photo sets to prep and <a href="/ubb/cgi-bin/ultimatebb.cgi?ubb=get_profile&u=00000304">bside</a> keeps sending mysterious lists of graphics requests. so i guess i have to go. <p> xoxo <a href="mailto:missy@suicidegirls.com">-missy</a>

why is doing the right thing sometimes the hardest thing in the world? it is so easy to go with your natural defense mechanisms and make the same mistakes over and over. we all have baggage programmed into us from child hood, that is what spookys friend from l.a. said last night and i think she is right. it was really great getting to hang out with her. she is super smart. i love getting to know people that make you think. i have to sign off now too much work to do. -missy

hey everybody just had a great shoot with new sg girl lily. can't wait to show you the pictures. she may very well be the most well traveled suicide girl. i am so jealous. my competitve side is going to kick in. might have to hop a plane soon. <p> xoxo -missy

hey there kitty cats. i was working part time at a five and dime.... i can't get prince out of my head this morning. going to brunch with celia and spooky's friend from l.a. then i am shooting 3 new girls. very excited. going to be late. talk more later. <p> xoxo -missy

so missy is a slacker. sorry kids. but i am updating my journal today. spooky just added new girl penelope to the site. she is dreamy. i have a meeting with a potential sg girl in about 10 minutes, so i have to keep this short. nothing much exciting happening in my life anyway. just feeling a little down, lots of work to do, and not much partying in my near future. but my friend is supposed to have a little one any day now so i am sure that will change my outlook. new life, new purpose, world will look a little brighter. can't wait. <p> xoxo -missy

hey there kitty cats. i am back at work. bside keeps bugging me for new graphics for some mysterious reason. so i think i may help him out today, he was nice in l.a. either he is up to something or he just wants more pictures of the girls. i need to go have a smoke. i'll write more later if i get a chance. luv and kisses. -missy