Oh No I am so sorry to hear that!! I hope you are ok...or will be ok...if there is anything I can do let me know....sing a song, dance like an ass...anything to make u less sad...
It was the only thing to do, you were entirely right. There's giving second/third/whatever chances, and then there is being cruel to yourself and putting yourself through things you know you can't deal with and that won't ever change. I know saying things like "everything will be better soon" won't help you right now, but it will. Take your time to get over the initial shock and pain, but I guarantee you that this will be a great new beginning for you. And if you ever feel that things are getting too much you can always take a trip to the UK to take your mind off things
All the best sweetie xx