life, as always, continues apace. zoom. the other night walking home i sang a song about seahorses and rocking chairs and fire hydrants. it was just me and the earliest birds out at 3am. i'm so busy these days.

you remember that moment playing heads up seven up as a kid, when you waited and waited, tensed, your entire being centered around that one eager digit, and then someone tapped your thumb and it was like a realization, a disclosure, kind lightening striking..? i feel like that sometimes.

i wrote a long entry, and then i erased it to feel the power of making something irrevocably disappear.

last night i dreamed of chocolate.

i'm reading nietzsche again.

i am lonely.