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Some fuckers are posting my shit on myspace and telling ppl that Im a suicide girl. That shit really pisses me off! I HATE THE INTERNET!! but yet Im so addicted. Pretty soon once I get my life back together I wont have to be online as much to have to help keep me occupide!
Well luckily for me I have a few months before I turn 20 and get hunted down and get force to get my breast examination! Its terrible I tell you! When ever I have to go to the doctors It feels like a punishment for being a chick.
I miss having a digital camera around. I want to post more pictures and post them on here and myspace.
Last night when I was washing my face before bed. I starting thinking about myspace. (Dont ask why) But yea anyways. I had my cousin show me how to put pictures onto my myspace page. I finally got to put cheeta print as my background. And changed the colors around, and then I realized that my entire page was the exzact same colors of my chest tattoo. Well my tattoo isant all those colors yet. But those are the colors Im planning to have. But what a nerd am I ? lol!
with out realizing it! But myspace looks so hott! I have pictures of me from when I use to live in the city. And then I have a really hott pic of Marilyn. You guys should check it out!
yesturday I went into work for my pops and lets just say it wasnt the greatest! I hate seeing when my dad stress out. That job is way too stressfull. We couldnt find a file. Which wasnt bad but wasnt good. This guy Henry that my dad keeps firing then rehiring was there for his first day again. He came in and was like "what are you doing?" and I was like uuh "helping my dad out" he of course replys "ÿou look like your doing homework" (
grow up you retard! ) he was like "yea this is my first day back" and I looked at him and looked him in the eye and said "you better keep your job this time" he just laughs! And then asked me If I got any new tattoos. I said yea I got my chest my done. And his eyes just got so big and had like the biggest smile " Can I see it?" I was like uuh maybe later I cant really show you here" I swear that guy just grew a boner. And I just thought to myself you got to be kidding me. Im not going to show this perve. He then showed me his latest addition on his leg. And the first thing that came to me head, That looks like shit! I really wish that when some gets a tattoo that they go all out and dont just get a tattoo to fucking look cool. Tattoos are art and you shouldnt treat it like its not. Sorry but Im just very artistic at heart and my tattoos mean alot even if its just a random tattoo that I get every tattoo needs to look good and mean something to me!
I miss having a digital camera around. I want to post more pictures and post them on here and myspace.
Last night when I was washing my face before bed. I starting thinking about myspace. (Dont ask why) But yea anyways. I had my cousin show me how to put pictures onto my myspace page. I finally got to put cheeta print as my background. And changed the colors around, and then I realized that my entire page was the exzact same colors of my chest tattoo. Well my tattoo isant all those colors yet. But those are the colors Im planning to have. But what a nerd am I ? lol!
with out realizing it! But myspace looks so hott! I have pictures of me from when I use to live in the city. And then I have a really hott pic of Marilyn. You guys should check it out!yesturday I went into work for my pops and lets just say it wasnt the greatest! I hate seeing when my dad stress out. That job is way too stressfull. We couldnt find a file. Which wasnt bad but wasnt good. This guy Henry that my dad keeps firing then rehiring was there for his first day again. He came in and was like "what are you doing?" and I was like uuh "helping my dad out" he of course replys "ÿou look like your doing homework" (
grow up you retard! ) he was like "yea this is my first day back" and I looked at him and looked him in the eye and said "you better keep your job this time" he just laughs! And then asked me If I got any new tattoos. I said yea I got my chest my done. And his eyes just got so big and had like the biggest smile " Can I see it?" I was like uuh maybe later I cant really show you here" I swear that guy just grew a boner. And I just thought to myself you got to be kidding me. Im not going to show this perve. He then showed me his latest addition on his leg. And the first thing that came to me head, That looks like shit! I really wish that when some gets a tattoo that they go all out and dont just get a tattoo to fucking look cool. Tattoos are art and you shouldnt treat it like its not. Sorry but Im just very artistic at heart and my tattoos mean alot even if its just a random tattoo that I get every tattoo needs to look good and mean something to me! i hate going to the v-doctor! It is the most uncomfortable feeling ever, which only last a secont, but to me feels like forever! this is the third time Ive been since I began having sex. And it fucking sucks! In a few months by the time I have my birthday, Ill be able to have a breast exzamination! joy for me! grrr Iam definally not looking forward to having that done. Cause my chances of getting breast cancer are good. When I was in 5th grade I had a small lump in my under arm, but I had it removed before it could get any bigger. I wounder if that some what related to cancer. I guess not since they never said anything. Just that it would have gotten to the size of a lemon.
After I got back from the doctors, my mom watched a lil tv before she had to go to work. We began to discuss life. And plus she could tell I was kinda down. After talking to my mom I realized how much I loved her even more. She showed me that she was there for me if I ever needed anything.
Reminder to myself put lasana in over @ 5
Iam definally not looking forward to having that done. Cause my chances of getting breast cancer are good. When I was in 5th grade I had a small lump in my under arm, but I had it removed before it could get any bigger. I wounder if that some what related to cancer. I guess not since they never said anything. Just that it would have gotten to the size of a lemon. After I got back from the doctors, my mom watched a lil tv before she had to go to work. We began to discuss life. And plus she could tell I was kinda down. After talking to my mom I realized how much I loved her even more. She showed me that she was there for me if I ever needed anything.
Reminder to myself put lasana in over @ 5
Over all my weekend wasnt too bad. I was able to keep busy doing stuff.
Hmm I cant remeber what I did Friday. I probablly sat around the house like I usally do. But Saturday, that was interesting. I went to the San Francisco tattoo expo like I planned with my sisters and a cousin. The expo was kinda small not too many people. Going to to tattoo conventions are like the only place where I feel comfortable with just wearing a tank top cause then I can show off all my crazy tatts and no one will give me shit! By the way this is my secont tat convention. I found Moms body Shop the shop I use to go to all the time when I lived back in the city. I was hoping to see Ricky but he wasnt there. I remeberd this chick that worked there. She worked the counter. She helped me when I got my fore arm tatted for my birthday. And I remeber Barnaby. He was busy tattooing some one. So I couldnt say hi. I kept walkin around and some guy came up to me and tapped my shoulder and asked if he could take a picture of my Marilyn monore. So i said sure. And the guy just ran off after. It was kinda weird but cool at the same time. I got alot of peoples attention on my chest and I definally got got a few fellas looking my way. There was one guy that tattooed for "tattoo filling" I think thats the name. I cant remeber. Every time I walked by in my head I was like "look at me please ur so hott!" but I didnt have any luck he was busy tattooing. The only thing I didnt have a found of was his tat on his face. The guy had some arrow thing. I dunno but whatever he was still hott.
Later we went down to the warf and had dinner. I ran into leeloos friend who works down on the warf. It was nice seeing that guy again. I kinda got depressed well I had my dinner, cause I really missed the city alot and plus my friends!I didnt want to leave at all!
my stupid friend took his digital camera back, so now I cant post any more pictures of my cute ass!
well at least untill I can afford a new digital camera. I fucking loved that camera. I used that thing every single day!
Ive been talking to my buddy and he found a place for us to move into. Now I just got to get the nerve to tell the folks that Im outties! I know my dad wants me and sisters out, but how in hell am I sapost to tell my dad that Im moving in with a guy. Whatever its my life right?
I finally have a set schedual date to get my chest worked on again! Im so excited! I dont know how much will get finished. But Im just glad that itll be a working progess.I asked for some hours at the company so I can get some more work, that way I have alittle more cash in my pocket before I go to my appointment.
Does any one else get people tugging at their shirts to see peoples tattoos. I do and It really pisses me off. Im not a fucking art display. I swear the next time some one does it to me with out asking, I swear Ill punch them or something. Its so rude. And then I get the dumbest question ever!!!!! " then why do you get tattoos?" because I do! geeeze do I have have to have a reason for everything. I get tattoos because I like getting them and I get them for myself, no one else! I dont get them to show off. Im a very personal person okay! And so what If I get them in places where their visual doesnt give you the right to pull on my clothes to look at my body. I have really bigg issues with the way people look at my body. Cause Ive been skinny all my life. So Im always getting dumb comments on how skinny Iam. It doesnt stop! and it wont. I was born this way , I dont know why I stay so damn skinny. I have a fast motabalism or some shit! geeze stop with all the dumb comments. And you know who I get all these comments from is my family. And Its bullshit. Your family is not sapost to judge you. I cant saying anything though cause If I do then Im over reacting or I just need to chill out cause Im too senitive!
Hmm I cant remeber what I did Friday. I probablly sat around the house like I usally do. But Saturday, that was interesting. I went to the San Francisco tattoo expo like I planned with my sisters and a cousin. The expo was kinda small not too many people. Going to to tattoo conventions are like the only place where I feel comfortable with just wearing a tank top cause then I can show off all my crazy tatts and no one will give me shit! By the way this is my secont tat convention. I found Moms body Shop the shop I use to go to all the time when I lived back in the city. I was hoping to see Ricky but he wasnt there. I remeberd this chick that worked there. She worked the counter. She helped me when I got my fore arm tatted for my birthday. And I remeber Barnaby. He was busy tattooing some one. So I couldnt say hi. I kept walkin around and some guy came up to me and tapped my shoulder and asked if he could take a picture of my Marilyn monore. So i said sure. And the guy just ran off after. It was kinda weird but cool at the same time. I got alot of peoples attention on my chest and I definally got got a few fellas looking my way. There was one guy that tattooed for "tattoo filling" I think thats the name. I cant remeber. Every time I walked by in my head I was like "look at me please ur so hott!" but I didnt have any luck he was busy tattooing. The only thing I didnt have a found of was his tat on his face. The guy had some arrow thing. I dunno but whatever he was still hott.
Later we went down to the warf and had dinner. I ran into leeloos friend who works down on the warf. It was nice seeing that guy again. I kinda got depressed well I had my dinner, cause I really missed the city alot and plus my friends!I didnt want to leave at all!
my stupid friend took his digital camera back, so now I cant post any more pictures of my cute ass!
well at least untill I can afford a new digital camera. I fucking loved that camera. I used that thing every single day! Ive been talking to my buddy and he found a place for us to move into. Now I just got to get the nerve to tell the folks that Im outties! I know my dad wants me and sisters out, but how in hell am I sapost to tell my dad that Im moving in with a guy. Whatever its my life right?
I finally have a set schedual date to get my chest worked on again! Im so excited! I dont know how much will get finished. But Im just glad that itll be a working progess.I asked for some hours at the company so I can get some more work, that way I have alittle more cash in my pocket before I go to my appointment.
Does any one else get people tugging at their shirts to see peoples tattoos. I do and It really pisses me off. Im not a fucking art display. I swear the next time some one does it to me with out asking, I swear Ill punch them or something. Its so rude. And then I get the dumbest question ever!!!!! " then why do you get tattoos?" because I do! geeeze do I have have to have a reason for everything. I get tattoos because I like getting them and I get them for myself, no one else! I dont get them to show off. Im a very personal person okay! And so what If I get them in places where their visual doesnt give you the right to pull on my clothes to look at my body. I have really bigg issues with the way people look at my body. Cause Ive been skinny all my life. So Im always getting dumb comments on how skinny Iam. It doesnt stop! and it wont. I was born this way , I dont know why I stay so damn skinny. I have a fast motabalism or some shit! geeze stop with all the dumb comments. And you know who I get all these comments from is my family. And Its bullshit. Your family is not sapost to judge you. I cant saying anything though cause If I do then Im over reacting or I just need to chill out cause Im too senitive!
Well today my parents have been married for 27 years! geeze thats a long time. I dont think I can even have a relationship for more then 4 months. Im just happy my parents never got a divorce unlike alot of other parents I know of. And Im very thankfull my parents are normal unlike some other people I also know. So we celebrated by going out to dinner with the immediate family. We ate this resturant called Pains, I had my usal meal. Raviolies! But for some reason they werent as apealing as I thought I would enjoy eating.So I just had them box it up so I could enjoy it later. There was one good looking guy who was also eating at the resturant. He was eating with his mom. I had my eye on him the secont he walked by. Cause He had a tattoo on his lower calf. I think I notice guys tattoos first, before I really want to persue the guy. Im weird like that, or Im just too judgmental.No it couldnt be cause Im a artist at heart and the guy had to have a love for art also.
I also feel weird when Its just the family. I dont know why I get this way, but I feel excluded from my family alot, like I dont belong. I really get hard on myself because Im a third child. Now dont get me wrong Im not some depressed mental person. I just feel like that. Mabey I need to see a doctor who knows.The coversation came up how my dad wanted us three girls to move out. (My sister had informed us) The conversation grew more when my sister said she was going to move to this one place. Then I thought to myself well heres my chance to tell them Im probablly moving In september. But I really did not want to talk about it, cause I have a feeling their going to stop me. So i just kept to myself like I also do. I eventually tell my mom. I really think I need to do this cause, theres nothing here for me. No friends, no job, no car. I cant go anywhere. All my friends live out of town. Plus my friend hes giving me a big break. He said I can move in September for free, only that I need to find a job during that time. I think itll be worth it. Cause If I was too move back to san francisco with my old roomate, Id be paying the same amount only Id have a entire room to myself and a closet to myself. Well If I live with my old roomate I would sharing a room with my friend and her boyfriend and sharing closet with both of them, Yea I didnt think so. I know alot of people are going to be sad when I leave, But I need to do something with my life and my friend is willing to help me start my life again. I know Jake wont be happy cause Im actually moving in with my buddy. And I guess jakes shop isant working out so hes going to santa cruz to look for a job and live there. So Im actually moving futher away.
Ive created a monster!!!! my sister is addicted to myspace. Its all she talks about. She even brought it up at the table when we were having our dinner. This really sucks for me. The more she talks about it, some how shes going to have all her friends look at my page. This is really not good. I still have alot of suicide girl stuff on my page. Like the display for the new dvd and all my sg friends. Im really thinking I should leave that site. Cause Im not going to risk getting caught being a suicide girl.
Tomorro is the tattoo expo, It should be nice to get out of this place for once. I miss san francisco so much! I miss my friends alot too! I really want to go to haight street. I want to see if ricky is working at Moms? lol no I probablly shouldnt go in there. It would be an acward silence bettween us. And all my feelings would come back from likeing him again. Ive never been to the cow palace, so this should be interesting. I have a feeling alot of guys are going to ask me if they could finish my chest piece for me. Gee.....! Im going to see so many people itll be fun.
Well today my mom started work again. Kinda bummed, cause now its only me and my dog around the house.
Lets see what did I do yesturday, not very much, Im at at a boring part of my life where nothings happening. Kinda pathetic. The only reason that this is happening to me cause I chose to move back home. I was in college living a fun fun life in San Francisco, But the school was stressfull and I was home sick cause my grandma was really sick. I guess you could you say I decided to move back home based some what on my grandma. Well not really, I just was tired of never seeing my family and wanted to spend some damn quality time. But now that Ive been here for 3 months. It sucks everyone in my family has their own damn life such as jobs! So now I even wounder if I should of just stayed there, but I had to cause of family situation.
anyways back to daily schedual lol. I made a few phone calls. talked to my aunt about looking into the school was attending. The only thing they dont have is Massage therapy. grrrr ! I need to find a school and fast. I also called my buddy whos tattooing my chest. He didnt answer his phone so I left a message and if he doesnt call back Ill probablly call the shop on Sunday and go from there.
This Saturday my sisters and I are going to the tattoo expo in San Fran. I think Im going to wear my new cheeta print tee shirt that way I can show off my tattoos. This will be my secont convention. The first one I went to was in Reno with my ex boyfriend.
We stayed in the hotel and stayed all weekend. It got kinda boring after awhile. I could of gotten a tattoo paid by my ex but I didnt want to, thank god cause then I would remeber that moment with my ex boyfriend forever! I allthough did get some good out it, I met my future boyfriend Jake there! So I definally think this saturday will be alot more fun at the tattoo expo.
Lets see what did I do yesturday, not very much, Im at at a boring part of my life where nothings happening. Kinda pathetic. The only reason that this is happening to me cause I chose to move back home. I was in college living a fun fun life in San Francisco, But the school was stressfull and I was home sick cause my grandma was really sick. I guess you could you say I decided to move back home based some what on my grandma. Well not really, I just was tired of never seeing my family and wanted to spend some damn quality time. But now that Ive been here for 3 months. It sucks everyone in my family has their own damn life such as jobs! So now I even wounder if I should of just stayed there, but I had to cause of family situation.
anyways back to daily schedual lol. I made a few phone calls. talked to my aunt about looking into the school was attending. The only thing they dont have is Massage therapy. grrrr
! I need to find a school and fast. I also called my buddy whos tattooing my chest. He didnt answer his phone so I left a message and if he doesnt call back Ill probablly call the shop on Sunday and go from there.This Saturday my sisters and I are going to the tattoo expo in San Fran. I think Im going to wear my new cheeta print tee shirt that way I can show off my tattoos. This will be my secont convention. The first one I went to was in Reno with my ex boyfriend.
We stayed in the hotel and stayed all weekend. It got kinda boring after awhile. I could of gotten a tattoo paid by my ex but I didnt want to, thank god cause then I would remeber that moment with my ex boyfriend forever! I allthough did get some good out it, I met my future boyfriend Jake there! So I definally think this saturday will be alot more fun at the tattoo expo. 
OMFG!!!!!! I just recieved a email from BrokenDolls! They want me to model for them!!!!!! I barley even filled out the submission for the site like two days ago! They asked me for my address so they can send paper work to explain what I need to do. The only information that was given in my email was that the photosets consits of 55-85 pictures and Ill get paid starting out at $75 bucks and once Ive build up more work Ill get paid more!! OMG! Im on a roll... Im going places just you wait baby!! Now I need to find a good photographer and maybe Ill re-do my hair or something funky. Geez I need to finish my chest tattoo asap! Thats it Im making an tattoo appointment tomorro pronto!! Im so excited!
Today wasnt a really bad day I would have to admit. Cause usally my day consists of sitting on my ass staring at the damn computer, unless I get called into work for the boss! I went to Gilroy with my mom like I promised her. We first went to Walmart so my mom could buy some work clothes, (shes going back to work on Thursday) Kinda sad that she has to go back to work cause my mom has been my buddy ever since I moved back to my home town. Owell It was going to happen whether I liked it or not, plus Im hoping to move back to San Fran.
Well my mom and I were at the stop light waiting, I was gazing my eyez this guys truck.(It was a nice truck) Not realizing that he noticed me checking out his truck. He started waving to me with the biggest grin on his face. Then his buddy who was riding shot gun noticed me too and both of the guys were totally checking me out!! I turned my head so quick, trying to denie that they were looking at me so my mom wouldnt notice and embaress me after. But She noticed, and she totally thought the driver was cute too. lol! She was all "Im telling your sisters!" I had the biggest grin on my face for the rest of the day. I wish I could have took a picture of the guy or something so I could remeber his cute face forever!
I think Im just going to apply to schools in San Francisco and San Jose for Massage therapy. And If I get into a San Fran school Im definally going to date my friend. But If I dont then Im just going to part my ways and just go on my own. I cant have some guy hold me down. I can get plenty of guys!
Today after my shower my eye was bothering me and I kept rubbing it, and a tiny piece of my contact came out of my eye! eeeeeeeeeew! I thought maybe thats why my eyes are always red, but its not.
Today wasnt a really bad day I would have to admit. Cause usally my day consists of sitting on my ass staring at the damn computer, unless I get called into work for the boss! I went to Gilroy with my mom like I promised her. We first went to Walmart so my mom could buy some work clothes, (shes going back to work on Thursday) Kinda sad that she has to go back to work cause my mom has been my buddy ever since I moved back to my home town. Owell It was going to happen whether I liked it or not, plus Im hoping to move back to San Fran.
Well my mom and I were at the stop light waiting, I was gazing my eyez this guys truck.(It was a nice truck) Not realizing that he noticed me checking out his truck. He started waving to me with the biggest grin on his face. Then his buddy who was riding shot gun noticed me too and both of the guys were totally checking me out!! I turned my head so quick, trying to denie that they were looking at me so my mom wouldnt notice and embaress me after. But She noticed, and she totally thought the driver was cute too. lol! She was all "Im telling your sisters!" I had the biggest grin on my face for the rest of the day. I wish I could have took a picture of the guy or something so I could remeber his cute face forever!
I think Im just going to apply to schools in San Francisco and San Jose for Massage therapy. And If I get into a San Fran school Im definally going to date my friend. But If I dont then Im just going to part my ways and just go on my own. I cant have some guy hold me down. I can get plenty of guys!
Today after my shower my eye was bothering me and I kept rubbing it, and a tiny piece of my contact came out of my eye! eeeeeeeeeew! I thought maybe thats why my eyes are always red, but its not.
