I really need to write...
It will happen soon...

Finally!!!

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I'm following my Heart...
And I'm really hoping it's not leading me Blindly...

I'm sorry about not post photos of the owl and my new dermals...
I've been working really hard on a site for my photos...
And I've been slacking on updating you all on my life...



I'll be back soon. I'm just living for a moment...

Things did not go as smoothly as I had hoped...
This is NOT about other people...
It's all about ME...
It is NOT a testament to how much I DO or DO NOT love you...
So STOP with the accusations.

I have to be as honest as possible...
But if you want me to just say everything you want to hear...
You're messin' with the wrong chica...

I should have taken this time when I really wanted it...
But because I loved you...
I did what you wanted instead...
And now I want my time even more than I did before...

I am sorry.

A lot has been running through my head...

But nothing crazy or dramatic.

I've just been really focused on getting my art in order and disciplining myself. At this point, I put about 20hrs/wk into creating - and that's mainly just photography. My goal is to include sketching and painting so that I'm devoting 40hrs/wk on my pieces or just studies.

I'm being selfish right now. And honestly, I just don't give a fuck. I love it. For those of you who keep up with my Myspace page, yes, it says I'm married...because I have decided that I am married to myself, my life, and my art. And I have to say it's the best relationship I've had in a long time.

Though there is someone I have in mind that I would love to move forward with...
But slowly and surely, if it's meant to be, it will happen.

Working here at the Talisman is a Dream. I don't mean to rub it in for those of you that are still working where you don't feel fit, but fuckin' A...I love this place! I get paid to clean, (which I get done everyday in an hour) and sketch or get tattooed.

Heaven is an understatement.

I'm also working on getting back to school. I need to owned my fucking talent and stop drawing incomplete pictures because I'm not sure where to go with them...or not confident enough in myself to finish. It's getting old...

I'll be sure to edit this later on today with a photo of the owl sleeve we have started...so check me later.

*Peace*

I'm better today.



Here's a Flower -

Okay...

Lately - I feel like everyone's snot rag. Seriously. I'm always here for folks, especially those I really love or have a lot of love for. I have too big of a heart. I believe in what people tell me...but then their actions contradict their words...and I'm either tossed to the side like I never mattered or completely blown off and given the silent treatment without knowing what the real issue is. Then I'm given an apology and expected to blow everything off...like I'm made of steel.

Even Superman has his weakness.

To be perfectly honest, I'm emotionally tired. I know what I want, where I want to be, and what I want to do. I love myself too much for this.

People just don't seem to give too much of a rats ass about what they are really saying to me and how much words can mean...how much they leave an impression on me. Words have a lot of power and you better be sure you mean what you say before you choose an action that doesn't match up...

Just...you know...don't forget how I have cried many a nights wondering why...

I am emotionally bottled up...I have to write here soon...
But Until Then...



Some Day I'll be known for My Art...

So I'm back in Good Ol' Santa Fe.

It's been a time for new beginnings. Tim has left today for San Fran. I'm really excited for him...but sad at the same time. I've grown to love him so much...but he is starting school and I know he'll make a better life for himself out there.

Becky is going to start moving in this week. I look forward to dance sessions and having someone who's taste in interior design is very similar to mine. I think we can make a really lovely home out of the place we have...Dixie and I just haven't come across anyone who would really like to put in the effort with us.

A good friend of mine from France is staying here with us till about the 25th. Olivier is just as great as I thought he would be. We met here...SG is a great place for connections that go way beyond the shallow everyday encounters I have in town.

I started my new job at the Talisman. Anyone and Everyone who is in my neck of the woods is welcome to stop by and say hello. I am the Jewelry Girl. And it's too funny...I just found out yesterday that my boss is Stitch's older brother. The world is so small at times...

I'm debating a lot of where I want to go with my life at this point...I have to contact this guy about having my art show...

OH YES, NYC was great! We did so much in so little time. It all seems like a WhirlWind....we passed a lot of land on the way (we drove) and I'm seriously considering moving out to New Paltz or buying up some land for a ranch in Pennsylvania. I took a TON of great photos...I just haven't taken the time to upload and edit.

Love you all!

Life is a Whirlwind Here in NYC...
For the First Time...
I'm not excited about going back to New Mexico.

Catch me if you Can...