Okay...

Lately - I feel like everyone's snot rag. Seriously. I'm always here for folks, especially those I really love or have a lot of love for. I have too big of a heart. I believe in what people tell me...but then their actions contradict their words...and I'm either tossed to the side like I never mattered or completely blown off and given the silent treatment without knowing what the real issue is. Then I'm given an apology and expected to blow everything off...like I'm made of steel.

Even Superman has his weakness.

To be perfectly honest, I'm emotionally tired. I know what I want, where I want to be, and what I want to do. I love myself too much for this.

People just don't seem to give too much of a rats ass about what they are really saying to me and how much words can mean...how much they leave an impression on me. Words have a lot of power and you better be sure you mean what you say before you choose an action that doesn't match up...

Just...you know...don't forget how I have cried many a nights wondering why...