Just because I feel like it...

In early 2002 while I was still in high school I received a couple of e-mails that were something to the affect of "Hey someone thought you would like this site, come check it out!" In the beginning SG had a e-mail generator button on the main page. Someone, and I still don't know who, continued put my e-mail address in in hopes to bring it to my attention.

My first impression of SG was a positive one. I thought the whole concept of alternative looking ladies mixed with old pin up was an awesome idea. I admired those early ladies for the fact that they had the nerve to do it and stand up for the fact that just because you look different, doesn't mean you can't be beautiful too. I also found that because the site was much more than just naked ladies, made it a lot more intriguing. It's not just pictures, SG's foundation truly is it's members and community.

In September of 2003 I finally joined the site as a member. I spent a lot of time reading and writing on the message boards. I joined the SGTC group shortly there after but was too chicken shit to actually meet any of the local SG members. I continued to post blogs, interact with the members, seek advice in the Girls Only group, etc.

In 2004 I finally went to an SGTC event which was to see Shaun Of The Dead at the Lagoon. Again I was painfully shy and didn't say hi to too many people.

Example :

In 2005 I tried again and went to The Independent for what used to be a weekly SGTC get together. I met Danielle, and DarkJuan, along with a few other people. I was so fucking nervous that I had to bring my friend Suzy with me because I had no idea what I was getting myself in to. I was pleasantly surprised that no one was going to bite my head off and continued to go to get togethers after that.

That year I also shot my first set for SG with a photographer that I don't even care to name. We shot a set on an old T-Bucket in a garage. A bunch of bullshit went down and when I finally got my set back from the photographer all of the pictures were too small for me to even submit as a set. It was lame to the max.


Later that year Mr. Phillip aka Lithium Picnic made a trip up to Minneapolis and I jumped at the chance to shoot with him. I had been following Mr. Picnic for several years via LiveJournal, way before he was a house hold name. I was terribly excited to get a chance to work with him after admiring his work for so long.

My first set went up on March 23, 2006 and I'm approximately SG number 994. It was a good day.


Late in 2006 I met Serendipity at the SG tour at First Ave. This sparked a bat shit crazy friendship that took a nose dive about a year ago which resulted in me moving in with Danielle and DarkJuan. But holy shit did we have fun together and that's an understatement. HLP.

In January of 2007 I went to the Shades of Blue tattoo convention in La Crosse Wisconsin with a few of the local girls. There I met Fractal and Salome. Both are very lovely ladies. We had an awesome good time that weekend, even if it was -2343 outside.

Example:

How many SG's can you fit in a liquor cage!? 4!!
Salome, Serendipity, Danielle and Me

Since then I've gone through phases of being active in mildly active on the site and only because of time. I'm a busy lady.

So why did I decide to jump from member to SuicideGirl? I did it not only for the chance to work with Lithium Picnic, but I did it because I wanted to prove to myself that I could do it. I spent years admiring these women and I didn't want to go through life wondering if I could have done it. Well I proved to myself that I could. I don't regret a single moment of it. If it wasn't for SG I wouldn't be where I am right now. I have met the most amazing people through the site. They are the reason I did it and they are the reason I continue to stick with it. Some of these people are my best friends. I even live with 2 of them! I also attribute it to meeting my #1 lady and my boyfriend, even though that was bound to happen one way or another. The community is the only reason why I'm here. I've found best friends, good friends, support, advice, helpful information, news, interviews, music, books, etc. through SG. It's not just naked ladies, but I am proud to be one of them. My heart shrinks a little as the number of girls sky rockets, the politics around the SG vs. LP thing happened, and when certain things come and go, but I still love SG and being a part of it. So people can squawk, squabble and talk shit all they want. It just goes in one ear and out the other.

To every single one of you that I've met through SG, I love you a shit ton and thank you for some of the best times I have ever had.