Pretty much real life.

And then I went to Hawaii to see my brother:




And had a nice view from my balcony.





And saw beautiful things.








And ate delicious young coconuts on the side of the road in the middle of nowhere.









And got lovely new metals in my body:
(Go to Seth at Adorn Bodyart on Belmont! He's a pro!)








And my birthday is next week. The big 2-5. EEP!

My life:





















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It is in my nature to be pessimistic, I have always accepted this as part of who I am and have never made any attempt to change it. I suppose it has always been easier to expect the worst and prepare for it, so that I always felt I could come out on top in the end. I don't need to win, though, and it has taken me many miserable, half-hearted, depressed years to figure that out.

My life has been so full of joy, love, and luck as of late, and I can be nothing but grateful and hopeful. I have been gifted with the most loving, caring people that I could ever ask for. I love my job, I love my friends, I love my family, I love my dog, I love myself. This does not mean that I will not slip back into my old ways, old habits die hard. But as for now, I am opening myself to all of the amazing things that the world has to offer me, without questioning or doubting (disbelief is different!) or preparing for the worst. I can't wait for everything.

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I am living my life in the best way I can. I have removed the people from my life who have caused me emotional harm, and have embraced the loving, honest people that I was afraid to bring into my life before. I have shown more love and appreciation to the people who were already in my life that I maybe did not before. I have so much love to give, and it doesn't necessarily need to be within the confines of a romantic relationship (though there is something promising on the horizon, only time will tell!).

On a side note, I have become painfully aware of my relationship patterns over the last year or so, which explains why I always end up with men who share similar personality traits. Since I've been alone and had plenty of time to reflect upon this, I think I may now be able to practice the self control necessary to prevent these things from happening again (hopefully). It was suggested to me to make a list of the all the things that I desire in a partner, and to not waiver from the list at all. So far, I have only come up with three non-negotiable traits;
1. Honesty
2. Humility
3. Humor

The three H's, I guess. In order for these things to be present in the people I have in my life, I have to possess them as well. I promise myself that I will continue to live my life honestly and respectfully. I am still working on that list, though!


Bring it on, bitches.

Awesome stuff:

1.) My bed:

500 thread count pima cotton sheets have got me sleeping in the buff even in the winter. I'm a sheet snob, none of that cotton/poly or "microfiber" crap for this girl, no sir.

2.) Oregon Health Plan:
I have not had health insurance since the day I turned 21 and was no longer covered by my father's health insurance. Unfortunately for me, I got really sick a couple of weeks ago and ended up in the ER, with a bill pushing almost $3,000 (sure didn't mind the morpine though!).

By some stroke of divine luck, after being on a waitlist for nearly 4 years, I now have some state health coverage. Because of this, my hospital bill will be drastically reduced if not completely covered. How on earth did that happen? I won't question it but THANKS, UNIVERSE!

3.) I got a raise. HOLLER!

4.) So much love:
Brittany and Hansel:


Angie and Rich:


Chooch:



I'm one lucky, grateful, happy bitch.

I have moved and don't have internet access for the time being.

But things are beautiful and wonderful and getting better every day. I hope everyone is doing well