P_Mod just sent my set to the staff............ I'm really scared......

Cross your fingers for me please...

Some pics !! I'll have others soon... (In my opinion, too much photoshop for my eyes, but It's the only thing that have been photoshoped.. )

I'm crying in front of my computer screen.

I cannot explain why. I know why, but I can't tell it to you. It's too hard, too difficult for me.. I have some big health problems, they will never disapear.. and it's fucking hurt me, sometimes...

I should explain, I should tell you. But I'm just not able to talk about it.

Sometimes I'd like to re-born.. be different... and not have to suffer my whole life becauses things I can't influence..

I have to be brave, but now, I just can't...



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EDIT : 08/04

I'd like to apologize for yesterday. You're really sweet and your comments made me better. My body has some problems, yeah, but yesterday it wasn't suffering. But my mind was sad and that's why I wrote this yesterday...

But today I'm fine !

Some good news :

- P-Mod is still working on my set and should finish soon ! Yeaaaaah.

- I should receive pics of my fashion shooting of last sunday today or tomorrow ( and of course I'll show you as soon as possible !! )

- Today is a great night : BEER-BEER-BEER-FRIENDS-MUSIC-CIRCLE ( to explain : presidents and members of the 25 others circles of students of the city came and we sing song of each circle, drinking bear and having fun. Nice moment ) (Oh, yeah, we are all totally drunk at the end : Imagine : drinking a beer after each song ^^ )

- Sun is shinning.

- I love you


S'you soon and thanks again for your support, guys and girls...

Work in progress ...




It's not finished at all, I'm going to add texts around the faces.. I'll make 3 differents paintings for 2 friends and one for my boyfriend..

I love when I'm painting and creating..

I think I'm in love.

For Juno.

Rhaaaaan





I think I'm going to begin to smoke pipe..


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Oh and I forgot to show you the nice drawing that Grompf did of me

Opale did a funny drawing about the multi I did with Sweety, photographed by the lovely Dwam.

This pics is really great because it was JUST like this

Today was a fucking nice shooting ! I LOVED it ! P_mod is fabulous, lovely and a really great photographer !

I'm really tired because of this day but.. some pics of today, done by the wonderful Dwam, but they won't tell you anything about the shoot It's secreeeeeeet :

Hi everybody..

Wow.. I had lot of good news.. and I just received a phone message that hurted me a lot..

A friend of mine has a tumor, I don't really know how serious it is. I knew it, but the message said that he was in the hospital because he had a problem because of his medical treatment.. I don't know how he's going, the message was sent by a friend of him... I'm a bit shocked. I hope he'll be fine soon...

But tomorrow I have my SG shooting with P_Mod and Dwam ! It's going to be great !!

The shooting will be there :



Tuesday I have a shooting too with a friend and we are going to try to do an SG set.. and I hope to put it in hopeful You'lle maybe see it soon

I'll give you news soon !

Hello ! Another selfshoots I did yesterday evening because I had nothing to do and I was really boring...















And Justeb made me this :

VOMITOIRE QUOTIDIEN



J'ai envie d'écrire en français, désolée à tous ceux qui parlent pas un mot de cette (belle?) langue.
French post, Sorry for the others ^^

Ce week-end SG m'a vraiment fait du bien. Je suis sortie d'une sorte de no-life stagnante de mollusque dans laquelle je m'enfonçais. Cela me redonne une putain d'énergie..

Mais aussi énormément de tristesse.. parce que je me retrouve ici, en Belgique, avec toutes ces filles géniales loin de moi. Non pas que je n'aime pas les gens avec qui je vis ici, mais ce n'est pas la même chose évidemment. Le sentiment de libération, de transcendance de soi-même, n'est pas aussi fort...

Et là.. je suis chez moi, enfin, chez mes parents.. Je m'ennuie, tout est fade, je mange.. Je n'ai que ça à faire. Manger, télé, ordinateur... C'est chiant !! Je ne me sens pas du tout en vie ici...

Hé les gonzesses, vous me manquez.. et les gars aussi, j'en ai rencontré quelques chouettes spécimens...

Lundi prochain, shooting avec P_mod, avec Dwam en "assistante photo" ( mouahahaha ) ... ça va être vraiment gai.
Ensuite, j'ai quelques possibilités de shootings pour me faire un peu de tune, parce que ce ouikend a complètement vidé mes derniers sous... Je pense que cette deuxième semaine de vacs va être riche en shootings...

Merde, aidez moi à me sentir vivre... J'ai l'impression d'affoner du formol là..



J'ai fait des photos bêtes ...

Désolée pour le tratement un peu crade, je m'amuse avec lightroom..