SuicideGirl: Maedusa
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Maedusa n'a rien à dire.

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APRIL 26, 2008 @ 02:12 PM

WARNING : BIG UPDATE INSIDE smile

So, first, I'm going to answer or react to questions and tags about my set smile

1) Tags

- "back dimples" : Nice, I adore it, but I wasn't aware that I had back dimples biggrin
- "lipstick" = Yeah, from Dior, thanks to Dwam smile

... that's strange. When I'm writing this, I realize that some tags was deleted. I saw some ... hurting things...
But I didn't want to delete them. I want to accept every tag, every comment, even worst ones...
So, please, if you see some "hard" comments or tags... Don't care for me smile
When you will see them, please, add 2 new tags/comments, and make disappear the bad ones smile

2) Comments & messages

- First, to all that have been concerned by the theme of my set and that told me "thank you" for it,
I'd like to tell : Thanks for having understood me smile
- LieLock wrote : "fantastic set... very emotional and just the type of sets that SG needs to have..." & boombands wrote : "wow. i think this is what sg is all about. shit that isn't just naked chicks but art, and art makes you think. at least good art does."
>> Thanks to people who said that my set was a really "SG-set" because it's really WHY I'm here... smile
- Kidego wrote : "Gorgeous, gorgeous, gorgeous! I don't suppose your single?" > Hahaha. No, I have a boyfriend and I'll marry him biggrinlove
- Warning wrote : "This is absolutely amazing. I love the entire concept....I rarely have any emotions evoked by sets but this was tragedy and beauty mixed wonderfully. Fucking thumbs up to the photographer as well....I am out of words..." >> I'm so so happy that people can feel how much I put in this set. It's huuuudge for me. Thanks to everybody.


- So, about my scare in my neck. I received a lot of messages and comments from people who asked how I had it.
If you want to know it, I copy what I wrote in this blog some months ago...



So, at the end of my secundary school ( nearly 2 years ago ), I had a problem in my neck. It began to swell and to swell again, it hurted a lot ! I couldn't keep my head right.
So, I went to the hospital, where I stayed during one week, with lot of cortisone (I don't know if it's the right english word ) and antibiotics.

After some medical exams, doctors discovered that I have a congenital anomaly.

It's called "fistule branchiale" in french but don't know in english. I'm going to explain..

When you are in the uterus of your mother, at a moment you have a "fish moment" with webbed fingers and the thing in the neck that fishes use to breath. You understand my horrible english ? Right, I continue..
This thing in the neck should close totaly and build your throat, aso.. But I had a really really small problem : a small hole remains deep into my throat. So, nothing that we could see but really deep into it.

If I had continued to live with, I'd have problems again and again, and it would have became really difficult to care it with the time.

So, I decided to accept the operation that was necessary.

So, here, a pic before my operation :

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Then : a pic when I stayed 1 week at the hospital ( the first time so )

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And now, pics DURING THE OPERATION !

/! WARNING : THESE PICS CAN HURT THE SENSIBILITY !!!!!! /!

First : a pic INTO my throat. You can see the small hole in the left ..






Then : pics of my opened throat. These pics are really horrible .. HAHA biggrin biggrin




Now, pics taken with my phone, after the operation, at the hospital where I stayed 1 week without eating nor drinking ( haaaaaard !! )

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When I saw my scare for the first time, I cried a long long time.. It was so big, so horrible, so ugly.. I was really sad.

Here are a pic some months after the operation. It was the first time I wanted to make pictures of my scare, to accept it as being a part of me.

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And finally, I'm alive smile

My scare now is like on pics of my set smile




3) What's next ?

- For the moment, I have a self-shot project. But it will be really difficult for me, so.. you'll have to wait but... I'm thinking about ! smile

- I have an idea of set with a great photographer friend... i'd put it in the hopeful section to receive the so beautiful grey t-shirt biggrin

- During the SG week-end to Paris, Sweety and I did some kisses and some hugs... and Dwam was there with her camera. What a luck, isn't it ? smile
We hope you'll see it soon... wink

- I had a contact with Waikiki and she's usually close to Belgium... So, we could do something in the future ... love !!!

- I maybe have my next idea with the great P_Mod if he's ok biggrin

- I'd like to do a multi with Dwam but she think that SG won't like my idea frown frown Pitty. I would like to try even ...

- I so would like to do a biiiig multi with all the french and belgian SG I know love


3) My day in the countryside...

I was at my parent's home this week-end and this afternoon I went walking in forets... ( and I got lost, yeah, but it was nice and I have find my way after 2 hours without any problem biggrin )

So, I had the time to do some pics... here are these for you :

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I just put a video for the Most Honest Video Contest...

Really, I'm a strange girl. I do things that are the worst for me, like showing this video of me completly drunk biggrin

Enjoy tongue


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Dwam

Dwam

SUICIDEGIRL

France

APR 27, 2008 12:19 PM

Non mais moi je suis ok pour le multi, je suis toujours motivée pour tout tu sais bien. Je te dis juste que ya beaucoup de chances pour que ça ne passe pas pour pas que tu sois déçue. Après, oui, faisons le ! Ce sera superbe !

T'es tellement belle que c'en est dégueulasse, quand même...

BrightRedScream

BrightRedScream

Stoney Creek, ON
April 2005

APR 27, 2008 12:54 PM

I have to tell you - that your set is something that hit home with me.
You're very inspiring, and hopefully one day I can follow in your foot steps ♥

BrokenDoll13

BrokenDoll13

HOPEFUL

Fort St James, BC

APR 27, 2008 06:57 PM

Lovin the video doll...your accent is waayyy hot.
I'm really glad that you made it through all of that. You seem to have come out being very expressive and happy. I just can't get over how beautiful you are...willl u kiss me ?? biggrin
xoxo

jeffyjr

jeffyjr

Webster, FL
December 2007

APR 27, 2008 10:26 PM

Oh you poor thing I'am sorry.

Scotty

Scotty

SUICIDEGIRL

Australia

APR 28, 2008 02:41 AM

Awww thank you sweety smile

You are adorable, and I loved your video! You have the sexiest accent!

And i truely loved your set.

xoxo

Bloo

Bloo

SUICIDEGIRL

France

APR 28, 2008 03:16 AM

wha, ça claque les cheveux rouges... love love

deadly_photo

deadly_photo

Ireland
February 2005

APR 28, 2008 05:41 AM

Love the set, and all your photos. Even the scars! ARRR!!!

Spleen

Spleen

HOPEFUL

France

APR 28, 2008 05:51 AM

bha oui t'es dans mes faves, j'ai vraiment adoré ton set!!! love
... et en plus, là ta vidéo est troooooop bien!!!! je suis une totale fan de nutella et, j'aime trop ton accent anglais, il est trop chou!!! je te kiffe love

helica

helica

I'm lost
November 2007

APR 28, 2008 09:53 AM

hi there.I think your set is amazing. You and your photographer have a great amount of talent. Have you been involved in any other modelling?

Cuky

Cuky

SUICIDEGIRL

I'm lost

APR 28, 2008 11:22 AM

Compliment for your debut set!!
!I love the pics that you post in this blog...with red hair you are wonderful!!! love

pinkpinup

pinkpinup

HOPEFUL

France

APR 28, 2008 11:49 AM

coucou!
merci pour ton message! j'ai en effet reposté mon set (après une longue hesitation), donc il sera bientôt dans la partie hopefull (si tu l'as vu la premiere fois ce fut une erreure, car le site avait buggé!)

pinkpinup

pinkpinup

HOPEFUL

France

APR 28, 2008 11:58 AM

j'adore la video! tu es trop mimi!! ; )

Griotte

Griotte

France
April 2008

APR 28, 2008 04:36 PM

Le set est plein d'émotion, la fin est rayonnante : c'était une belle idée (et ce sont de belles images) !
Les cheveux rouges te vont à merveille, les photos 1 et 2 (et 3,4,5,6,7) en forêt sont très réussies ! J'adore leurs couleurs, les poses, le style !
(Désolée pour l'avalanche de compliments, prochain commentaire je chercherais autre chose à dire wink)

Trypode

Trypode

France
February 2008

APR 28, 2008 05:06 PM

Ce que tu racontes est très touchant, et ressort tellement sur les photos... blush
Pour finir sur une note plus légère : c'est trop bien cette couleur rouge ! love
Et encore bravo !

NiuNiu

NiuNiu

HOPEFUL

I'm lost

APR 28, 2008 10:42 PM

how did you manage to still look so good right after the operation?! tongue

i love scars. nothing conveys more character than scars.

kiss

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