SuicideGirl: Maedusa
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Maedusa is fucking hot with her hairs, 'cause otter are with theirs...

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APRIL 26, 2008 @ 02:12 PM

WARNING : BIG UPDATE INSIDE smile

So, first, I'm going to answer or react to questions and tags about my set smile

1) Tags

- "back dimples" : Nice, I adore it, but I wasn't aware that I had back dimples biggrin
- "lipstick" = Yeah, from Dior, thanks to Dwam smile

... that's strange. When I'm writing this, I realize that some tags was deleted. I saw some ... hurting things...
But I didn't want to delete them. I want to accept every tag, every comment, even worst ones...
So, please, if you see some "hard" comments or tags... Don't care for me smile
When you will see them, please, add 2 new tags/comments, and make disappear the bad ones smile

2) Comments & messages

- First, to all that have been concerned by the theme of my set and that told me "thank you" for it,
I'd like to tell : Thanks for having understood me smile
- LieLock wrote : "fantastic set... very emotional and just the type of sets that SG needs to have..." & boombands wrote : "wow. i think this is what sg is all about. shit that isn't just naked chicks but art, and art makes you think. at least good art does."
>> Thanks to people who said that my set was a really "SG-set" because it's really WHY I'm here... smile
- Kidego wrote : "Gorgeous, gorgeous, gorgeous! I don't suppose your single?" > Hahaha. No, I have a boyfriend and I'll marry him biggrinlove
- Warning wrote : "This is absolutely amazing. I love the entire concept....I rarely have any emotions evoked by sets but this was tragedy and beauty mixed wonderfully. Fucking thumbs up to the photographer as well....I am out of words..." >> I'm so so happy that people can feel how much I put in this set. It's huuuudge for me. Thanks to everybody.


- So, about my scare in my neck. I received a lot of messages and comments from people who asked how I had it.
If you want to know it, I copy what I wrote in this blog some months ago...



So, at the end of my secundary school ( nearly 2 years ago ), I had a problem in my neck. It began to swell and to swell again, it hurted a lot ! I couldn't keep my head right.
So, I went to the hospital, where I stayed during one week, with lot of cortisone (I don't know if it's the right english word ) and antibiotics.

After some medical exams, doctors discovered that I have a congenital anomaly.

It's called "fistule branchiale" in french but don't know in english. I'm going to explain..

When you are in the uterus of your mother, at a moment you have a "fish moment" with webbed fingers and the thing in the neck that fishes use to breath. You understand my horrible english ? Right, I continue..
This thing in the neck should close totaly and build your throat, aso.. But I had a really really small problem : a small hole remains deep into my throat. So, nothing that we could see but really deep into it.

If I had continued to live with, I'd have problems again and again, and it would have became really difficult to care it with the time.

So, I decided to accept the operation that was necessary.

So, here, a pic before my operation :

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Then : a pic when I stayed 1 week at the hospital ( the first time so )

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And now, pics DURING THE OPERATION !

/! WARNING : THESE PICS CAN HURT THE SENSIBILITY !!!!!! /!

First : a pic INTO my throat. You can see the small hole in the left ..






Then : pics of my opened throat. These pics are really horrible .. HAHA biggrin biggrin




Now, pics taken with my phone, after the operation, at the hospital where I stayed 1 week without eating nor drinking ( haaaaaard !! )

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When I saw my scare for the first time, I cried a long long time.. It was so big, so horrible, so ugly.. I was really sad.

Here are a pic some months after the operation. It was the first time I wanted to make pictures of my scare, to accept it as being a part of me.

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And finally, I'm alive smile

My scare now is like on pics of my set smile




3) What's next ?

- For the moment, I have a self-shot project. But it will be really difficult for me, so.. you'll have to wait but... I'm thinking about ! smile

- I have an idea of set with a great photographer friend... i'd put it in the hopeful section to receive the so beautiful grey t-shirt biggrin

- During the SG week-end to Paris, Sweety and I did some kisses and some hugs... and Dwam was there with her camera. What a luck, isn't it ? smile
We hope you'll see it soon... wink

- I had a contact with Waikiki and she's usually close to Belgium... So, we could do something in the future ... love !!!

- I maybe have my next idea with the great P_Mod if he's ok biggrin

- I'd like to do a multi with Dwam but she think that SG won't like my idea frown frown Pitty. I would like to try even ...

- I so would like to do a biiiig multi with all the french and belgian SG I know love


3) My day in the countryside...

I was at my parent's home this week-end and this afternoon I went walking in forets... ( and I got lost, yeah, but it was nice and I have find my way after 2 hours without any problem biggrin )

So, I had the time to do some pics... here are these for you :

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I just put a video for the Most Honest Video Contest...

Really, I'm a strange girl. I do things that are the worst for me, like showing this video of me completly drunk biggrin

Enjoy tongue


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Ticktockman

Ticktockman

Raleigh, NC
April 2006

APR 26, 2008 02:18 PM

First off: scars build character. It is so!

Second off: that pre-op pic is just the most beautiful thing. Poetry in a picture. Cheers,

-TTm

Gidgette

Gidgette

SUICIDEGIRL

Pennsylvania, USA

APR 26, 2008 02:19 PM

you are very brave for going thru what you did and its a blessing youre sitll here... welcome to the site beautiful! kiss

Ferretbite

Ferretbite

Mexico
September 2006

APR 26, 2008 02:19 PM

Moi j'suis content qu'ils aient enlevés quelques commentaires dégueulasses, 'y a des gens ici qui s'amusent à mettre de ces trucs là où ils peuvent.

Moi j'adore les photos de chirurgies, disons qu'avec un père médecin tu prends vite l'habitude.

Félicitations encore pour ton début, j'sais que j'arrête pas de le dire mais c'est vraiment trop géniale ce que tu as fait avec P_mod.

Justine

Justine

SUICIDEGIRL

I'm lost

APR 26, 2008 02:23 PM

votre anglais est mieux que mon français smile

Opale

Opale

SUICIDEGIRL

France

APR 26, 2008 02:27 PM

Les photos de la gorge ouverte c'est impressionant eeek

Heroine

Heroine

SUICIDEGIRL

Virginia, USA

APR 26, 2008 02:31 PM

Now with that story even your set means more! It's about you! I'm glad you've learned to accept it considering you can't change it. You're beautiful just the way you are! smile love kiss

The_Boss

The_Boss

I'm lost
June 2007

APR 26, 2008 02:39 PM

Haha why does this not suprise me

"Gorgeous, gorgeous, gorgeous! I don't suppose your single?"



*Makes the sour face*

Abbiss

Abbiss

SUICIDEGIRL

Belgium

APR 26, 2008 02:46 PM

Moi aussi j'ai des back dimples il paraît! Ca a l'air d'être à la mode pour le moment. M'enfin, c'est mignon! Et je n'efface pas mes tags/comments méchants non plus. Il faut accepter que certains n'aiment pas... ou soient jaloux. J'ai eu en 5 minutes deux tags opposés: Best set ever / Worst set ever . Le plus important, c'est que le premier m'ait plus touché et que je sais très bien que ca ne peut pas être le pire des sets sur ce site, que cette personne est conne et j'espère aussi qu'au moins ça lui a procuré un minimum de plaisir, que ca serve à quelque chose!

Gadget

Gadget

SUICIDEGIRL

Pennsylvania, USA

APR 26, 2008 02:46 PM

I think scars are hot. I have some that I got done professionally - brandings - that are my favorite body mods. I think yours is amazing. Maybe this sounds lame, but scars do build character especially when you earn them. You're a very brave lady.

BrisusCheez

BrisusCheez

HOPEFUL

Charlottesville, VA

APR 26, 2008 03:19 PM

OMG! You are an amazing woman - Thanks for sharing yourself with all of us in this site!

feerlessfreddy

feerlessfreddy

Las Vegas, NV
February 2005

APR 26, 2008 03:27 PM

that was a wonderful journal entry. you are an awesome person. good luck with future projects. and ill say again, your set was awesome!!!

Franpire

Franpire

SUICIDEGIRL

Netherlands

APR 26, 2008 03:47 PM

I have a lot of scars, I am not so brave to show them. Maybe one day. You are amazing love

Acacia

Acacia

SUICIDEGIRL

Virginia, USA

APR 26, 2008 03:53 PM

I'm glad this went live. I thought it was an amazing set. Perfect for SG, really. smile

drowyn

drowyn

Austin, TX
October 2005

APR 26, 2008 03:54 PM

I thought your set was very well thought out and it is true that beauty/art can have a message that takes the viewer on a journey that expands their view and perception. Great work!

About the scar...I have one also. I have never heard of anyone having what I had back in '90-92. I thought the doctors were making it up or something. They told me the same thing, that it was when I had gills in the womb and they didn't close up all the way. But they just posited this "theory" and never officially told me what it was.

In my case it was just a tiny hole I guess, but my neck slowly began to swell. At first it was like a little knot in my neck, but eventually it grew and grew until it looked like I was trying to hide a golf ball in my neck, just under the skin. And I was a fast food restaurant manager, "how appetizing".

The doctors went round and round about it, and never told me for sure what it was. But I didn't have to have the full surgery. They were able to cut it open and it drained over the course of a couple of months. Was not fun. Had an iodine wick in my neck to make sure the cut would stay open so I had to run around with my neck all bandaged up the whole time. Wasn't thrilled with a "in the public eye" job during THAT time.

People ask me occasionally about my scar also. Just to see their reaction I will tell them I was stabbed at a concert or something and barely survived. After they freak out I tell them that, "No", I had a golf ball removed from my neck. I tell them the whole gill thing and they look at me like I'm crazy.

BUT I'M NOT! You have gone through this too! Thanks for sharing, I'm glad I've met someone else who went through that.

Beautiful, a great mind, creative, and having interesting human experience. What a wonderful combination! Continued success!

Arly

Arly

HOPEFUL

United Kingdom

APR 26, 2008 03:57 PM

Amazing scar, always nice to hear the story behing it too! Thought i'd post here to say how amazing your set is, it reaches out to alot of people, like me! With the stupid image of what women look like in the mainstream media, it's hard not to think about weight and image all the time.

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